This is my Mind Rape Account. If you want to know the whole story behind Mind Rape well here it is... Alright well this whole "Mind Rape" thing started when I had to make a mask for my 12th grade English class. We needed a mask of the Ego or Super Ego and the Id. The id is "the source of our drives and Freud considered it to be the reservoir of libido. 'The libido' or simply 'libido', is the form of energy cathected upon objects or an affect received from objects, predominantly sexual, which underlies all mental processes. Our drives (Freud had very theoretically specific "-drives" such as the death-drive, but drives can often be equated to 'instincts') surge forth from the id and apply libidinal energy to objects, which may result in aggressive or erotic attachments/actions upon chosen objects. The drives of the id are considered to be inborn, operating within the primary psychical processes (those of the unconscious) and are absolutely determined according to the pleasure principle. It is said that the id behaves as though it were unconscious, the reason thought to be is that our ego and our super-ego's ideals and pressures are often in conflict with the id's, causing repression, as the gratification of the id's drives would often be devastating in terms of social- and self-image. The word "id" is taken from the nominative single neuter Latin personal pronoun (is, ea, id) meaning "it" or "that thing." For the class I made this freakin' cool mask which is what you seen in the photo. But I still did not tie the mask to the term "Mind Rape". That occurred when I watched a funny video which is just a bunch of random stuff put together. You can watch it for yourself here . Then one day I got bored and ran to, my friend, Daniel’s house wearing the mask and a white jumpsuit. That jumpsuit I got from my mom's work at a hospital. Then I took that notorious picture and “Mind Rape†became immortalized. I made a few videos with the mask on! Here is some links to them... Mind Rape 1
Mind Rape 2
Mind Rape 3 . That is the story but now I have a bunch of friend who do the Mind Rape pictures just like me…
Well I have created a new account because I can't upload photos. And if you want to know why I can't upload photos... well it's because myspace is gay... Yeah I am turning this account into my Mind Rape Account. Which is kind of funny because my new url is www.myspace.com/1stmindrape Can you believe that these two kids took mindrape and mind_rape? they must be FREAKS! Alright well go ahead and go to the new site and add me if you read this!Past
[My name is Austin. First of all there are two (Austin)s which occupy my body. One is the me you see on the outside all shits and giggles, but me on the inside is completely different. The person I hide, the guy I kept locked up, my feelings, my thoughts, my pain, my loneliness all apply to this poor fellow. He is what I numb, what I choose not to see. My sprit is that guy, my soul is him. But if you know me you probability will never see this guy or know he ever existed. I kept most of my thoughts to myself and tend to share very little to anyone else. The only time you will ever get a glimpse of this person is when you look into my eyes. The gateway to the soul is through ones eyes, for that reason I tend to not look someone in the eyes when they are talking to me or I am talking to them. I talk indirectly almost like I am talking to a person behind them or just in front of them. I don’t want them to see that other guy, ashamed of my own thoughts. If you look into my eyes you will no longer see my facade but the guy on the inside, you will feel his thoughts and understand his pain. I feel as though I have been cursed to repeat these agonizing experiences of being shipped from prison to prison with no chance of escape except for in my sleep.
And the one key to allow me to be free is lost in the darkness of my cell. Forced into solitary confinement for life. That feeling is gone, Alone once more living just for the hell of it. I might get a chance to leave my cell once more I just sit in wait for the next moment I can relieved my self and finally escape.]
The stuff you just read was something I put up at a time I was very depressed. The reason why I keep the message up is to show others who read it that they are not alone. In some way we are the same, together we share the same pain. So to you the reader, you are not alone for I have felt the same pain of loneliness through my life as well. It takes some time to get over but focus on what is head not events that have already occurred. That’s my advice and thanks for reading this.
Present
I have learned to overcome the feeling of loneliness. I have learned to love myself which is something one needs to do before you can ever truly love another person.
There is one thing from the past that I still agree with and that is this, [As if anyone will ever read this shit to take the time out of there lives to actually read someone’s about me on myspace. Like anyone is going to give a shit about my life. At least people will see pictures a maybe scratch the surface of my soul.] I know no one is going to read this but it feels really good to put down how you truly feeling, I find it very therapeutic. But if you do read my about me please tell me! LoL
I HATED HIGH SCHOOL! If you feel the same way please join this group! I Hate School
If you really wanted to know about me and your into Numerology, all you need to know it this...
Soul Number = 2
Personality Number = 1
Power Number = 3
Birth Day Number = 7
Life Path Number = 7
Attitude Number = 8
Destiny Number= 7
Born 10/07/1988, I am a Libra
CURRENT MOON lunar phase
Hedgehog's dilemma:
[Hedgehog's dilemma states that the closer two beings come to each other, the more likely they are to hurt one another; however if they remain apart, they will each feel the pain of loneliness. This comes from the idea that hedgehogs have spines on their backs. If they come close to one another, the spines of each will hurt the other. This is analogous to a relationship between two human beings. If two people come to care about and trust each other, something bad that happens to one of them will hurt the other as well, and dishonesty between the two could cause even greater problems.]
Even though I feel like I have over come my loneliness I still like the name “Hedgehog's Dilemmaâ€. I feel the meaning still applies to me and the name has kind of grown on me. I enjoy having a name which has some freaking meaning to it!
