- Liquified Chaos -

HELPHELPHELP

MAKE A CHANGE

Straight- jacket me, put me in handcuffs- if you must. Put me out of your mind, make me explode into nothing within your heart. Battle me, seduce me, and call my name, make into something I am not. Gravitate towards me, put your hands on me- make me whole. Smother me with the aloofness of your mind. Give me the directions, to only be gone from home. Distract me, with your crazy self by forcing me to read you. Give me candy, then take it away. Leave me, love me, and put your hands on me- to only seduce me. Dissect me, put my organs on display- allow my heart to see the sky. Lay on me, so I can smell you, and become intoxicated by your smile. Tell me what I want to hear, then fight with me. Make my wild side want more. Push me, threaten me, lie to me, just be there for me.

by: vaneta

To Never Really Die

Carry me through the vibrations of your soul,place me in the darkness of your heart then release meto only allow me to flow through your body,enabling me to feel your wholeness.I close my eyes and there you are,I can touch, smell, and read you.You can no longer hide the parts I can not see,I am within you -controlling you,a faded memory stabbing at your heart and eating at your mind.Everyday,I am in you- my smile, my smell, and my taste,forcing you to hear me and see me forever in your fragmented mind.You have pushed me into my grave without killing me within you,I am in the ground of your soul,feeding off of your memories,never fading and never becoming real,only me in my grave within your soul feeding off of your memoriesto never really die.by: vaneta

STORM

Left in the cold rain,with only my tears to keep me warm.The rain penetrates every pore,slowly seeping into my soul- diluting my happiness.Masked by the rain,no longer me in your eyes- just a symbol of pain and numbness.A mass of nothingness,only a pre-existing lovethat cant be touched..Only faded dreams and old bliss remain,a hollowness within,the over flowing love replaced by a hollow mechanism.You gone,just a empty shell.I want to scream,drill a hole through your numbness,dissect you to open you up to feel my love,make the sun rise to penetrate your soul,strip my body from earthly things and become pure again in your eyes.Trapped within this love,that cant be felt,waves flowing back and forth with no shore to brake the pain.A ongoing wave within,back and forth my emotions build,build into a storm-only producing the rain to fall once again,leaving me wet and cold.By vaneta

IGNITING

Down within the core of my existenceyou are real.Every part of you is in me,as if you were the sun.To see without youI see darkness.With every step,I fall - I fall into my mind where you exist,where the smell of you and your voice penetrates my soul.I ask myself if you could be mine,you-" this nonexisting plage that has taken every limb from me,separating me into fragments of who I used to be".I ask myself " is my mind on fire,has it been burned to ash,set aflame by you - to prevent our existence"?"Have you been here all along gathering my memories,like they were logs for your flame setting ablaze my mind, heart, and soul,- to be placed upon your mantelas if I we're your topee for all to see"?I ask for rain, tears, or even my sweat to wash away the flames.I ask for a storm to sweep me away into the cold, wet night,keeping me damp from you,but you spread.You spread like a wild forest fire deep within my core,penetrating my existence.No storm will protect me from you.No dampness will keep you from igniting,you are here- living in me.I am the flame,I am the fire.I am match that sets my own soul ablaze.by: vaneta

Within You

Take me to the highest peak of you, then drop me into the emptiness of your soul.Allow me to fill the hollowness with my body.Every aspect of me- in you, forcing your blood to over flow beyond the painful reminders of your past, allowing you to grow and become one with me.The darkness of your soul surrounds me, feeding my insides, hiding me from my suffering self.Safe and warm, seeing every part of you, a beauty unknown to me, as if the sun now has a name.Captured by the essence of your rays, blinded by the glow you bring forth within me, heated and transparent beneath you, in you, over you, like a wondrous spirit saved from death.Emerged within you, no need for air, I need nothing but your soul to feed off of, growing becoming one within you.By vaneta

Gone Alive

On and on they go, inside me, pushing me and eating me alive.There's no doubt that my body will become as hollow as a cave, dark, cold and empty.On and on they feast on my insides, leaving nothing be hide.As they consume me,I cry,I cry for help,I want to be saved.Can no one see my tears?hear my cries?I am in front of you,but yet you don't see me,I am as transparent as a breath of air,floating aimless to find you.I blow,my air surrounds you,you feel me,but nothing comes from it,just useless air causing your madness,your disbelief.You once said you loved me,YOU loved me,for what,to take my heart and digest it,to eat it alive with no remorse,to eat right through me,leaving be hide my bones.I am gone,no more,you have drank every ounce of my blood and eaten me whole.Gone,heartless, with nothing else to give.

by, vanetamarie

The Death oh The vine

Dark and empty,living a lie before you.A never ending eclipse within,only hiding my sunshine.The bright rays await you and your kiss,the touch of spring- growing forth a vine that reaches for you and your essence,grabbing at you as if you were its only gravitational pull forcing it to grow and produce sweetness.The sweetness will never become mature,the lack of sunshine slowly kills the vine within,forcing it to die pulling the soul beneath the dark soil,to be lost and gone forever.To only give back to the earth the death of its soul,allowing a new creation to find your heat and your sparkle.

by: vaneta

One Night

You say you have never done this, but yet I am acting as the fool.

Nervous and scared as a little child not aware of your passionate words, you stretch your body over mine, like you knew exactly what you would find in my worried mind.

You leaned down and kissed me as if you knew I needed a fix.

I lay there not really knowing what would happen next.

Still in shock from the first kiss- you kiss me again and we start to fall into a sexual world full of passion and not wanting it to end.

You lay there on top of me with heat in your eyes- I wanted your body caressed against my.

Flesh on flesh two bodies intertwined.

We start to move as if we are one- knowing where each move would take us and not caring who we were.

Just two people in search of something that would make them feel good.

by: vaneta

Blinded

Up in smoke it went with no goodbyes.

I sat back with my face buried within my flesh consumed by the blackness, which engulfed me.

Motionless, the only movements about me were the tears that flowed from my lost eyes.

I stayed there with my back against the wall and my face lost within my illusions.

A dream

A dream that made me feel more awake than asleep.

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Numb to the world with only half of me to explore it.

Up in smoke it went, with no goodbyes.

The sun rose high, a wake-up call for my soul to be beaten out of its slumber.

The heat pieced my flesh and brought warmth to only leave me frozen within.

Jerked up by the imaginary beams, to only have an erg to look for the darkness- only forcing myself to hide within my own sickness again.

I strayed from myself that day- to never find what I had lost within the smoke.

The smoke cradles my absent minded self, forcing me to choke on the ashes from my death.

I will never regain my innocence that went up in smoke that day and never forgive myself for never saying goodbye.

By vaneta