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♫brandy♫

my ♥ still has a beat; but, love is now a feat

About Me


"I'm IN REPAIR, I'm not together...but I'm getting there"-John Mayer
"THIS LIFE HASN'T TURNED OUT QUITE THE WAY I WANT IT TO BE"~'Rockstar'/Nickelback
"Don't try to pick my head, sometimes I don't make sense..." 'Blue Monday'–"Tabitha's Secret
"you don't know what you've put me through, it's okay, I've forgiven you, but in some way, I hope it fucks with you"•Yesterday/§±ª¡Nd•
"...but hurt's a funny thing
& it makes you stronger..."
-"Tired"-'Tabitha's Secret'
...I just wanna be loved..."«ÞÂPª ®ºä¢H»

You Are The Wheel of Fortune
You represent the cycles of life, death, and rebirth.
You embrace change, the the ups and downs of life.
Fate is something you accept, even when you could possibly change things.
Big things tend to happen to you more than other people.
Your fortune:
Something huge is about to happen in your life, and you have little control over it.
You must accept your destiny, but luckily it is good fortune that has come your way.
Big things and big changes are about to come your way.
And while things will be intense for a while, they will be followed by a period of rest.
"Can you understand me,
screamin' like the wind blows?
Did I blow your mind, did I leave you...
breathless?
I (*sigh*) used to be (PAST-TENSE) an on-air personality ("D.J.") for a heavy rock station...and an 80's radio station, where I was also the morning show producer...
"...and the kids on the street say, 'What's your
~PROBLEM, GIRL~?'"-ROB!
I was 'T-Boned' by a semi truck (January, 13, 2004) on my passenger side, while on my way to work, at Ruby Tuesday as a server/bartender (I had quit radio & started working as a WAITRESS/BARTENDER! eh...), after my Mom BEGGED me to call in to work that day (b/c she was having an uneasy feeling). I suffered a traumatic brain injury (TBI-much like 'shaken babies' syndrome), after my brain was shaken 'round in my skull SOOOOOOOO violently. I was released from the hospital on March, 18, 2004...
Physically, you can not tell that anything has ever happened, I only have one TINY, TINY scar from the wreck itself, on the outside of my right knee...you wouldn't see it, if I didn't point it out...the "speech center" in my brain, was affected SOOOOOOOO BADLY...that I STILL sound a little "off"...& my voice is not NEARLY good enough to go BACK into speaking on the air (radio), again...BUT, the woman I WAS seeing for speech therapy (MS. BETTY) has listened to some of my "air checks/spots" (CD's/tapes that I had of me speaking on the radio/doing radio commercials, BEFORE my brain injury), and she had a good outlook into MY voice returning...I, on the other hand, do not have such high hopes...
another reason that I am SOOOOOOOOO self-conscious about my voice, is that, I am majoring in communications at JSU, with an emphasis in (televison/radio) broadcasting (PRAYING to be able to go back into "D.J.ing" on the radio)...I am minoring in English (I am quite the odd bird, I LOVE English/Grammar [ALL English...INCLUDING, punctuation and spelling])!

My Interests

"And inside, yeah inside, I never gave a damn...about those outside people anyway"•Tabitha's Secret~Dizzy•

®ºß!
July, 31, 1998, when Kendra and I met Matchbox 20 at (what used to be) 'Magic Platter' in Hoover, before a show at (what also USED TO BE) 'Oak Mountain' in Pelham

~®ºß! says: "HUH?!"

"I don't want to be the guy everyone expects me to be."
-®ºß!

