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My-Kill Ray

Beyond My Wildest Fucking Dreams LIFE THROUGH THE EYES OF A DOPELESS HOPEFIEND

About Me

I'm clean! I deserve to be Happy! I will not compromise my moral integrity for anyone! I'm single and I'm Ok with that. I believe in love, destiny and know gods plan for my life is better than my own!
I used to bee a crystal meth Junky! I used to shoot needles into my neck and arms just to be able to funtion (So I thought).
I KNOW, IF YOU ARE AN ACTIVE TWEEKER QUITTING PROBABLY SOUNDS LAME OR IMPOSSIBLE! I'M HERE TO TELL YOU, THERE IS A WAY OUT AND I WILL HELP YOU!
These days I'm very grateful to be in Recovery! I started my journey at the Safe House Sober Living and I highly recommend Safe House as the best sober living in the Los Angeles Area. There is real recovery and a great program there!
I'd hit insane bottom. I am clean now from a life of HARD DRUGS and Booze.A.A AND N.A. saved my life. This was me, Sucked up, emotionaly dead, spirtualy void.
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This is what i had written for my about me when I was spun. I leave this up so as not to forget where I came from.
The best thing is I was able save all the things about me that were good and change all the things about me that made me a worthless dope fiend/Junky! Here it is.....
I am a Sarcastic, Pot Smoking, Jack Daniel’s drinking, Beer Burping, Head Smashing, Motorcycle Riding, Clit Licking, Risk Taking, Ball Busting, Head Banging, Knife Wielding, Shit Talking, Fire Blowing, Self Medicating, Tattooed, 13th Stepping, Mosh Pit Mother Fucker of an Anarchististic, Narcissistic, Somewhat Sadistic, Sadomasochistic, Gun Totting, Shit Smokin, Thrill Seeking, Alchemistic, hopeful but Realistic, Psychopathic, Telepathic, Tweaked Out, Freaked Out, Sex N Drugs then More Sex N Drugs & More Sex While On Drugs, Adrenalin, Drug Chocolate and Alcohol Addicted American Nightmare of a PECKERWOOD!!!, Till The MUTHA-FUCKIN Coffin Drops!!I Was Bourn And Raised in Salem Massachusetts and YES, there ARE, and I AM!I love Animals, no matter how ugly because they are truly Pure and InnocentI Love Nature, the Outdoors, and I Especially Love and Respect Lightning!I Adore Old People, I just want to pet them. (RESPECT YOUR ELDERS!)I LOVE HARDCORE, HEAVY, LOUD, PISSED OFF, DEPRESING, PERVERTED, DISMAL, ANGRY, LOUD MUSIC! I DON"T LIVE IN A FAIRYTAIL! I DON"T WANA HEAR ABOUT THEM EITHER!I TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY I EXPECT TO BE TREATED AND FULLY BELIEVE IN KARMA.I DISAGREE AND STAND AGAIST ORGANIZED RELIGION, IT'S ANOTHER FORM OF CONTROLL.I HAVN’T WATCHED T.V IN OVER A YEAR BECAUSE I BELEIVE WE ARE CONTROLLED BY THE MEDIA.I COULD MAKE A CARRER OUT OF BEATING THE SHIT OUT OF MEN WHO HIT WOMAN, IF I NEVER GET PAID, I’LL STILL BE THE RICHEST MAN ALIVE!I LOVE MY COUNTRY, BUT FEAR MY GOVERNMENT!I SAy WHAT I MEEN AND MEEN WHAT I SAY!I DON'T WRITE CHECKS MY ASS CAN'T CASH AND I FEAR NO MAN!

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I'd like to meet:



I'm tattooed and pierced and I like girls who are too! I hope my true love will look like a tattooed pierced freak on the outside, but knows God and wants to glorify God through our relationship. That's the perfect woman!CLEAN AND SOBER PEOPLE ARE MY FAVORITE PEOPLE!Right now my recovery is my # 1 priority! If I meet someone who as enthusiastic about her recovery and God then that would be special to me. I'm single and I'm OK with that!I LOVE GIRLS WITH TATTOOS TOO!

I would also like to meet positive, original, funny, creative,people
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This is funny shit!! When My FIRE STUNTS go bad, They go real bad!!

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This is what they look like when all go's well witch is about 95% of the time! That other 5% gives me room to learn and grow!

Your comments are welcomed!!

