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Blackdove

If the brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we couldn't.

About Me

Just some things.
I can get overwhelmingly excited to eat Corn Pops.
I'm trying to become unafraid of wrinkles.
My heart is a hysterical, unreliable organ.
I chose the red pill.
I come from water.
I feign poetic sometimes.
I directly contradict myself sometimes.
I need some fire, something to stir it all up. Let it topple and devour me, because every time it happens, I become free again.
I am a mother, a writer, a stage manager, a full time student, a girlfriend and a loyal friend. When I say I'm busy, please believe me.
I'm in a very happy, open relationship.
I tried to make this shorter.
Most of this is wrong.
To stalk me, visit my Livejournal: http://blackdove1978.livejournal.com/Or Wordpress: http://blackdove.wordpress.com/

Background from flickr user ..

My Interests


Art, art history, astrophysics, baking, belly dancers, bite marks, burlesque, bruises, cabaret, classic cars, coffee, corsets, dancing, dark matter, education, erotica, fire, fishnets, freedom, garters, girls, ill will press, intellect, Jupiter, karaoke, kissing, lightening, love, lust, making out, moons, my daughter, muscle cars, particle physics, philosophy, planets, poetry, pool, profiling, psychology, quantum physics, rain, reading, religion, sarcasm, school, serial killers, sexuality, singing, sociology, stage managing, string theory, tattooes, theology, thinking outside the box, thrift stores, used bookstores, words, writers, writing.

I'd like to meet:


My actualized self.
People who break the mold, set new standards, don't fit in, have major issues with fences, or who are busy like me and can relate. I want to meet girls who understand what I mean when I say I want to "hang out." I want to meet people who are not fake, even in a community of movers and shakers. I fall in love with people who inspire me. I want to meet women who think they are beautiful, and who fight the pressure from society to hate their bodies. I want to meet men who can respect my relationship, and theirs when they're with me. I want to meet children cleverly disguised as adults.

Music:

Dresden Dolls, The Bad Things, Midnight Choir, Johnny Cash, Tom Waits, Detroit Cobras, Hells Belles, Billie Holiday, Hatchet Wounds, Journey, Pantera, Placebo, Wanda Jackson, Primus, Pink Martini, Decemberists, BB King, Ministry, John Lee Hooker, Violent Femmes, Xmas music, Bif Naked, Op-Ivy, Radiohead, The Rev, Patsy Cline, Led Zeppelin, Morphine, White Stripes, NIN. . .

Movies:

Fight Club, A Beautiful Mind, House of Flying Daggers, Happy Endings, Love Actually, all Kung Fu movies, Me and You and Everyone We Know, Magnolia, Crouching Tiger, Garden State, American History X, HARD CANDY (see this), Stigmata, Frida, Count of Monte Cristo, Shinobi, Basilisk, Kung Fu Hustle, Velvet Goldmine, Hero, The Last Unicorn, Hedwig, About Schmidt, Secret of Nihm, Melvin Goes to Dinner, Drop Dead Fred, JackAss, Niagra Niagra, Resevoir Dogs, Donnie Darko, Natural Born Killers, What the Bleep Do We Know?, Moulin Rouge, Being John Malkovich, Snatch, Y tu Mama Tambien, Motorcycle Diaries.

Television:

I joyously have no TV.

Books:

Too many to list. Most anything by: Henry Miller, Tom Robbins, Anais Nin, Chuck Palahniuk (favorite new author), Oscar Wilde, Margaret Atwood, Kerouac, Vonnegut, Lovecraft, Mark Twain, Nabokov.I'm currently reading Atlas Shrugged. This will take me a while, but I'm addicted. Also reading Choke, which I don't really love so far, despite everyone's recommendation.

Heroes:

Jessi. Aint nothin the girl can't accomplish. And I know where she started.

My Blog

The Bi-Girl's Dilemma - Flirting with Women

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Posted by Blackdove on Fri, 13 Jun 2008 04:59:00 PST

I feel pretty!!

I'm getting ready to go out on the town with my gorgeous Megan, and I just had to stop and post.Today I bought a size SEVEN dress. When Luke and I met I was a size TWELVE. This morning I weighed 142...
Posted by Blackdove on Sun, 01 Jun 2008 10:59:00 PST

All the beautiful things I could never put into words.

She was looking up at the face of a man who knelt by her side, and she knew that in all the years behind her, this was what she would have given her life to see: a face that bore no mark of pain or fe...
Posted by Blackdove on Sat, 24 May 2008 08:19:00 PST

Since you asked.

This is my hour, and if I choose to eat goldfish crackers the entire time, that is what I'll do.Life has been a hilly mess of detours and uncharted territory, but with my eyes on the road and my hands...
Posted by Blackdove on Fri, 23 May 2008 09:39:00 PST

Our apartment. A picture share.

Can you believe we've lived here for 8 months already? This is the first time I think I've lived somewhere other than my mom's where I felt a real sense of "home." We live right next to a Russian Or...
Posted by Blackdove on Tue, 06 May 2008 09:15:00 PST

Buhlud.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9yAkBSrMk0 ...
Posted by Blackdove on Sun, 04 May 2008 05:11:00 PST

It makes me almost cry every time

Stolen from the cutest acrobat I know :)I keep watching it again and again, and the goosebumps get better/worse every time. This is love through art. ...
Posted by Blackdove on Thu, 01 May 2008 08:30:00 PST

Catharsis.

I feel like I'm waiting for something today, something big and luminous, or merely a change in your glance. At night when I read I become overwhelmed by the sudden thought of death, feeling very secu...
Posted by Blackdove on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 02:31:00 PST

Pure Nonsense.

I can't write tonight.I take that back. I can't write poetry tonight, or ever, because the restrictions of the cadence block my creative flow. Rhyming words has never been my strong point, though I ...
Posted by Blackdove on Sun, 13 Apr 2008 12:05:00 PST

Before the rumor mill starts. . .

I got the first of many inevitable phone calls today, and I know it’s only a matter of time before the rumor mill starts, so let’s just get this out of the way.Straight from the horse&rsqu...
Posted by Blackdove on Thu, 20 Mar 2008 05:24:00 PST