®ºß! & I backstage at (what I will ALWAYS call) 'Oak Mountain' on June, 21, 2006 [yes, I know I look like a 'deer caught in the headlights', and my smile is not only HUGE...but, ODD...shut it! I was OHMYGOD happy to have ®ºß! TOUCHING me!]
"...why is it the ones you love, that make it all so hard on you? Then you let it fall behind, and in the back of your mind, you feel my lovin' shine...you think you might be saved...Tell me that you want someone beside you...tell me that you want to see this through, TELL ME ALL THE TIMES THAT I'VE BEEN LOVIN' YOU, THAT YOU LOVE ME, LOVE ME, TOO, YOU LOVE ME, TOO..."
'Fallin' To Pieces'
-♥®ºß!♥

♥sigh♥

I'd like to meet:


and I DID meet *sigh* ®ºß! on Wednesday, June 21, 2006 at the Oak Mountain Ampitheatre (Verizon Wireless Music Center...WHATEVER!)...& HE [GENUINELY] HUGGED ME, SEVERAL TIMES! *SIGH* read my (very, very, LOOOOOOONG) blog entry if you care to know how it went...I also met ROB! on July, 31, 1998 (just MORE proof that I am OBSESSED--as if you needed more proof--if I'm able to remember the EXACT DATE, oh-so-many-moons-ago...LOL)

THE ONE THING THAT ALL WHO HAVE EVER MET/CHATTED WITH ME SHOULD ALREADY KNOW IS, THAT I AM ABSOLUTELY
OBSESSED WITH
♥sigh♥

(& have been, MAJORLY, for a lil' more than 10 years!

LOL...
pathetic, I know...)

I would also like to meet...
Adam Duritz--lead singer for the "Counting Crows"

(I refer to him as my "soul brother"!),
Dave Matthews, Matthew Perry, Ashley Judd, Usher (Raymond...DUH! mainly to STARE at him *sigh*), Kate Hudson, Oliver Hudson (again, mainly to STARE at him *sigh*), Sarah McLachlan (what a BEAUTIFUL woman, both on the outside-not stupid 'Barbie' pretty, but REAL WOMAN pretty-AND on the inside), Robin Williams, Edward Norton, Sean Penn, Chris Carrabba (yes, some staring would be involved, but he has such a way with putting his feelings into words, I GENUINELY respect that), Reese Witherspoon, and Will Smith (AGAIN...I would ♥ just to stare at him...but, it is his personality that makes him SO attractive)...

Music:

"I'm not CRAZY, I'm just a little UNWELL..."-matchbox twenty

"one soft, sweet song's just enough to clear my...head."

♥sigh♥

I am OBSESSED with music...I TRY to give every type of music a fair chance, 'cept "Rave/Techno" music...I absolutely LOATHE that sort of crap...I don't even consider it MUSIC...and that goes for MOST Rap music as well...MOST of my favorite things to listen to are those that are closer to acoustical sounding stuff...I'm a lyrical junkie...therefore, I like to be able to UNDERSTAND what an artist is SAYING while they are playing...(and I prefer the artist to actually PLAY an instrument while they are singing...yet, ANOTHER reason, I like VERY LITTLE rap...I DO NOT LIKE THIS NEW STUFF ALL THE 'KIDS' ARE LISTENING TO, I like 2pac & Warren G...not really "old school", but not NEW school, by ANY means...)
Some (yeah, SOME) of my FAVORITE bands/musical artists are :
♥®ºß!♥ (Thomas...DUH!)

& matchbox twenty;

Tabitha's Secret,


The Dave Matthews Band & Dave Matthews,
Counting Crows,

John Mayer,

Better Than Ezra, Led Zeppelin, Jason Mraz, Our Lady Peace, Dashboard Confessional, Anna Nalick, Billy Joel, Linkin Park, Train, Guster, The Fray, Chicago, Bowling For Soup, Howie Day, Jack Johnson, Def Leppard, Alanis Morrisette, Green Day, I was only recently reminded of my admiration/love for Remy Zero
(thanks, Micah, for reminding me of Remy Zero!), and I was turned on to a VERY TALENTED/SOULFUL woman, Toby Lightman, (www.TobyLightman.com) at the Jewel/♥Rob Thomas♥ concert, June, 21...and I also like MANY (MANY) MORE artists/bands, but I do I wish to BORE you any longer with the MANY artists/bands I enjoy (assuming that I have yet to BORE you)...I LOOOOOOOOOOVE ♥MUSIC♥...even though most of my FAVORITE bands are not HARD ROCK/HEAVY METAL...
"
I DO like hard rock and heavy metal, also (mainly when I'm ANGRY)...(I dig KoRn!)
But, my MAIN interest is Dave Matthews and my OBSESSION (more than ONLY an interest...as if you couldn't tell already...) is
®ºß! |Thomas...DUH!| (yes, I am 26--27 November, 20...but act as if I am 14 when it comes to *sigh*
♥ROB♥)

