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I go by the name Ashley AKA Squeek BKA Hash, but you can call me whatever you like. I'm 17 years young. I'm 5'6" and 173 pounds, yes I'm not skinny, but thats alright. I'm not going to indulge in starving myself to lose weight that will just come back easier then I lost it. Being nice will never get you by in life, learn to me nice and be an ass when needed, not when wanted. If your younger then me, its more then likely I won't give a damn what you think of me. I grew up fast, and I wish I didn't. I feel like my childhood only lasted a few years. I would give anything to stay a little kid forever. Just like Peter Pan. I'm quite mature for my age, and sometimes I take things to seriously, I wish I could turn that all around. I'm slowly starting to let go and act a little immature from time to time. Hey it doesn't hurt. Being a hairstylist is my passion, not just a hobbie. I wish I could rewrite the past and make it less painful and less regretable. I've made many mistakes in my life, but hey I'm human it happens. I know everyone says everything happens for a reason and I tend to use that when giving advice myself, but come to think of it, maybe sometimes it doesn't. I believe in fate, but I'm struggling to believe in love. Unless someone can come along and sweep me off my feet, and show me that my heart will break no more, then I will continue not to believe in love. I'm slowly struggling my way towards my goals in life, I want nothing more then to reach my dreams. I want to show people I can truelly set my mind on something and stick to it, and that I will really make it. I've had major obsticals in my life, that will haunt me for the rest of my life. I smoke and I drink, but I would glady put down any of that for the ones I love. It may make me a different person, but it helps me with my problems. My mind is addicted to smoking, not me. Smoking is an option not a priority. I'm an occasional drinker not an alcoholic. I would do absolutely anything for my friends, theyre my world, theyre my life. Theyre what makes my world go round. I'm random, goofy, sweet, mean, demanding, selfish, annoying, and much more. I could write a novel of where I've been and who I've become, but that wouldn't be nearly enough. Win my heart, and win everything I consist of. I may act like I don't know what to say, but in reality I have alot of things on my mind, I just don't speak up. I smoke, I drink, I always lose control. I don't always get what I want, but I know how to make you feel sorry for me. I talk alot of shit, but I'm probably the sweetest person you will ever meet. Sometimes I care to much, and other times I don't care enough. I will break your heart like nobodys business, but trust me, its not on purpose. I'm not going to pretend to like you, I'll straight up tell you if I dislike you. Don't get mad if I don't reply to your shit, if I don't reply its either because I don't like you, or because your message or comment wasn't satisfying to me. My life consists of trouble not drama, trouble is my middle name, drama basically doesn't exist when it comes to me. I get called "emo" on a day-to-day basis, just to clear it up, I'm not fucking "emo", I'm myself. I follow my own trend, I try to avoid looking like others. Thoughts escape my mind, and words escape my mouth. I'm in no way a liar, I'm purely honest. I wish I could say I'm content with my life, but I'm not quite there. I'm not at all saying I'm not content, because I am. I'm just not "fully" content. I'm a hopeless romantic, but I have a rough side. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy, you choose.
I want this. I am the type of boyfriend that loves to spoil. I am very kind hearted and wishes everyday I could be with my special someone. I am the type of boyfriend who loves to cuddle and watch chick flicks with my girl. I love to kiss and repeatedly say I love you. I am the type of boyfriend that thinks love can get through anything. I am the type of boyfriend that is trustworthy and cherishes every moment of being together. I believe that the little things count. I am the type of boyfriend that never lets the girl pay. I love Valentine's Day because it lets me show off my perfect girl. I am the type of boyfriend who will never yell at his girlfriend. I would never raise a fist. I am the type of boyfriend that never gets into fights. I am the type of boyfriend that will always stick up for my girl. I will always die for the one I love. I am the type of boyfriend that doesn't act different around his friends. I always hold on to my relationships and try to make them last. I am the type of boyfriend that will be the perfect husband. Most importantly, I am the type of boyfriend that will create true love that lasts. I want love that touches not only the heart but the soul. I believe that whats meant to be will happen, and that true love only comes with patience. Lust is not love, love is when you can see past the physical and see the personality and the person your with for who and what they are. Of course there will be heartache and with love comes some pain, but eventually you learn how to make love stronger, and your bonds grows bigger. Love does not come easily, it comes with work. If you truelly love someone, your love will exceed every obstical thrown at you, and it will break every barrior that keeps you apart. Keep believing and stay strong, because you not only hurt yourself, but you hurt your lover as well. Keep in mind that everyone has a soulmate, no matter what you have heard, its true. I only hope that I can hold on to what has been givin' to me, and that person can hold on to everything that I'm willing to give up to him, and trust him enough not to break me.I've learned....I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to them. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. I've learned that it's not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. I've learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that you'd better know something. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do. I've learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be the last time you see them. I've learned that you can keep going long after you can't. I've learned that we're responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had best be something else to take its place. I've learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score. I've learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when your down will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel. I've learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance, same goes for love. I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to with how many. I've learned that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely and outlandish, few things are humiliating and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it. I've learned that your family won't always be there for you, it may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. I've learned that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive. I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief. I've learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned that jsut because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love each other.
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