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A light in dark places

Perspective pries your once weighty eyes and it gives you wings.

About Me

I'm a freshman at CSU Chico, but I don't go out and party. My favorite color is midnight blue, though you'll mostly see me in black. I'm nineteen, but I'm old for my age, just not in the "born to be bad" way. I've grown out of being a goodie-goodie, but I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, I don't drink with the intention of getting shitfaced and making an ass out of myself. I'm also not perfect. I hate when people try to label themselves just so they can fit in. I especially hate when people try too hard for acceptance. Honestly, learn to have your own opinion, and don't be afraid to argue that opinion until you are truly convinced otherwise. I'm pro-choice, though it would kill me to have to make that choice. I value life, very highly, whether it be human or animal. I'm not a vegetarian, but I would like to try it. On that note, I don't like being told to go eat a baby if I like the taste of flesh. I want to learn how to play the guitar. I'm in love with musicals. The Phantom of the Opera makes me wish I was a soprano. I wish I could sing like Tarja Turunen. I hate religious fanatics trying to convert me. I'm finally getting to be okay with who I am, and you can either take me or leave me, but you will never really know what you're missing. I don't like trying new things, but I hate not knowing. The one thing I miss the most is my creativity. I listen to Final Fantasy music, and I would love to have more of it. I grew up playing D&D and Magic: The Gathering. And when I say I grew up playing them, I mean I started in like, first grade. I don't follow the latest trends. I miss having jeans that don't show off my ass cleavage when I bend over. I hate manwhores. I'm a very sentimental person. My nieces are the two most adorable children on the face of the planet. My friends are my world. I don't care if you don't like them, for one reason or another, I do, and I won't tolerate you talking shit about them in my presence. Nutella is the greatest spreadable substance in the world. I want to learn how to do stage makeup. My room is never as clean as it should be. I love candles. Music = Life. I cannot stand angry drunks. As soon as you raise your voice to me do not expect to deal with a rational Bethany. I love to learn. I'm too hard on myself more often than not. I love hugs, from people I know. I'm not a girly girl, but I do like to look nice sometimes. I don't take relationships lightly. I don't need a boy to be happy, and it really means something when I do end up with a boyfriend. When I'm in a relationship, I'm going to spend more time with him than you. It's that simple. And no, I won't go home with you because you're prettier. I don't cheat, end of story. I'm not usually such an uber bitch. I can be, when necissary, but ask anyone that knows me, I can be one of the sweetest people you'll ever know. I've realized that some things aren't worth holding on to. I've accepted that some people don't belong in my life at this time. Maybe they once did, but no matter what good times we had, they no longer belong on my path.
Measure your life in love.
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Drama geek


69%

Goth


56%

Geek


38%

Loner


38%

Stoner


25%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader


19%

Punk/Rebel


19%

Ghetto gangsta


13%
What..s Your High School Stereotype?
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You scored as River Tam. The Fugitive. You are clever and dangerous, which is a nasty combination. The fact you are crazy too just adds to your charm. They did bad things to you, but you know their secrets. They will regret how they made you.

River Tam


94%

Zoe Alleyne Washburne


81%

Kaylee (Kaywinnet Lee) Frye


69%

The Operative


69%

Capt. Mal Reynolds


63%

Inara Serra


63%

Simon Tam


56%

Shepherd Derrial Book


50%

Hoban .. Washburne


38%

Jayne Cobb


13%
Which Serenity character are you?
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Gods, I miss that show...

My Interests

I absolutely love Theatre. I'm also involved with the Society for Creative Anachronisms (SCA) in the West Kingdom. I want to start playing more video games rather than just watching people play. I miss my DDR. I also miss having the time to read what I want to. I LOVE being able to just disappear into a story line, and escape the real world for a little while. In addition to that, I love to create my own storylines, though I haven't been able to do that in a very long time.

I'd like to meet:

People who aren't afraid to speak their minds, but won't shove their beliefs down your throat. People who are patient enough to get me to try new things without making me feel stupid.

You are smart and sexy!

Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You?
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Your Dominant Thinking Style:


VisioningYou are very insightful and tend to make decisions based on your insights. You focus on how things should be - even if you haven't worked out the details.An idealist, thinking of the future helps you guide your path. You tend to give others long-term direction and momentum.

Your Secondary Thinking Style:


ModifyingSuper logical and rational, you consider every fact available to you. You don't make rash decisions and are rarely moved by emotion.You prefer what's known and proven - to the new and untested. You tend to ground those around you and add stability. What's Your Thinking Style?

The Keys to Your Heart


You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was arrogant, acting like the dictator of your life.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 29 Years Old
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. What Age Do You Act?

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is... mysterious
Your hugs are... to die for
Your eyes... twinkle in the moonlight
Your touch is... irresistable
Your smell is... beautiful
Your smile is... encouraging
Your love is... unique

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You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

How You Are In Love
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You give and take equally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. How Are You In Love?

Music:

Alleluia, the great storm is over, lift up your wings and fly...

