have you ever tried so hard to write something but nothing came out. like being pissed off standing in front of the vending machine in the basement of a hospital and you ain’t ate all day and all you want is that bag of doritos that is stuck and won’t come down. speak!!! someone in brain yells. tell them how you feel. i feel like i should be in a better place than i am right now. i should not be stuck between a rock and a hard place except there ain’t no rock and there ain’t no hard place…i am just stuck. stuck between where i am going and where i have been. but i don’t know where i am going and i don’t like some of the places that i have been and i am going crazy in this place. lend me your hand. help me up out of this pit of loneliness. but even down in this pit, all alone—all by myself—today was a beautiful day. i never felt the sun shine so brightly across my face. today i felt liberated. as if i had conquered some enormous feat or weathered some outrageous storm. today, i was inspired. like, even in this pit of loneliness, even in this cave of hurt and sorrow, it felt glorious just to be alive. and i think back on days gone by that i prayed for death and i cannot fight back the tears. and i become overwhelmed with this brief sense of inner peace and contentment. i feel like, maybe it’s okay for me to be where i am right now. sometimes here, ain’t always as bad as it seems.
i would like to meet mother nature. it would be nice to sit around with a nice glass of wine and pick her brain for a while. i imagine that she would have marvelous stories. she would tell tales of places she has been and the joy & devastation of it all. i bet she knows where the best trees are.
[1]you and jesus go out to dinner - who pays? i’d say you…i mean, he is jesus for christ’s sake[2] you suddenly have to flee the country and adopt an alias. reign beau[3] pick one state in the u.s. to get rid of permanently? that’s not very nice… [4] you wake up as the opposite gender what's the first thing you wanna do? jack off [5] who would you rather be, luke skywalker or han solo? luke skywalker…you can hit people with the laser beam [6] toy you always wanted but never got as a child? ummm…thanks ma [7] top three celebrities you wanna do. depends on which 3 passed their hiv test [8] what's an automatic deal breaker in a potential significant other? lies [9] what is the last movie you saw that actually scared you? saw..that was some scary shit [10] stupidest thing you've ever said out loud? you stupid, fucking bastard, hanging out the car window, flippin’ him the bird..while my boss was in the car with me [11] you're sentenced to death and its the morning of your execution, what do you want to eat? waffles, madam i must have waffles, forwith…[12] what's something most people do that you've never done? beats me..no one tells me anything[13] before you die you want to go to...? amsterdam..gotta see it for myself [14] something you'd really like to do but probably won't ever be able to do? hi the lotto for $357.8 million [15] a wild animal you'd like to have as a pet. zebra [16] a drug you'll never try? meth [17] if you were an animal what would you be? one spoiled bitch [18] if you had to marry someone you knew at the age of 12 who would it be? ooohh..quit [19] what's something most people don't know about you? i’m really 187..but don’t tell nobody, please [20] first celebrity crush? jam master jay [21] what's a weapon to suit your personality, habits and abilities? insanity [23] favorite breakfast bread style (pancakes, waffles, toast etc...)? waffles [25] worst way to die? being shot 3 times..then having your heart ripped out.. [26] grossest injury you've ever seen? pics of stds in health class [27] the worst injury you've ever had? it left a hole in my wall...don’t ask [28] favorite thing about thanksgiving? family, football, and food! cranberry sauce with stuffing & gravy..ummm..gravy… [29] sport you hate the most? baseball [30] what city in the u.s. do you want to visit? miami [31] what's something you think would be sweet to know everything about? the mind [32] favorite actor/actress: morgan freeman/sam jackson[33] what's one phrase you absolutely detest? hello..can you hear me? (nextel)[34] what makes an awesome party? liquor [35] what's your material obsession? a good shoe..and then another[36] what's something most people would consider an insult but you enjoy having said about you? i don’t know [37] favorite kind of dog? kane [38] favorite carnival food? funnel cake [39] morning or night person? evening [40] worst drunken up habit? where do i begin.. [41] weirdest ebay purchase? lamp disguised as a heineken can [42] favorite food to eat when you're wasted? poptarts [43] its saturday at 3am where are you? in the bed [44] who's your favorite friend to go out with? teash..oh we cut up! [45] worst job you've ever had? telemarketing [46] what's something your friends make fun of you for? overactive imagination [47] favorite cereal? lucky charms [48] movie you could watch repeatedly? jackie brown [49] what's the meanest thing you've ever done? put my sister stuff in the bbq grill & set it on fire…then i lit a jay and watched it burn..
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i admire my mommy for teaching me how to be a woman & grandma for teaching me how to be a lady