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VAL

Sometimes people build up walls, not to shut others out but to see who cares enough to break them do

About Me

Personality wise...I'm all over the place.
I was born in Scarborough Ontario. Thought things were going alright, then I come home from being out with my sister on December 5th 1993 to get a phone call that the girl I grew up with since I was three years old, died that morning. Things went into a downward spiral after that. Tried to live life normally, worked in places that treated me unfairly for little pay, because I just figured I'm supposed to take shit like that cause they're paying me. Fuck that! Had a few serious relationships with men who treated me like shit, by either cheating on me or being mentally abusive. Fuck that too! Finally I thought I found the right man. We were together for six years, figured we'd get married or at least be together and have a family. Wrong again STUPID GIRL! He couldn't handle my... I guess you could call it, "flaws". Moved to Peterborough in 2003, and he didn't bother with me after that. Of course I don't know anybody here so I'm quite the loner. I'm an introvert so I'm shy at first but friendly. I'm on the defensive quite a bit, and am trying to change that. I have a good sense of humour BELIEVE IT OR NOT, and am a good listener. I've been a RECLUSE for awhile so I'm really trying to get things moving in my life, and this website is actually helping me in a lot of ways, especially when it comes to making friends. I've stayed away from people for a long time because of being let down a lot, especially by the ones I really trusted. My family is very important to me (including my dog Haylee). I'm an honest and loyal gal to the very few people close to me, and not a superficial type of person. It would take a lot for someone to earn my trust, but I've decided to finally let people in my life again, and hopefully I won't be let down too many times again. Don't want to be pissed on anymore.

My Interests


Depression is the worst of all sadness. We are hurt so bad that we stop eating, sleeping, hanging out with friends and sometimes even turn to suicide. Our worst nightmare came true and we can't find a way out.

Music:

PINK
Evanescence
Avril Lavigne
Gwen Stefani
Nickelback
Rob Thomas
Natasha Bedingfield
Stained
Nelly Furtado
Stevie Nicks
Duran Duran
Nick Lachey
Way too many to list.

Movies:

Movies starring Vince Vaughn.
Thriller
Horror
Suspence
Comedy
Movies based on true stories.

Television:

Law and Order SVU
CSI
24
Nip/Tuck
Sue Thomas FBI
Friends
Gene Simmons Family Jewels
The Anna Nicole Show
Family Guy

Books:

Telling Youself The Truth", and "The Purpose Driven Life".
I'm also a bit of a tabloid junkie.

Heroes:

My parents for helping me out in more ways than they should have to.
All women who can stand on their own.
MY BEST FRIEND SUSAN ROBERTS
November 29th 1971-December 5th 1993 R.I.P.

My Blog

NEGATIVE ATTITUDE

I know I have an extremely negative attitude towards life in general. I don't think I was a good person in the past, and that is why I'm living one of my worst nightmares now. I remember in my late ...
Posted by VAL on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 03:05:00 PST

ANOTHER SLEEPLESS NIGHT

Here I am again at 5:45am not able to sleep. I'll get to sleep in a few hours and have another wasted day. I went out the other night to the mall to do a little boxing day shopping. Spent a little ...
Posted by VAL on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 03:11:00 PST

WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?

I don't have a social life, so I try to fill the void by collecting as many friends as I can through MySpace.  I've got a lot of great advice on my blogs from the people who actually look at my p...
Posted by VAL on Tue, 12 Dec 2006 12:50:00 PST

MY SLEEPING SCHEDULE

I've been so screwed up in my sleeping habits for weeks now.  It's 3:20am now.  What I've been doing is taking naps around 9pm or 10pm or even 11pm.  If I slept all the way through the ...
Posted by VAL on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 12:51:00 PST

NOT LETTING GO

I did a very stupid thing tonight.  I phoned my ex-boyfriend.  He's doing great.  His girlfriend of 8 months moved in with him a couple weeks ago.  I went out with him for 6 y...
Posted by VAL on Wed, 15 Nov 2006 11:25:00 PST

DEPRESSION CONFESSION

To let people know who read my blogs and give advice on them,  I really appreciate everything you have to say.  Some think I'm heading for depression, but the truth of the matter is I've bee...
Posted by VAL on Sat, 11 Nov 2006 12:27:00 PST

HYBERNATING

I haven't left the house in a couple of weeks now. My sleep is all messed up, I go to bed around 6am and wake up at 3pm. I have had no desire to go out. I try to figure out new ways to improve this...
Posted by VAL on Wed, 01 Nov 2006 12:58:00 PST

DATING

Well I've tried the online dating thing for a few months now and decided to delete my accounts. Yeah I had a few. I was in a relationship for 6 years and after moving here, it ended. I think if it ...
Posted by VAL on Tue, 10 Oct 2006 08:50:00 PST

TRYING TO CHANGE

Since my friend Susan passed away, I've battled with depression. People who haven't been through it don't understand why somebody can't just mourn the loss and move on. Well I didn't move on. Never...
Posted by VAL on Mon, 02 Oct 2006 11:24:00 PST

RECLUSE GAL

So far since living here in Peterborough, (three years), I've had three exciting events.  (For me anyway).  All three were because I wanted to see Aide-De-Camp rock band play...
Posted by VAL on Fri, 01 Sep 2006 07:03:00 PST