[Micaiah];

in nomine patris et filii spiritus sancti
In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost
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MICAIAH
There’s a lot more to me than I let on. Everyone is so consumed in their own life to care enough to really get to know someone else. I'm so over everyones fake bullshit around here. I live in my own old fashion world, from how I write, dress to what i listen to. I'm sure you'll find it weird, but then again.. I am weird. Music is the only thing i can truley count on, no matter how bad things get, i can always escape and loose myself in a song. I’m not as serious as this about me makes me out to be. I’m crazy. It might frighten you. My own faults keep me from doing certain things. I fear failure. I fear a life alone. My mistakes have made me grow up, far beyond my age. I’m tired of this town and the people in it. I’m ready to go home. I miss Australia. I need new adventures. I say whatever pops into my head. Which a lot of the time, makes no sense whatsoever. I like the music you make fun of. I like the movies you criticize. Because you're too afraid to say you like them. I've never been aloud to be a kid, and for that I’m grateful. My mother raised me right; she is my guidance and savior. I’ve been used, I’ve been shattered. Stepped on and let fall. I’ve been heartbroken, and had my feelings abused. I’m over it. It’s not going to happen anymore. If I get the feeling you’re that fake type of person, you’ll be out of my life without even a word. I’m done being used.
It’s awakening when you realize who cares for you and who is just there. I want things to be simple, but it seems most want the opposite. What goes around comes around. I speak in random sentences. I'm sure there is a secret someone has kept from you, in lack of trust, can you trust yourself? I discover who I am daily, once I think I know myself, I figure out something else. I enjoy learning new things. I’ve met death and the demon that brings it, it likes to follow me, im sure of it since people around me keep dying. I follow no one and will not degrade myself for any reason, nor conform to a standard. Your compassion, if you have any, will help someone else find out who they are. I can’t stand immaturity. Please grow up and stop being so selfish as others clearly are, don’t you want to be different? Or maybe you’re just fine pretending. Please stand in the line to be cloned like everyone else. It’s very appealing. I promise. A smile can make someone’s day. A person can kill another. A sentence can break someone’s heart. Do you have enough of a heart to care.. or will you laugh while someone cries? Some enemies hate because they are so alike. One second can be the end of your life. I have been through more than you could possibly guess; I know I cover it up well. I like to think, yet i hate that my mind never stops. But i doubt you’ll read this far because the paragraph looks too long. Go stalk someone’s pictures. Do not doubt me when I say I will do something. I bet you'll never see this side of me. I'll never be sorry for who I am or who I'm to become. Life is a journey, make of it what you wish, or waste it away with sorrow and disappointment.. not to others, but to yourself.
Please, come pick me up. take me out. fuck me up. steal all my records. screw all my friends. their all full of shit. with a smile on your face. and then do it again. i wish you would.
You're in a lion fight, just because you didn't win.. doesn't mean you can't roar.