"And I couldn't tell, why everyone here was doin' me like they do, but I'm sorry, now...& I don't know how...to get it back...to good...~Everyone here, hates everyone here, for doin' just like they do" 'Back2Good'-"matchbox 20"
What 'Dave Matthews Band' Song Are You?!
#41
Take this quiz !

Movies:

~'IT'S ONLY AFTER YOU'VE LOST EVERYTHING, THAT YOU'RE FREE TO DO ANYTHING.~'FIGHT CLUB' (although, it is NOT my favorite movie because of BRAD PITT, like MOST chicks...I ADORE EDWARD NORTON! Plus, I REALLY like the storyline...), "The first rule of 'Fight Club' is...YOU DO NOT TALK ABOUT 'FIGHT CLUB'..."
"Rat Race" (with MANY well known actors/actresses)...not a very well known movie...BUT, OHMYGOD HILARIOUS!,
'Multiplicity' (I ADORE Michael Keaton's chararcter[s]...even if it also stars an actress that I can not STAND to look at/hear, Andie MacDowell), 'Harry Potter' movies, 'Office Space', 'I Am Sam', 'Rain Man',
[I HAVE SUDDENLY FOUND MYSELF LOVING MOVIES STARRING ADAM SANDLER(!?)] 'The Waterboy', 'Mr. Deeds' (the newest one-with Sandler), 'Anger Management',
'50 First Dates' (I TOTALLY relate to this movie...kinda odd that it came out the same year that I also suffered a brain injury...like 'Lucy' does in the movie, LOTS of similarities),
"Big" (with Tom Hanks)
'Can't Hardly Wait', 'Grease', 'Willy Wonka & the Chocolate Factory' (THE ORIGINAL...not the one with JOHNNY DEPP!?), 'Toy Story', 'The Shawshank Redemption', 'Speed', 'The Truman Show', 'Dirty Dancing', 'The Cutting Edge' ("TOE-PICK!"), 'Meet The Parents', 'Finding Nemo' (I've ALWAYS been compared to the character, "Dory"...but, I relate even more so, NOW!),
My favorite actresses are Ashley Judd, Reese Witherspoon, Kate Hudson & Christina Ricci, and my favorite actors are Nicolas Cage, Will Smith, Edward Norton (He was AMAZING in 'Fight Club'), Matthew Perry ('Chandler' from "Friends"),
Chris O'Donnell, and I have only recently begun to not feel guilty for liking Jamie Foxx (ONLY b/c of his stupidity on 'In Living Color')...I also LOOOOOOOOOVE Oliver Hudson (Kate Hudson & Oliver Hudson's mom is Goldie Hawn...MY Mom's favorite actress...! awwwww, ain't we cute?!)

Television:

My all time favorite television show is 'Friends'
(I absolutely ♥ 'Chandler BING!' [hahaha]...I've been compared to 'Rachel Green' by family and friends...I'm not sure if that is an insult...but, I am A LOT--though, not EXACTLY--like 'Rachel'), I LOVE 'Grey's Anatomy' (I ♥ the actor who plays the character, 'George'; T.R. Knight--NO, he does NOT play, 'McDreamy' OR 'McSteamy'...but, he is both to me...sadly, I found out he doesn't "swing my way"...he is gay...the day I found that out, it was such a sad day...). I like 'The Andy Griffith Show' (before 'Barney' moved to Mt. Pilot and he was replaced by 'Warren'), 'I Love Lucy' and 'Bewitched' (BEFORE THEY CHANGED THE CHARACTER OF "DARRIN" sp?), I LOVE 'One Tree Hill', and 'Gilmore Girls'...James Spader (the actor who portrays 'Alan Shore' on 'Boston Legal') is the epitome of 'cool'...

