12/30/06 –
Sorry for the mess...cleaning up hopefully be done this weekend, had some scripting errors and some sharing errors so I'm moving everything to another hostingsite. thanx for your patience. - mngt...lolz no ...-E that's better!!!!
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Hello, my name is Ernest and I’m a B.O.Y. (beauty of youth). I’m in my mid thirties but still like to live life to its fullest and experience new things and re-experience old things as if they were new. Some of my friends would say I have a heart of a child because I’m so accepting, giving and playful. This is something I watch disappear from my friends as they grow older, with a bit of sadness as they forget to have fun and live, something I hope I never loose. I’m not much of a partier, but love being active, and can fit into any social environment because my interests are so broad. I love watching my daughter learn because it teaches me the lessons that I forget sometimes, such as everyone needs to leave time for play in their hectic lives; that everyone needs love; that age, sex, religion, race, sexual orientation, etc., truly do not matter on the playground, that understanding and learning are paramount to the quick fix, that everyone is a friend until they give you reason otherwise, and that it isn’t silly to stand in amazement as you watch a lady bug in a garden playing on the wind. I guess you can say I’m a little in love with my daughter because she means the world to me, and I will do anything for her, because she deserves no less.
According to all of these personality tests, I’m a Romantic and yahoo takes it further and says I’m a Romantic-Idealist, for whatever that is worth. These tests say that I believe in a past and more pure time, well I think that is true to some extent, because I don’t always remember the world being so cold, and uncaring. I guess it is for these reasons that I make sure to have time to watch the sun go down, that I like to go to jazz bars with good friends, that I help people in need, that I volunteer when I can, and that I make sure I am the best father I can be. I just hope the world my daughter inherits is a little more tolerant then the world she was raised in.
Well on this site you will find the usual things a great group of friends, and all the other normal stuff, but in addition to the normal fish and chips I have added these lovely boxes for your reading enjoyment, so you do not have to pan through pages of stuff you have already read before. On the jukebox are some of my favorite songs right now and feel free to play them all, I usually leave another window to this site so I can listen while I bounce around, and give me feed back on the artists, similar artist, artists you think I would be interested in etc. In fact in every panel you will find a table for feedback on a particular area, and please feel free to ask me questions, start up a conversation, complain about my opinion, or open a discussion because communication is so important, and usually the first step to understanding and friendship. I have added a couple of extra tables that will house the rant of the week, poem of the week, and satire piece of the week, eventually I’d like to do a comic but don’t know with school, archives are all kept in MyBlogs. As you probably figured I’m an artist in soul, but a businessman in mind, a lover by nature, a protector from birth, and always a loving friend.
Well with all that said I thank you for your time and hope you enjoy the site. Please feel free to drop by anytime and drop me a line, I’d love to hear from you. Sincerely –E
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01/29/07 It’s the start of the Middle Eastern Invasion!!! The song of the week has no real purpose other than it is a great song and many of you probably haven’t heard it . The song is Khaled’s Alech Taadi, fun! Fun! fun! HEY…DONâ€T FORGET TO DANCE!!. Enjoy –E
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~THE BOVINE PROCTOLOGIST~
- The weekly ramblings of a deranged mind -
~ What is Love? ~
I have found myself asking this question far too much over the last few years, to its more recent pinnacle. I hear of lust being describe as love, “she’s so beautiful, he’s so sexy†but there is little more to it then empty promises of what could have been when the sheets come off and the lights are on. I know this isn’t love, I think most realize this in the absence of fulfillment as they dawn on day old stale clothes that hang with the promise of something more. Tirelessly we trudge on through the day wondering what it was that we accomplished or achieved, even when the body has been frequented.
For those of us cohabitating, it seems in the morning there are less regrets, for theer were less passions the night before. The daily grind weighs on us, and we hate what we thought we were gaining but could not be obtained. Where our expectations to high? Did we have foundation? We know we loved each other once, to this we never question, but for the future we have doubts. “Honey, could you hit the snooze again†and under our breaths we mutter “Because I want to remember the idea of us, that I fell in love with.â€
Could we set aside ourselves and our wants for what we really need? Could we learn to enjoy the silent presence of the person that holds our hearts? In a world so full of fast self gratification, are we so lost that we can no longer understand what love truly is? What it should be? What we long for it to be? Have we really lost touch with acceptance so much that we think it will only come from the things we own or can buy? Is the touching, holding of another’s soul so scary to us that we would rather dive into a fantasy world of media fiction and accept the lacking in our lives, then to stand together and remember what made us whole when we first glimpsed so quickly, so long ago. Has it really fleeted forever or are we just blinded by fear.
Love is scary and I, a person who puts love above all else, will be the first to admit it. Hearts are so frail, that any sudden change or discourse can scar it for years and leave us doubting of it ever being whole again; and if you ever wonder why we cry for no reason…this is why. And as we get older we settle or leave, versus fighting for what could be or what we wanted. If we leave we are invited by and go with other souls who seem as if they might know where we are coming from because they have felt similarly, but we don’t choose them because they feel the same as to what we want “us†to become, as loneliness is a fools tool to false love, and settling is dishonesty in it’s truest form.
