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If u want to get to know me,then i suggest u start on the outside,cos iam sure that is my good side,and iam all bloody inside!i would describe myself as narcissus,hysterical,proud and unique.The way i look is hated by many people,most of the people aroud me show prejudice against me.Well,i do not give it a fuck!i only care about the friends who i care for!people can see my outside, my looking, but they never be able to know my thoughts and inner feeling.Yeah,iam a failure and cynicalist,with so much coomplain and discontent in my mind!I've thorns all over my body,just like a timed-boom that may explode anytime.But why do i becoome such a shitty?because i have thought over life seriously,i will never want to become cowardly and ordinary.What the hell of rule,standard,model that have been set up for me !I'll only do the things i like to do,but i will not do anything i should do !If i do not try my best to live a life according to my will,i would rather die proudly than live rediculously.sometimes i think about how to suicide in a beautiful way,but i have not figure it out yet... anyway,life still goes on,i should try to be good and friendly with all my dearest friends and strangers, so that they will be willing to attend my funeral someday !Do u start to love me or to hate me now?