Carmen

I look at everything with wide open eyes, just taking everything in. I have learned that we don't give people enough credit, I have come to see that all of life is full of choices, good ones, bad ones doesn't matter they will make your future. I believe in saying "I Love You" to someone right when think about it, you never know if thats the last time you will see them. I have learned that if you mean something, you should say it right away, before the moment passes you by. Life is a beautiful thing, even if on somedays, weeks, or even months it seems like the worst place to be. "This to shall pass" is one of my favorite quotes because sometimes I have to close my eyes and recite it to myself over and over again just to stay sane. I have learned that when you have a bad day, if you just smile it might brighten somebody elses day. I have also learned that people can be mean, I have seen people say untrue things about people, and also seen the whole world turn its back and believe it. All of life is a race, you gotta stick it out to win! I would like to sit back and watch the world as it passes by, like a silent movie, no words are needed..it's bittersweet! Life is sad and happy all at the same time, its surreal! To think god could make something so great, if everyone would take a step back to realize it and smile, instead of trying to intimidate people it would be even greater. I know this all sounds like I am a big bible thumper, but I am in no means the best christian, but I do know right from wrong and I do know what god would want us to do, I am my own temple of faith! At one time in my life I thought god forgot about me, but now I have learned that he was testing me and it only made me stronger. I have learned not to let doubt paint blue rings around my eyes, even when I feel like the world has encompassed me by a mile. A plastic bag blowing in the wind represents life and all the changes it makes in such little time, I watched it in slow motion and wondered what it would be like to put life in slow motion or even pause, even if just for a second. Sometimes shadows seem to breathe, its crazy to think god moves things around like pieces on a chess board, I have to stop and wonder what he has planned for me in this life, why did he make me the way I am? What purpose do I serve? How did he make my soul? I have brown hair and I pluck my eyebrows, I have my fathers nose and my moms hands, and green eyes, I play hookie, I get sick alot, I like the color of wine. I have cheated on boyfriends and I have had a gold ring, I like to make people laugh, But my hair is still brown and my eyes are still green, I prob. won't always like the color of wine. I have lips that always smile, I have veins that bleed, I laugh when I'm nervous, my lips flirt with the sky, I feel pain of others but cry for no reason. I have been selfish as a child, Im from Oklahoma, I love the city but the country has my soul, I have a wild heart, I love with everything I have, I run away when I'm scared, sometimes you have to hold me in place. I believe you don't know what a great thing is until you lost it, I want to skydive before I die...and feel my body be weightless in the sky like an angel, I love mysterious eyes, they say eyes are the window to the soul, I don't believe it! I have cheated on diets and I have faked sick...but my lips are still smiling. I have strong shoulders and olive skin, I have a swiss face that I barrowed from my grandma, I have short stubby nails, my little toe is strange, I write, I use to make wreaths out of dandelions, I brush my hair before bed, I have faked french accents, but I still have gold skin and my nails are still stubby, my shoulders wont always be strong, and I prob wont always write, but maybe I will make a wreath out of dandelions again..and always remember to be strong and do the best I can, I go through life optimistic and scared, the day i'm not scared anymore will be my last. Dont be wreakless with other peoples hearts and don't put up with those who are with yours. Don't waste you time on jealousy, sometimes your ahead and sometimes your behind 50/50! The race is long, but in the end its only with yourself. I LOVE MY MOM, MY DAD, MY BROTHER ADAM, and ALL my TRUE Friends, you know who you are! "May the wind always be at your back, and the ground beneath your feet, and may you someday sore through the sky on the wings of angels"!Love- Carmen XxX Music Video: BULLETS (by Bob Schneider)

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