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åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ

Pardon Me..While i Burn..and rise above the flame..Pardon me..but i Refuse to be the Same

About Me



I f y o u w o u l d l i k e t o b a d d e d a s a f r i e n d ,
p l e a s e m e s s a g e m e 1 s t .

~ P o s i t i v e s ~
Calm, Kind, Compassionate, Patient, Empathetic, Creative, Artsy, Determined, Different, Open-minded, Honest, Sensitive, Great Listener, Introverted

~ N e g a t i v e s ~
Bipolar w/ a hint of OCD, Insecure, Chemically dependant, Overly Analytical, Jealous, Lazy, Socially Anxious, Shy, Paranoid, Impulsive

My Interests


i n t e l l i g e n t c o n v e r s a t i o n
P h o t o g r a p h y
e a s t e r n r e l i g i o n
n e o - p a g a n i s m
p s y c h o l o g y
c o n s p i r a c y t h e o r i e s
m e t a p h y s i c s

n a t u r e
i n k i n g , p i e r c i n g ,
b r a n d i n g , s c a r i f i c a t i o n
c r e a t i v i t y
s l e e p i n g
a r t i s t i c a l t p o r n o g r a p h y

I'd like to meet:


I n d i v i d u a l s t h a t w i l l . . . .

Music:



.. I H A T E R A P ..

30 seconds to mars, 40 below summer

a perfect circle, ani difranco, avril lavigne, alkaline trio

Baxter, bush, bjork

the cranberries, chevelle, coal chamber, cold, candlebox

deftones, the dresden dolls, dashboard confessional, death cab for cutie

elliot smith, evansblue

fiona apple, fefe dobson, filter, flyleaf

humanwine, hum

garbage, godhead

ill nino, incubus

kidney thieves, k's choice, kittie

mazzy star, marilyn manson, michelle branch

nirvana, nin, nonpoint,

placebo, puscifer, pearl jam, portishead, poe

The Red Paintings

rage against the machine, regina spektor, radiohead, rasputina

smashing pumpkins, sublime, stp, slipknot, seether, staind, stone sour, senses fail, sevendust, sarah mclachlin

tool, tori amos, thom yorke, taproot, taking back sunday

the used, underoath

weezer zwan

Movies:


~ h o r r o r ~
The Exorcist, Constantine, 28 days later, 28 Weeks Later, 30 days of night, Stigmata, The Underworld movies, Bram Stoker's Dracula, 1408, Flight of the Living Dead, Stir of Echoes, The ring, Darkness Falls, the 6th sense, The Lost Boys, Signs
~ c o m e d y ~
Clerks, Clerks2, Mallrats, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back, Dogma, Chasing Amy, Shaun of the Dead, Super Bad, Knocked Up, Good Luck Chuck, Four Rooms, Party Monster, Office Space, The Big Lebowski, The Royal Tenenbaums, Very Bad things, Fear n Loathing in Las Vegas, Cheech n Chong, pretty much ANY stoner movie
~ m i n d f u c k d r a m a ~
Donnie Darko,Stranger than Fiction, Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind, Vanilla sky, Lost Highway, Mulholland Dr., Waking Life, Stay
~ d r a m a ~
Spun, Fight Club, SLC Punk, Across the Universe, I am Legend, A Scanner Darkly, The Boondock Saints, Bully, Prozak nation, The Mothman Prophecies, Requiem for a dream, American History X, Reality Bites, What Dreams May Come, Legend, Foxfire, Girl Interrupted, Fargo, Pulp Fiction, Pan's Labyrinth, The Virgin Suicides
~ S a p p y R o m a n c e ~
Tristin and Isolde, Romeo n Juliet, Mad Love, Sweet November, True Romance, Ever After, Never been kissed ...many more that i can't remember
~ K i d s m o v i e s ~
Labyrinth, The last unicorn, Alice in wonderland, the Goonies, The Little Mermaid, The princess Bride

Television:


Books:



Currently reReading ~
Twilight ~ Stephanie Meyer

Recently Finished ~
the 10 commitments of love ~ michele mack
the twilight saga (all 4 books)~ stephanie meyer


~~~

Stonehenge ~ Bernard Cornwell
Interview with the Vampire ~ Anne Rice
Odd Thomas ~ Dean Koontz
The Shining ~ Stephen King
Disco Bloodbath ~ James St. James
The DaVinci Code ~ Dan Browne
Dharma Punx ~ Noah Levine
American Gods ~ Neil Gaiman
Bully ~ Jim Schutze
The Amityville Horror ~ Jay Anson
A Million Little Pieces ~ James Grey
The Tao of Pooh ~ Benjamin Hoff
Exploring the Labyrinth ~ Nevill Drury

I am obcessed with books on comparative religion and Spirituality.

Sylvia Browne books.
Johnny the homicidal Maniac, Squee, Emily the Strange
and anything graphic n smutty

Heroes:

a n y o n e t h a t s t a n d s u p f o r w h a t t h e y b e l i e v e i n d e s p i t e t h e r e p e r c u s s i o n s t h e y m a y f a c e

My Blog

my perfect boyfriend

Sooo...i was bored the other night so i decided to make a list of everything i was/am looking for in a significant other, the list is long, including physical traits as well as personality traits. phy...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Thu, 23 Oct 2008 09:31:00 PST

sisters of the universe

This is a poem written to me by my bestest....... Sisters of the Universe written by Amanda Riccardi   You are my friend A beautiful soul who shines so bright I will never abuse our friendship I ...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Sat, 09 Aug 2008 10:07:00 PST

just me n my sketchbook

ahhh to draw...... i forgot how much peace it brings me when i have a pencil in hand nothing else matters no thoughts of  job complications, no bills, no lack of a love life just me n my creation...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Thu, 07 Aug 2008 11:16:00 PST

what does fate have in store for me?

Well the job i raved about in my last blog was amazing, but unfortunatly their medical benefits weren't, so i had to decline. But i have not lost hope! I applied for 2 different transfers here at kid...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Thu, 10 Jul 2008 11:55:00 PST

what is spirituality?

______________________________What is Spirituality?by Roy E Klienwachter _______________________________ What is this illusive thing that people go looking for called Spirituality? Spirit is 1/3 of t...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Sat, 24 May 2008 03:28:00 PST

10 random odd facts about me

Here’s how you play. Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with ten weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose ten people to be tagged, listi...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Sun, 24 Feb 2008 11:36:00 PST

i don’t dream sweet dreams

Dreams about finding my moms dead body n slitting evil devil childrens throuts r not exactly my idea of a restful sleep. I hate this..... i'm in the process of having another over emotional bipolar ep...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Mon, 14 Jan 2008 11:00:00 PST

dresden fun

The Dresden Dolls ~ sold out @ the TLAand they fell in rock love....and then i fell in rock love....some trippy hula hooping......the most annoying crossdressing concert goer that i have ever encounte...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Sat, 29 Dec 2007 08:07:00 PST

dead_ish

i feel so incredibly uninspired. i hate this time of year. winter makes me want to hibernate, crawl under a big rock n let it smash my head in (i guess that isn't really hibernating than is it?) Its c...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Wed, 12 Dec 2007 08:30:00 PST

cutting w/ a house key ~ my bipolar struggle

Bi-polar disorder is a bitch to live with especcially when dealing with depressive cycles. When i was a teen my bi-polar was far more rapid cycling, in other words my ups n downs occured very quickly...
Posted by åñ ðrgåñïzêÐ mꧧ on Wed, 07 Nov 2007 03:36:00 PST