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i'm alyssa
&&the best things in life are always in the background.
i don't believe in anything.
including love; it's a hoax
my friends are probably better than yours:
even if everyone says that--I know it's true.
i'm a cunt [meaning: a bitch]
i think you suck.
i'm a senior in highschool; it's nothing special.
i know who i am
i love my family more than anything.
marbrolo menthol 100's
i sometimes drink.
music is everything
i like going to shows.
i have a lot of flaws; they make me.
i spend my weekends watching movies--
&&working [wendy's, yo]
i want you to choose: the chapstick or the bullet
loosing myself [again] is my biggest fear.
along with heights, spiders, and black and white movies
in the fall i will be studing forensic biology at Ferris.
i want to be a CSI; I am obsessed.
my aim is simple: severthetiesxx
i have a large vocabulary, and love proper grammer.
i hate people who talk like ThIs.
and people who spell shit, shyt.
i probably hate you and everything you stand for.
i'm a bruise on society's perfect image.
i don't like rap -- unless i'm drunk
i love sports
i love driving aimlessly.
i end up in a2 a lot.
&&i'm afraid of detroit at night.
i miss my grandpa [rip 092306]
i love the rain
&&the snow.
you get to my heart through snow angels and dancing in the rain.

My Interests

originality is overrated.

I'd like to meet:

I just want someone to hold&&be held by.
I just want someone's hand to hold.
I want someone to stand in the rain with me.
I just want something.

RIP Grandpa. You will forever be in my heart.
"love is like a beautiful song. The notes will forever echo in your heart♥ even when the last one is silent."
Who I'd Like to Meet, DUH:

Some cool friends.
What's that? Oh, yah. I have them.
♥

Kristen has the keys to lock the gate. [myheart]

wegodowntogether. Jaccob.

Music:

put the needle to the record
&&
hit me with your style

Movies:

press play.

Television:

static

Books:

turn the page

Heroes:

Hero's always die.
"no matter how much you think you love someone, you'll always take a step back when the pool of blood edges up too close."

i love my brother.
he means the world to me.

My Blog

thoughts.

and the clock strikes midnight, yet again.i sit here alone thinking about everything.about how people always disappoint me, even when i least expect it.how even when everything should be looking up,i ...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Fri, 08 Dec 2006 09:21:00 PST

two words for you.

Due to recent things I have become a bitch.You know what, I am okay with that.You can all fuck off if you don't want to hear what I have to say.I've always been blunt, you all know this; just because ...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Fri, 10 Nov 2006 08:15:00 PST

the time has come for colds...

it snowed today. i am so excited. i love autumn; it is my favorite season but, winter is where i feel right.the snow its so beautiful and it just seems right.maybe because i love upnorth so much,&...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Fri, 13 Oct 2006 04:45:00 PST

none

i am so broken. i dont know how to react to anything.i need someone to be here.i need someone to laywith.but at the same time i want to be alone.i dont know anymore.i dont.
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Mon, 25 Sep 2006 08:56:00 PST

broken beyond recognition

I never knew it would hurt this much.I knew it would hurt.He's gone.Don't expect me around for a while guys.
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Mon, 25 Sep 2006 08:38:00 PST

done.

Everything happens at the same time to me. I thought I was upset yesterday about somethings. But, none of that matters now. Grandpa is in the hospital for his heart. He's going soon, I know he is.I ca...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Tue, 19 Sep 2006 12:19:00 PST

I can't take this.

I think my grandpa is dying. My mom wants me to call him just to talk because, "he's not doing so well." What do I do? I can't loose him. He means so much to me. I can't stand crying like this.This ca...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Sun, 03 Sep 2006 12:49:00 PST

broken.

It's weird how one minute you think one way and the next you think completely different. Like earlier, I was crying. Then I cheered up a little bit, but now I am down again. I keep thinking a lot abou...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Wed, 30 Aug 2006 10:29:00 PST

happiness isnt real.

i dont know how i feel right now. its pretty much like i was before all the pills. if you know anything about me, you know what i am talking about. i am hurting a lot more than usual latel...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Wed, 30 Aug 2006 08:45:00 PST

faintly remembered

How does someone's whole life change with out the person giving any kind of consent? How does it come about that all of her once friends stop calling and somehow forget that she was ever in existence?...
Posted by alyssa anesthesia on Wed, 26 Jul 2006 11:17:00 PST