Isabel

GIRL ON A MISSION!!!WARNING!!!THIS IS MY TESTAMONYI'm allowing this information to be broadcast world wide to share the great news of salvation through CHRISTI'm glad to be called a child of GODand I'm not ashamed of what HE has done in my lifeBecause my life is not my own....I have been bought by the blood of the LAMBThis may be a shocker to my family and friends of yester year; but I was sexually abused as a child.The guilt and shame I had endured over the years of hiding this from my family lead me to the abuse of drugs and alcohol. Eventually this lead to another sexual assault in my late teens then I became the girlfriend to a physically abusive drug addicted man eight years my senior.I don't know if it was all the drugs in my system or the shame that I let this happen to me that kept me under his submission.I then began to see myself as less than a person, a sexual object, a toy, something to be used up and then thrown away.I only had the courage to leave him because my neighbors called the cops and had him arrested for almost ending my life. I vowed never to be victimized again.After being told that I was easy on the eyes when I wasn't black and blue all over, I thought I was pretty hot stuff! I began to feel the power of seduction I had over men and the opportunity to get even with them for treating me like a piece of meat.I grew tired of Michigan, of the cold weather and the life I had there so a job opening as a nanny in California sounded like I would finally get a fresh start in life. Unfourtunatley those plans fell through so I was stuck in Las Vegas as my new fresh start.I held many jobs that I am embarrassed to mention while living there including but not limited to; porn chatroom sites, exotic photo shoots, S & M videos all the while working on and off as an exotic dancer.Extremely promiscuous I was faced with the fact that I was pregnant. I didn't want to have a baby, because I didn't want to bring life into a world that would bring it harm, heartache and grief so I decided to have an abortion.Which Brings me to my turning point.Working my shift at the gentlemen's club that September 11th morning I had watched on the giant television screens the twin towers getting plowed by those airplanes. At first I thought I was watching a movie, until they went back to the news room. I was beside myself... the guys who were getting lap dances that moment shouted out "We're going to WAR!" I dropped my drink and headed out to my dressing room. I thought about my messed up life... where it was headed, how could I make things right....I decided that I would join up and fight, I was thinking about becoming a Marine. I wanted to do my part as a civilian, so I went to donate blood at the American Red Cross. They had a blood shortage due to so many victims of this horrific act of terrorisim, and I have the "universal" blood Type O Positive...I was ready to help our countryI was ready to fight for freedomI was ready for war...what I wasn't ready for was the news I got about my blood donation...The letter from the American Red Cross read something like this;"Thank you for your decision to donate blood, however it is impairitive that you seek medical assistance as we did find a trace of the Hepititis C Virus in your blood stream. Unfourtunately we will not be able use your donation."I was floored!!!I was scared!!!I was really in such a mess I didn't know what to think!!!All I knew was that I had a virus that made joining up to fight the war in the middle east impossible because I could contaminate others...I was treated like an outcast, excluded, looked down on, and made fun of behind my back....I was black balled by my so called friends...I was alone...I needed a friend...My live in boyfriend (who is now my husband!!!) was my only comfort, that and the fact that his father sent a Pastor to our door step asking us to come to service at his church. At first I laughed it off...We went despite my differences...I wasn't expecting anything....I was so mad at GOD for allowing all those awful things to happen to me, that I couldn't understand HE was building my character...His Grace and Mercy flowed over me the minute I hit the doors of that chruch.I became interested in knowing HIM who makes all things new.I asked him into my heart and to forgive me of my sins....I am now a new creation in the body of CHRISTIt's true;I have been set free from the sins in my life!!! YHWH has made it easy for me to forgive those who hurt me, used me, abused me, and through God's amazing grace I am able to forgive the abuse I have done to myself and others because GOD forgives me and loves me...I am a LIVING TESTAMONY that GOD is GOOD!!!Do you want to know Christ as your personal savior and friend?All you have to do is ask him into your heartHe will wipe away your tearsHe will make things newHe will never leave youand you will have peace...GOD BLESS ALL OF YOUREMEMBER TO SUPPORT OUR TROOPS!!!YOUR SISTER IN CHRISTIsabelP.SDo you know that if you belong to the body of CHRIST you are in an ARMY of the ONE TRUE LIVING GOD???It's trueEph 6:12 says we can put on the armor of the LORDThe Helmet of SalvationThe Breastplate of RighteousnessThe Sword of the Holy SpiritThe Sheild of FaithThe Belt of Truthand Feet planted in the Gospel of PeaceWe (good soldiers) can bring to this dying world HIS GOOD NEWS as long as we are alive to give our testamonies and live our lives for HIM who makes all things new!!! 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