Books:

"To Kill A Mockingbird" by Harper Lee, The "Harry Potter" Series by J.K. Rowling, "Black Like Me " by John Howard Griffin, poetry (and some short stories) by Edgar Allan Poe

"If you can wake up in a different place.
If you can wake up in a different time.
Why can't you wake up a different person?"
—'Fight Club'•Chuck Palahniuk

"Generations have been working in jobs they hate, just so they can buy what they don't really need."—'Fight Club'•Chuck Palahniuk
"There are a lot of things we don't want to know about the people we ♥love♥."—'Fight Club'•Chuck Palahniuk

Heroes:

"And I don't want the world to see me...
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand"
-'Iris'-Goo Goo Dolls

♥My Mom♥ is the STRONGEST person that I know/have EVER known...therefore, she is my hero...the life that she leads, now, is that much more amazing when you know about her past and what she has had to overcome...without her love and PURE dedication to me ...I HONESTLY do not think that I would have had the courage to live (& live the life that I have ALWAYS imagined I would lead...)...my Momma has instilled ALL of the things in me/my character, that make me so very proud of myself...I♥HER, SOOOOOOOOOO VERY, VERY MUCH!
♥She is my ROCK!♥

"and I cry cause the weather has gotten to me, and I laugh at the people that I can't be...All their lives...silly pictures..."-'Forever December', "Tabitha's Secret"

My Blog

Office Space, as a psychological thriller...

go to THIS website...if you've seen 'Office Space'...you are SURE to piss yourself, LAUGHING! http://www.ifilm.com/video/2795388...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Sun, 12 Nov 2006 09:04:00 PST

I am the mess you chose...

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Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 06:34:00 PST

Thanks, John...

I don't understand myself.  Back to youIt always comes aroundBack to youI tried to forget youI tried to stay awayBut it's too lateOver youI'm never overOver youSomething about youIt's just the wa...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Wed, 04 Oct 2006 10:11:00 PST

my feelings expressed in musical lyrics (AGAIN)

PURPLE=me talking to him "I was the one you always dreamed of  (You were the one I tried to draw)  How dare you say it's nothing to me?  Baby, you're the only light I ever saw.  I...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Sun, 01 Oct 2006 04:54:00 PST

THIS IS OHMYGOD FUNNY!

Brandy  will go to jail for ...Making lewd remarks to her arresting officerTHIS IS FAAAAAAAAAAR TOO FUNNY! LMMFAO! (b/c I know a POLICE OFFICER...and I consider him to be one of my great friends....
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Mon, 25 Sep 2006 11:23:00 PST

*sigh*

*sigh*  I don't know...I don't understand HOW I can STILL be affected... *sigh* "I guess I've changed, but yeah, couldn't you? Given all that we've been through... Heaven knows I've be...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Wed, 16 Aug 2006 10:21:00 PST

(MANY) Quiz Results

Three Things Three things that scare me: 1 spiders 2 not living up to my potential 3 love Three people who make me laugh: 1 Will Smith 2 Bernie Mac 3 Robin Williams Three Things I love: ...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Fri, 25 Aug 2006 08:11:00 PST

'Problem Girl'

Mom has always said that this is my song, and that he (Rob Thomas) always writes a song that ('Tabitha's Secret', 'matchbox twenty',  and his solo album that always) reminds Mom of me & what ...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Thu, 20 Jul 2006 10:32:00 PST

WHAT?

I don't understand......
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Tue, 18 Jul 2006 08:12:00 PST

FINALLY! me with Jewel & me with *sigh* ROB!

finally...the pics that were taken of Jewel & I and *sigh* ROB (THOMAS, GEEZ...) and I were E-mailed to me, today! (I realize that my smile is a bit weird, NOW...but, I don't realize it when I smi...
Posted by «ß®ªÑs"» on Mon, 03 Jul 2006 11:48:00 PST