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About Me

"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing." - George Bernard Shaw
Soldier. gone. Proud Parent.
I'm a United States Soldier, enlisted five years on a contract, written, and signed. Private Shetterly at your service. Life hasn't been of the kindest but I'm doing all I can to better myself, to better the life I've been given to lead, to live. I've made my many mistakes. I've lied, I've stolen, I've cheated, and I've denied the obvious. I've been delt a full hand and paid the price in karma. I've loved, I've lost, I've given, and I've took. In my darkest moments I've been ready to give in, to quit. -- I've come to realize life isn't about you ,but rather what you do for others. I hope if I make that one huge sacrifice, weather or not it's my choice, that I've accomplished something. That maybe one day all the shit I've done will be overlooked for five seconds, and in that time people can except the fact I wasn't all evil.
I'm a prone man for my family. They've done me wrong, they've hurt me, but I'm not an innocent in this war. I've delt my blows, shot my shots, and bagged up those who were too weak to continue. You never realize just how close you are to those whom you love, and love you until you've seen them broke down, crying on your shoulder, helpless. None of this should ever be the way it's been written, but this is my life, in my own words I guess. I love you.
And to my friends, .... I'm sorry I left. I'm sorry I can't be there when you need me, to skate, for a shoulder, a reason to get drunk, to get high, work with, or do absolutely nothing. I do miss our long drives, our stupid pointless quotes, our video games, or our bong hits from the balcony. Maybe one day when I'm home for good we can have that bar-b-que I've always wanted, the one which I dream about, our kids playing in the sandbox, the women at the table joking around, the men gathered around the pit with a beer in hand everyone laughing, free spirited. No thought of our bills, no worries. Together, as our family.
I'm a soldier. I show up at the right time, in the right uniform and do what I'm told, it's my job, it's my pleasure, my purpose. I'm part of the 3/321 FAR. Were being deployed here soon, I can't say when but I'll be my first actual adventure. I worry about what may happen, but I'm excited to see it go down. I'm field artillery, the king of battle. Putting steel on our target. Hooah.
put food in me.

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My Blog

It starts.

It came faster than I ever expected. I can feel the sweat on my hands, and the worry in my heart. It'll be awhile, a long while. But it's all worth it, is it not? I worry, it's natural. I'd do anythin...
Posted by derek. on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 08:23:00 PST

to be lacking in a title. none.

Always inspired, whether or not there's a letter to be written, the words still go out to you. I've once dreamed about being alone, walking silently with my head down, down the street cars passing nev...
Posted by derek. on Sat, 10 Nov 2007 11:43:00 PST

a second place victory. ILLALWAYSLOVEYOU.

... boy and girl go walking down the street, hand in hand. His hand sweating more than usuall, her's follows in suit, she worries because he does. He can't help but stress the situation, the moment, t...
Posted by derek. on Sun, 28 Oct 2007 08:48:00 PST

A great means to a sad lie.

Blah blah blah I've written many things over my term on Myspace, from the positive to the complete and total opposite but 'nothing gold can stay.' No need in retreating but rather escaping to a bette...
Posted by derek. on Sat, 12 May 2007 04:17:00 PST

More crap coming from the mouth to the ear.

I never was tolerable to those who told me to simply 'grow up.' To the same end, I've never wanted to -- to grow up ya know? Being left behind was always a huge fear, I never wanted to be the last guy...
Posted by derek. on Tue, 10 Apr 2007 03:49:00 PST

I suppose it's funny, yea--suppose.

All things considered, there's always that infinante plan. A man is prone to making his own decisions sure, as is the women. I'm sure that if everything works out well, you and I will meet somewhere i...
Posted by derek. on Thu, 29 Mar 2007 01:30:00 PST

just alittle something for myself.

Some how I'm overly stressed. Shouldn't be, feeling right as rain. Start tending agian, I hope...... there's always a catch anymore. They say alcohol puts the best of us in a depressed type of situati...
Posted by derek. on Sat, 17 Mar 2007 06:45:00 PST

Ever The Optimist.

Currently listening to : thisglassembrace - I can't wait til my friends become famous. I'll be in the back of the crowd ever so proud, so many are so talented. So witty, so fresh, as if being around t...
Posted by derek. on Fri, 16 Feb 2007 02:49:00 PST

Blog.

Being low, yet smiling probably keeps me sain. If you haven't heard from me in awhile it could be for many reasons. Work, Family, or tiresome. I've walked so far, and yet it feels like all I can keep ...
Posted by derek. on Wed, 24 Jan 2007 12:35:00 PST

America, let's be honest.

If the country and all of OUR bullshit doesn't effect you, please for your sake click on the 'back button' now. Otherwise.... I'll be honest, I watch as much stand up as possible, to be honest it's pr...
Posted by derek. on Fri, 12 Jan 2007 01:58:00 PST