I don’t think I have the answers to love, but I know I believe in what is possible, and I can visualize what I want it to be. I might not ever find it, or be ready for it when it is found, different people, different times, different paths, and there is never clue. But I hurt in my soul for it, my brain tells me I want it, my heart tells me I fear it, so I march on alone wondering what is love longing for the answers to come.
~ A Plea to Women ~
Those of you who know me, know I worship
Taras , with focus on the White Tara. This magnificent being is the guiding light to travelers who leads them on their journey across the Oceans of Existence. She is also the mother of all Buddhas, a the symbol of compassion, purity and truth. The reason I am bringing this up, this little exercise in Buddhist “mythology†for a lack of a better word, knowing I have offended many, is I was just in a conversation with a classmate who is very Christian, and well for a lack of a more appropriate negative, a revolting sexist who was complaining about the female students on his team. After about 20 minutes of enduring this onslaught towards a gender that I revere, I finally had to pose THE question to him: WHERE WOULD YOUR GOD BE, WITHOUT THE MOTHER WHO BARED HIM?!?
Now, I mean no offence to anyone who practices the Christian faith or that of any other religion for that matter, but Jesus had a mother, and wouldn’t it be safe to say that it was Mary’s teachings and guidance that led him to be the man he became? After all she was his mentor, his care taker, his guiding light and reason for becoming a better person. Where would Lord Ganesh be without the mercies of Uma saving his life and attaching the head of a way ward elephant to his body after Shiva, his father, lopped it off in a jealous rage?
I beg all woman out there to remember what it is that makes you special to the world and the women who follow in your foot steps, and the men that stand beside you all. Embrace that which makes you special your love, your compassion, your ability to heal and guide. Forget about proving yourself in terms that men decide are important, stop competing with men on their terms and belittling all that makes you better than us. I see too many women forgetting to become that which they are, which is nothing short of life itself. If there was a way that I could scream it out to all of you so it would stick, I would, be elegant, be graceful, be embodiments of nature herself because that is the essence of your light, and let no man take that from you or make you forget it.
Maybe today, just for today, for starters; maybe you could practice embracing everything that you truly are and shine. Cause praise to be issued towards you, towards the beauty in everything that you do and are. Let people know that you are life by emitting your femininity with strength and passion, because it is not frail it is not weak, it is the power that drives all of existence and it is time that was celebrated. Maybe if the world can remember to cherish its women instead of treating them like beings trying to be equal to men, maybe the world wouldn’t be so messed up, maybe there would be more compassion and less hatred in the world. Maybe the world could remember what it was like to be pure, whole, and at peace again. Let’s make the world remember that mother does not mean vengeful, hateful, competitive, hurtful, that MOTHER means the light of love that conquers all in a child’s eyes, don’t you think it time the world remembers? Maybe you can show them the way.
Namaste -E
THE BOVINE PROCTOLOGIST ACHIVES
Here is an Archive of my blogs found under "The Bovine Proctologist" heading below. Please feel free to read and comment on them negativily or positively, communication is the root of understanding, and understanding is the root of friendship. So please enjoy. -E
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The reason I feel so alone - a moment of self reflection
Wake The Hell Up!!! - June 17th 2006
Is a minimum wage increase good...where are we going?
Finally the US Gets Hip
Damn I lost my bet!!!
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~ ¡¡ THOUGHT OF THE WEEK !! ~
~ Romantic Love– A Definition ~
I sit alone pondering, hands clasp, knees bent
Cold air, absent of life in winter reflections,
The horizon, so crisp it shines like glass
Refracting the light of the baron backdrop
The chill of the exterior surrounds my mind
And leaves me in doubts of a warmer existence
They enter the room, silent but present
Did they glide? I didn’t notice or forgot,
Their presence so welcomed, in this artic world
That it fills me with the peace I long for,
Closer their body moves, without audible or mental noise
They sit near, and I am thankful
Eyes peering through me, see what I see,
Recognize absence, pain, regret, hope, love,
A sigh musters, but is not released
Cautious hand extends, and touched
My arm warms with compassion, devouring its love
My soul surrounds it, and calms
In silence, we watch the world, each other
Subtle notions of peace, radiating true love, belonging
Wholeness becomes us, we sit in solitude together,
Engaged in the moment of each others energies and passions
Our completeness overtakes us, and we are whole
Recognizing the embellishment of romantic love in silence
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As my friends know very well, I support gay marriage, because I support love. I-Support does too! (click on image for their page) They have a lot of graphics to help spread the word and I will post info as I get it on rallies and what’s happening on that front. PLEASE SUPPORT LOVE!!!!
WELCOME!!
It looks like I have fixed the shift issues. Janell was wondering about the monitor, I’m on a laptop so my resolution is 1400-1050 so you may want to reduce site magnification, on explorer it is in the bottom right hand corner, the little magnifying glass. Sorry MySpace banner slides when you minimize the screen I haven’t been able to figure that out yet
Thanx for visiting and I hope you enjoy!!-E