right now, i'm considering you |
Thought is impersonal. Thought seems to be personal (autonomous and singular) because thought is a mechanism of design and imagination, and consequently invents itself as a self-controlled proce...
Posted by wide awake on Thu, 24 May 2007 05:56:00 PST |
i just can't fight this suction |
i have these mental blocks. they're always thoughtful. thought, in turn has a tendency to illicit specific emotional responses. the thought and emotion tied together combine to f...
Posted by wide awake on Thu, 17 May 2007 06:40:00 PST |
there is no greater misfortune than having an enemy, or something like that |
i was in a place last night, where i felt defenseless. in hindsight, most of it was imagined. although, it wasn't completely so. there was a feeling of real threat. i was...
Posted by wide awake on Sun, 06 May 2007 06:26:00 PST |
you make me feel like dancing |
i have a cold. my joints ache. fuck this.i had a group of intensely painful memories jump me today. despite attempts to bring awareness back to presence, they continued. &...
Posted by wide awake on Tue, 01 May 2007 08:11:00 PST |
really, i promise. |
for me, sense of lack and dissatifaction seems to originate from an inexhaustible need to have an explanation."who am i?""who am i compared to my friend?""what does my friend think of me?""what does m...
Posted by wide awake on Thu, 26 Apr 2007 06:40:00 PST |
magenta |
dissatifaction and fear seem to be conditioned responses. i am so used to being in a state of disturbance (lack of satisfaction), that it's often hard to see it objectively. the pressure from un...
Posted by wide awake on Wed, 25 Apr 2007 07:40:00 PST |
girlfriend, how could you let him treat you so bad? |
today feels like getting out of jail.watching everyone play guitar hero.
Posted by wide awake on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 11:32:00 PST |
all bunched up |
fear comes out of nowhere. i am blind to it's approach. it hits hard, and suddenly. i hate fear. i've come to know it intimately. i have approched fear from all angles.i ...
Posted by wide awake on Sun, 22 Apr 2007 09:32:00 PST |
repeat |
chelsea expressed some passing interest in the goings on at my new job, and consequently i have decided to write my second blog about roto-rootering.
1. i have a looooong ass crack.&nb...
Posted by wide awake on Fri, 06 Apr 2007 04:27:00 PST |
purge and binge |
purge...i had the day off today. so, i decided to dissect my ego. big fucking mistake. there was all this sex and sex and my mom and sex and fear. and, "resentment is the dubious lux...
Posted by wide awake on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 09:18:00 PST |
