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About Me

Its like a Bad Cancer.Your body is holding on when it wants to let go.A bad cancer you do everything in your power to be happy with,but you cant resist the pain.Bad like Everythings shutting down right in front of you,you watch others Live,as You know your dying.Its like a Bad Cancer,you do everything you can to be the prettiest,dress the best,have a clear face,full of Life,Lots of hair,Good speech,the best smelling perfume...Its like a Bad Cancer.No matter what you do,Its dosent change whats real.Dosent change what stands in your way.When your laying there,minutes,hours,years might go by...you suffer.Its like a bad cancer.You have so much to say without enough time to say it.You write it down,but theres not enough paper.You wanna tell so many different people something that could change there life while your gone,but you cant get to all of them.Like a bad cancer,your body is screaming,please dont do this,please let me live,please let him Love me this way...while my body rottons n these sheets.My face is distraught with illness,n insanity.Like a bad cancer.Your so angry inside,asking why...cant even explain or describe the urge you have.How angry you get with God because you thought he was on your side.The stupid mistakes that you couldve prevented from keeping this misery away.Its like a bad cancer.You ache in and out,trying to make people listen,understand the pain.What you need,what you need to say,Oh god please...Give me someone like me.Who will still be here when Im gone.When my body is done fighting,fighting this battle that Im living in this bed.Someone who believes me like I believe n Myself...? I wanna hear you say It,SAY IT!!! SAY IT!!! Say im gonna make it,say i should keep fighting,tell me someones coming with a cure.Tell me this is worthed.Like a bad cancer.I live for the possibilities of simply dying or living,never knowing when my my body could expire,or renew itself.Like a bad cancer.Im giving it all I got.Just waiting...waiting in the dark.I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!

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Name: Ja33
Birthdate: May...
Birthplace: Washington DC
Current Location: Knightdale, NC
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: dark brown
Height: 5'4
Weight: too much Information LOL
Piercings: EARS
Tatoos: No
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Boyfriend
Overused Phraze: uhhh...SHUT YO MOUTH!
FAVORITES
Food: EVERYTHING BABY!!!
Candy: NOT big on it
Number: da duc3 duc3!!
Color: red
Animal: Lil chuwawa
Drink: citrus vault (energy drink)
Alcohol Drink: GET THE FU@* OUTA HURR!!
Bagel: NAW
Letter: J
Body Part on Opposite sex: BUTT LOL
This or That
Pepsi or Coke: IM NOT VERY FOND OF EATHER
McDonalds or BurgerKing: MIKKEYS
Strawberry or Watermelon: STRAWBURRI3S
Hot tea or Ice tea: IC3 T3A
Chocolate or Vanilla CHOCOLATE
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: HOT! HOT! HOT!
Kiss or Hug: KISS
Dog or Cat: DOGGI3
Rap or Punk: ...
Summer or Winter: I HAT3 BOTH
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: lOV3 3M BOTH
Love or Money: lOV3
YOUR...
Bedtime: LOL...WONT T3LL
Most Missed Memory: WHEN I WAS UNDER THE AGE OF 12...
Best phyiscal feature: iim not sur3 ...PROBALLY MY SKIN
First Thought Waking Up: mY RICO N FOOD LOL
Goal for this year: TO BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT
Best Friends: Deandre (my Ex),Tiff (my SIS),Rico (MY Boyfriend)
Weakness: Love
Fears: abandonment
Heritage: ...
Longest relationship: (almost two years)
HAVE YOU...
Ever Drank: yeah i tried it but its nAST33!
Ever Smoked: noooo
Ever been Drunk: YEAH A LOOOONG TIME AGO but it was an accident...
Ever been beaten up: LOL yeah riiite
Ever beaten someone up: yeah
Ever Shoplifted: awww thats BADDD!!!
Ever Skinny Dipped: naww
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: ...? wat kinda question...
Been Dumped Lately: no
IN A GUY/GIRL
Favorite Eye Color: brown is fine
Short or Long: go head maiin
Height: 5'8 or taller
Style: different stuff
Looks or Personality: both
Hot or Cute HAWT HAWT HAWT
Drugs and Alcohol: ? NAW
Muscular or Really Skinny: MUSCLE BAB33
RANDOMS
Number of Regrets in the Past: NOT TOO MANY CUZ THEY ALL GOT ME TO WHERE I AM
What country do you want to Visit: LOTS OF 3M'
How do you want to Die: ....
Been to the Mall Lately: LYK3 4 DAYS AGO
Do you like Thunderstorms:
Get along with your Parents: SUMTYM3Z
Health Freak: NOT R3ALLI
&..39;Do you think your Attractive:' Y3S
Want to go to College: not sur3 y3t what Im gonna do
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Drink: no
Been in Love: y3s
Do you Sing: y3s!!!!!!!!!!!!
Want to get Married:
Do you want Children: not sur3
Have your future kids names planned out: lol naw
Age you wanna lose your Virginity: thats not sumthin u really plan
Hate anyone: No

CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!Not enough to change the world. Words arent enough to tell you how much I love you. My Love wouldnt be enough If u wanted to go. Words arent enough If your not sure of yourself. Not enough to keep your mind where its at. My touch isnt enough if your temptation is that strong. Theres nothing i could say to change you if your not willing to change. Not enough to say this is real. God didnt say it so why are you so believable? Not enough to show you what my loving could do for your life.Not enough to hold you in my arms till death could do us part.Not enough different ways to make you understand me.Not enough to keep It all away.Not enough of anything could change this Reality into my own fantasy.With you.Theres not enough...''...These wounds wont seem to heal,This pain is just too real,theres just too much that ''Time'' Cannot erase...''I LOVE PERFORMING ARTS!!Kiss on the stomach----- "lets have sex"*Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"*Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"*Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"*Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"*Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"*Looking into each other's Eyes --- "Don't leave me"*Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"--Advice-- * Dont ask for a kiss, take one. *If you were thinking about someone while reading this, you're definitely in Love.
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You are quite expressive and thoughtful. You see the world in a way that others are blind to.You are a grounded person, but you also leave room for imagination and dreams. You feet may be on the ground, but you're head is in the clouds. But be careful dont fly so high. You see yourself with pretty objective eyes. How you view yourself is almost exactly how other people view you. That is because you are your true self to you and others. Your near future is likely to be filled with great successes and accomplishments. You just need to figure out how to get there. For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing. Interesting!!!Your fun, we should me friends.
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I'd like to meet:

...But I cant keep It bottled In...You realize how much u love someone n cherish them when ur around others who wanna be with you the way someone else is.The moment you take to speak to someone else n it just dosent feel right.The people you see when u walk down a street jus as fine or better but have no comparism at all! All the chances you get to do wrong but you wont take them for the love of God.It makes you realize what they really mean to you inside.what it feels like to be around those others.what it feels like to look at those others.a simple hug,pat on the shoulder,maybe even a moment of eye connection between that other.That real ass nigga spittin his game to you.Tellin you what he could do for you,how he would treat you.How he would share his world.Buy you the world.Tellin you how beautiful you are n any nigga to hurt you is to die! That nigga who stopped his car in the middle of the street just to see your face when you turned around.Or knelled to his knee to kiss your hand.It makes you realize the things that matter to you the most.Makes you realize all the things you could have.Makes you realize that some people think ur so beautiful,everything you could ever want could be priceless! Makes you realize whats in the mirror that you could never see.Makes me realize how much these things really means to me.Nothing.Nothing at all.Cause I got you.and your All i need.Makes me realize Happiness dosent come from a wallet or material things,or the prettiest boy you can find.It comes from the heart.The simplicity of you just being there In my presence,without a word.I feel you,I treasure you,I understand,Happiness.And happiness,Priceless baby.Simply priceless.

Music:

is my passion...Get your falling object

Movies:

Titanic

Television:

Lifetime

My Blog

WHY

I'm afraid If I say It,You'll be Gone the next day.Im afraid If I feel It,It will turn out to be a Fake.Im afraid If I Pretend, It will all go away...why am I so afraid?
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Wed, 27 Dec 2006 07:52:00 PST

What If

What IF! Have you ever wondered which hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? or saying nothing and wishing you had? I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say. D...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 08:36:00 PST

Not enough

I could say a million times over how I feel some daysHow it feels to be with youor how u i want you for this and that long...how i dont want you to go away n all thatLOLkeep writing all these damn let...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 07:06:00 PST

''Hiding Under''

I know we can make it through anythingbut when will you be ready for me.Your actions prove your love for meMake up for all you pretend not to be.Your words can bring me down'but I feel happiness all o...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sat, 09 Dec 2006 11:03:00 PST

JUS A REMEMBERIN POST

Deep In a Dream.It has no words to explain It's meaning. Which Is why It explains me.Because I cant be explained...because Im not the same as the World I fight this battle to Live against.I know God m...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sat, 09 Dec 2006 08:38:00 PST

My Promise

''I promised to Love you Forever,even If you never really Loved me.But what we shared,I just cant call Love anymore...'''-Mi Milagro
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 12:14:00 PST

I'll Take this Moment to Linger on our ''Lost Love''

I held a SCATER...and he use to hold me...I miss EVERY DAMN MINUTE of it...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 11:54:00 PST

My Life-Deep In a Dream

Everything I feel,Lays Deep In my Dreams.Haunts my Life,Clears my soul and conscience.Allows me to wake and break when I can no longer Bare.Everything I'v been through lays In that Dream.Everything th...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sat, 02 Dec 2006 07:41:00 PST

Quote*

''If your not sure,Take a chance.If your wrong,Take the Pain.Someday it will be worthed.''
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 26 Nov 2006 05:42:00 PST

A brief letter to an Old Love of mine

Dont say Because It didnt work Out,That it wasnt real...You know in your heart thats not true..And I still feel that it was real.I know I messed up and I should've gave you a chance,but I didnt have m...
Posted by ♥...Your still here. on Sun, 12 Nov 2006 08:51:00 PST