I'll listen to pretty much anything, though I'm not the biggest fan of rap or country. Some favorite bands/musicians include Aerosmith, Bon Jovi, Incubus, Fall Out Boy, Linkin Park, Disturbed, Hoobastank, John Mayer, Dave Matthews Band, Evanescence, Jimmy Eat World, Green Day, Scorpions, and John McCutcheon. McCutcheon's a folk singer I grew up listening to. If you've heard of him (besides from me), I love you. ^_^

Movies:


Your Birthdate: April 4
Being born on the 4th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer.You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize.Sincere and honest, you are a serious and hard working individual.
Your feelings are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times.The number 4 has something of an inhibiting effect on your ability to show and express affections, as feeling are very closely regulated and controlled.You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details.There is a good deal of rigidity and stubbornness associated with the number 4. What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
Your Expression Number is 7
Very intelligent, you are usually thinking, introspecting, or analyzing.
You have a good mind, and you are especially good at finding out the truth.
Very little ever escapes your observation and deep understanding.
You tend to obsess over wisdom and hidden truths.
You are likely to become a authority on any subject you undertake.
Operating on a different wavelength, most people don't know you that well.
Very logical and rational, at times you tend to lack emotion.
So much so, that you often have times coping with emotional situations.
You are not very adaptable - you may tend to be overly critical at times. What's Your Expression Number?

Television:

I don't watch TV. I haven't in years. The only TV shows I've seen recently have been on DVDs. From those, I really love Firefly, House, and Scrubs. Apparently I need to watch Bones now, too. Thank you Corie...
Which Firefly character are you?
"The Fugitive"
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Which House M.D. Character Are You?
You are Dr. Allison Cameron!Its not your fault that you believe the best in people. You just want to help, and do the bet job you can in whatever situation you are in. You cant help it if everyone thinks youre the nicest doctor theyve ever had!
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You are Form 1, Goddess: The Creator."And The Goddess planted the acorn of life.
She cried a single tear and shed a single drop
of blood upon the earth where she buried it.
From her blood and tear, the acorn grew into
the world."
Some examples of the Goddess Form are Gaia (Greek),
Jehova (Christian), and Brahma (Indian). The Goddess is associated with the concept of
creation, the number 1, and the element of
earth. Her sign is the dawn sun.As a member of Form 1, you are a charismatic
individual and people are drawn to you.
Although sometimes you may seem emotionally
distant, you are deeply in tune with other
people's feelings and have tremendous empathy.
Sometimes you have a tendency to neglect your
own self. Goddesses are the best friends to
have because they're always willing to help.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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Books:

I'll admit flat out I'm a Tolkien freak. I absolutely love The Hobbit and The Lord of the Rings. Been working on the Silmarillion off and on (mostly off in recent years) since middle school. I'm also a big fan of Amelia Atwater-Rhodes' books. And Tithe, by Holly Black. People need to give me books to read. I don't read as much as I used to and it makes me sad. I need to go get lost in a library for awhile...Autumn Castle by Kim Wilkins was a really good book, I don't remember how I aquired it...

Heroes:

All that you need will surely come.

Rachel Joy Scott, a victim of the Columbine shooting. She spent her short life trying to make a difference in the world, and, through her death, and those she touched in life, she succeeded. "...If one person can go out of their way to show compassion, then it will start a chain reaction of the same. People will never know how far a little kindness can go."

And of course...

My Blog

Has anyone heard from Connan?

...Probably a stupid question, I know... I'm just concerned...It bothers me when I can't keep in contact with good friends... just to see how they're doing once in awhile. I've been thinking about a l...
Posted by A light in dark places on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 12:36:00 PST

Mini rant...

It's refreshing to look at a friend's page and see the status "Married", knowing that they actually ARE, instead of using that to say that they have a boy/girlfriend. That's just something that kind o...
Posted by A light in dark places on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 09:48:00 PST

Something in the way that blue lights on a black night can make you feel more...

It's a wonderful thing to be able to actually enjoy the holiday season instead of dreading Christmas like I have the last few years. I remember a few "No one wants to be alone at Christmastime" blogs ...
Posted by A light in dark places on Sun, 24 Dec 2006 12:06:00 PST

Disgusting.

So I leave my English class today to see people set up in the free speech area...that's normal. Today, we had quite a group of anti-abortion people. Joy of all joys. I get a bit closer 'cause I'm blin...
Posted by A light in dark places on Tue, 03 Oct 2006 04:07:00 PST

Bad night = Mass deletion

Don't be offended. I wasn't singling anybody out. There's a good chance I just haven't spoken to you in awhile. If you have an issue, message me about it. That is all.
Posted by A light in dark places on Fri, 14 Jul 2006 01:01:00 PST

Tagged

The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic, " six weird habits..things about ME," and people who get tagged need to write a blog about their six weird habits/traits as well as state this rule...
Posted by A light in dark places on Sun, 16 Apr 2006 02:53:00 PST

4am...and rambling

...I haven't been up this late/early in a long time...by myself at least. Not since...summer, I think. I haven't been alone this entire time, which is new...and very very strange...but very fun... but...
Posted by A light in dark places on Thu, 23 Mar 2006 05:19:00 PST

"When you can't walk you crawl, and when you can't do that, you find someone to carry you."

We never get a break do we... A break from the world.. we just aren't that lucky. Time goes on while we sit by and try to catch our breaths... Sometimes the terrain is rougher, and the baggage you car...
Posted by A light in dark places on Wed, 15 Mar 2006 08:31:00 PST

no one wants to be alone at christmas time...

"No way November will see our goodbyeWhen it comes to December it's obvious whyNo one wants to be alone at Christmas timeAnd come January we're frozen insideMaking new resolutions a hundred timesFebru...
Posted by A light in dark places on Tue, 20 Dec 2005 12:02:00 PST

A light rekindled

So I'm feeling much more like myself again... and it is good. Yesterday started off pretty shitty... I had passed out in my clothes the night before, without getting ANYTHING done that I needed to, a...
Posted by A light in dark places on Sat, 19 Nov 2005 02:48:00 PST