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NEVER HAD ME SUM0NE LiKE HiM =] && N0 Y0U CAN`T HAVE HiM
BABY D` ii L0VE Nd MiSz Y00h!!!!
Somewhere in between the procrastination, the homework, the instant messages, the crushes, and the incessant amounts of food, somewhere in between the phone calls complaining about life, and the "i miss you's" "i love you's" and the "what are we doing tonight's." Somewhere in between all the changing and growing, somewhere in between the classes, and the skipping classes, the studying for tests, the pretending to study for tests, and the downright not studying for tests. Somewhere in between all the appointments, starbucks coffees, and mcdonalds's, the borrowing money, the paying back, and the not paying back, the making plans, and then the breaking plans.. Somewhere in between... I forgot. I forgot what it was like to be happy. I forgot that pretending to be happy- doesn't make you happy, And that pretending to be smart- doesn't make you smart. I forgot that you can`t just forget the past- in fear of the future. I forgot that you can`t control falling in love- and that you can`t make yourself fall in love. I learned that I can love. i learned that it's okay to mess up, and its okay to ask for help, and its okay to feel like shit. I learned that its okay to complain to your friends for a whole day. I learned that sometimes the things that you want most you just cant have. And the things you are looking for are right in front of you. I learned that the greatest things in life are not the parties, or the drinking, or the hook-ups. Its about the friendships/ relationships which means taking chances. I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget most are the things we most need to talk about. I learned that time and love can heal all things and i learned that just when you think "it cant get any worse" It does.