Music:



..Lamb of God, Hatebreed, Silversun Pickups, Twisted Method, Sixx AM, Bleeding Through, A Perfect Circle, Adeema, Korn, Breaking Benjamins, 3 days Grace, Dropkick Murphy, In This Moment, The Vandals, Type O Negative, Pennywise, Social D, Offspring, Porcelain and the Tramps, The Vincent Black Shadow, Rise Against, Jack Off Jill, Scarling, Flyleaf, Dope, The Unseen, Disturbed, Devil Driver, AX7, Atreyu, Marylin Manson, THE MISFITS, Rob Zombie, Minor Threat, Kidney Thieves, Disturbed, Coheed & Cambria, Taproot, Evanescence, Tool, Murder Dolls, Dead Kenedys, Kitty, Orgy, Placebo, Nashville Pussy,

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Movies:

FIGHT CLUB!!, American History X, Boondock Saints! The Covent, 28 Days, 28 Weeks, Saw 1,2,3,4! An American Haunting, Final Destination 1,2 & 3! House of 1000 Corpses! The Devils Rejects, Office Space, Sin City, Shoot Em Up!, Kill Bill 1 & 2, Dogma! The Stand, Evil Dead 1, 2 and (3) Army of Darkness, Near Dark, The Salton See, Spun! Dracula, Vampires, TRUE ROMANCE, The Usual Suspects, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Lost Highway, Natural Born Killers! Pulp Fiction, Various Porn

Television:

I don't watch T.V a lot but it's usually a cartoon like AQua Teen Hunger Force, South Park, Family Guy, Adult Swim and Robot Chicken! Oh look for me soon in some "Reality Show"! More will be revealed soon!

Books:

The Holly Bible! New King James Version! Robert R. McCameron's Swan Song!! The Vampire Chronicals, N.A's Basic Text, N.A Step Workig Guide, N.A. Sponsorship, Just For Today, How it Works and Why Night Shift, Salems Lott, The Stand, Pet Cemetary, Carrie, Skeletin Crew, the Shining and IT, Steven King, Death of a Salesman, Orwels's 1984, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas Hunter S. Tomson. Anything by Wess Craven, Shakespere's Romeo & Juliet, Tattoo Masgazine,

Heroes:

JESUS CHRIST! He died for me so I live for him! Rick S.

My Blog

Fire Artsist for hire!

I love expressing myself through fire!  I love the initial Explosion and heat 1-2 feet from my face!   The fire Nun chucks are my favorite and I have incorporated fire breathing into my Kata...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Fri, 09 May 2008 11:57:00 PST

Single again and OK with that

I'm shocked and a little taken back that Jennifer and I broke up. I gave her 101% of my heart. The firsy 6 weeks were awsome. We were on a pink cloud. She was comlimentitive, Charming, blowing up my p...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Thu, 07 Feb 2008 02:12:00 PST

Clean time and the fellowship of so called anonymity

Ok so the rumors were flying! I heard I relapsed.  Here is the truth about all that! I was going through a rough time with my (at the time) girlfriend Jennifer. Well in the beginning of our ...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 10:50:00 PST

Now is the Time 4 me to Rise To my Feet!

OK! Thanks to those who show support here! It meens a lot to know that friends still exist. After giving 2 years of my life to helping others in recovery and leading by example. For a time I fealt it ...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Fri, 08 Feb 2008 12:17:00 PST

I totally believe in love!

I Michael Ray,  am beside myself with joy and comfort around my my new life with Jennifer! from wher I come from, I counldn't have expected such an awsome person in my life. My lil sis Kayla hoo...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Wed, 05 Dec 2007 03:06:00 PST

Diary of a Recovering Meth Addict, Entry 2

Hi again I'm Michael and I'm an addict! So much has happened since my last entry. The important thing is that through a lot of heartache, anger, fear, and great loss, I never let life on life's term...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 08:00:00 PST

Diary of a recovering Meth addict.

Hi I'm Michael and I am an addict. Today I have 261 Days with absolutely no mind altering substances put into my body! Now more than ever, though life is painful at times, I appreciate and respect m...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Thu, 15 Mar 2007 03:12:00 PST

Lyrics

When I was comatose from my overdose they looked inside my head. They couldn't figure out what I was all about or why I wasn't dead. I was flying high through my psychic eye, I saw the world to be. I ...
Posted by My-Kill Ray on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 12:52:00 PST