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A Heart of Cold

Let's forget today/And start working on tomorrow.

About Me

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"For where the body forever haunts
The mind will find a seal
A way to make it go away
And give wounds time to heal
In fog and shadow dost it wait
In dank and dirty places
Where fire burns a red hot blaze
And melts away the faces
Fall into Hell with folded hands
It's time to pray your God
And hope his eyes will come to rescue
But oh how he forgot
And now loneliness is all there is
And blood covers the floor
And fire rises from the grave
To burn forever more."

-Me "Free of Body, Free of Mind"
-Inspired thought from Kayla-Marie. The title is a lyric taken from a Finch song. Call it a team effort.
I have met some incredible people in my life. They surprise me how they can continue on. But they're still alive. For that, they deserve honor. Right now I know of only one person who deserves it. Pain which I've come to see in all its aspects because of the resulting aftermath. Pain beyond petty break-ups or fights. Pain beyond what most of us could ever feel... I promise you that.MiCaela B.
You may not want me to have you on my top 8 and you may hate me for putting you here, MiCaela. I don't care anymore. You deserve much greater care than I ever gave you. A care I think only I can really understand anymore. Because I turned on you in the worst way. And now that I've seen the worst I can do... I can know the best I can do. Now that I know why I turned, MiCaela, you never have to see my back again. I won't turn away again, whether you want me to just leave you alone or not. I won't run. I'm tired of running.

I have met some ignorant and fake people in my life, but the list below is the list of the worst ones:
    Kailey M. Pam W. All the parents who've judged me by age and hated me for who I am and the fact that my family's been through more than yours.

Have a nice fuckin' day.

IM me on AIM at R3ady2Br3ak.


"Me: 3) if chickens were goats, i'd bang em fast
Lauren: 3 have a blast
Me: just the name chicken doesnt strike my weewee with rigger-mortis like the word goat does
Lauren: omg
Me: maybe i could think of a goat while screwing the chicken, eh?
Lauren: you are such a loser"
-LET THE JEALOUSY BEGIN! lol

Special Notice:


I am looking for new bands to listen to, but I don't really know where to start. Here's the frame I'm looking at:

Wants:
Rock
(Light or Hardcore)(Famous or Underground/Garage/Local) Punk
Emo
Ska
(Light or Hardcore) Metal
Power Pop (The All-American Rejects are an example)
Acoustic
Classic
Screamo
Alternative
Techno (NOT MOBY STYLE! JUST SOUNDS WITH NO VOICE!)
Indie
Don't Wants:
Rap
Hip-hop
R&B
Pop (as in Britney Spears)
Classical (well... some is okay I guess.)
Country
Bluegrass
Christian (Or any religious music)
Gospel
Foreign
I ALSO DO NOT WANT BANDS LIKE SLIPKNOT, KORN, OR METALLICA WHO SHOULD HAVE DIED OUT BEFORE THEY SOLD OUT!
This is your only chance to influence me. I'm willing to try bands I didn't like before. Don't call me a poser if I like them. I'm running out of bands and I just want some bands to adhere to. SO I WILL NOT NECESSARILY LIKE ALL OF THE ONES YOU SUGGEST! Also note that I am willing to retry bands I have previously hated (Fallout Boy, Hawthorne Heights, etc). Thank you.
~Eric~
End Special Notice
This present's to you
This present's from me
It can only have two
It cannot have three
This kiss is to you
This kiss is from me
And when I feel blue
You're all that I see
I love you for you
Please don't leave me
And this feeling grew
It's all I can be
And through and through
You're everything in me
Your kiss is like dew
On a fresh autumn leaf
This feeling's to you
This feeling's from me
This present's to you
This present's from me
This kiss is to you
This kiss is from me
I only think about you
You're everything to me.
E Exciting
R Refreshing
I Insane
C Charming
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Self - Control - 77%
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Faerie


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Dragon


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WereWolf


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Demon


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Virgin


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IM me at R3ady2Br3ak. You can find out more about me there than you can here. You probably have different questions that what I want to tell you. You can ask me anything you want on AIM. Personal or not, I don't care.

My Interests

The night, autumn leaves, the scent of a fireplace fire, stars, being with someone in the rain, laughing, jokes, smiles, eyes, love in and of itself (NOT LUST), emo-ness or heart-on-sleeve, movies, music, drawing, writing, computer, phone, paintballing, reading, soccer, some other sports, hanging out, talking, and biking. I especially love moonlight.

I'd like to meet:

Someone to hold me. Someone to hold. Someone who isn't afraid to cry to me. Or get angry with me, should the occasion arise. Someone who is them with me. Someone who can love me for me and let me love them for them. I don't want to have to make someone feel like they have to be something for me. And I never wanna have to feel like I have to be something for them. The only thing we should have to be is in love. And her:

I'd like to meet anyone I can. I don't want anyone to feel lonely, hopeless, or abandoned. I'll be your friend. I'll be whatever I can be for you. But I will never let you make me your enemy. Never.

Music:

Breaking Benjamin
Jack's Mannequin
Faded Promises
Anberlin
Finch
Something Corporate
Fenix TX
Denver Harbor
Hidden In Plain View
Hellogoodbye
Halifax
Mae
Senses Fail
Underoath
Hoobastank
Bon Jovi
Aerosmith
Daphne Loves Derby
One Trick Pony
Stanhope
Superkirk
The Early November
Queens Of The Stone Age
Septembre
Unwritten Law
Track Record
Red Hot Chili Peppers
Dashboard Confessional
12 Stones
The All-American Rejects
Chevelle
Cold
Creed
I Can Make A Mess Like Nobody's Business
An Angel
I Am The Avalanche
Allister
Steel Train
The Academy
The Format
The Used
Head Automatica
Coldplay
Five For Fighting
Jimmy Eat World
Midtown
Movielife
RX Bandits
Taking Back Sunday
Thursday
Thrice
Socratic
Story Of The Year
The Starting Line
Foofighters
Wall Flowers
The Vines
The Hives
Hooty And The Blowfish
Stone Temple Pilots
Googoo Dolls
Matchbox 20
Dave Matthews
Dave Matthews Band

Movies:

I love a good movie. Haven't really found a scary movie that actually scares me, though. I like James Bond, Vanilla Sky, Freddy Got Fingered, SAW, Stealing Harvard, Eurotrip, The Exorcism of Emily Rose(really creepy), Spider-man, The Rock, Saving Private Ryan, etc etc. I'm pretty easy to watch a movie with. People can talk to me during a movie or I can keep quiet. And I'm not picky about my movies. I watch a movie and 90% of the time, the company I watch it with is enough to make the time enjoyable.

Television:

Not really a television person. My favorite shows, though, are

ROME(!)

Family Guy, Aqua Teen Hunger Force, Robot Chicken, Brak Show, Premium Blend, and a few others. I'm not real picky.

Books:

Harry Potter, Halo (shut up before you say anything), A Gathering Of Spies, Dale Brown's Dreamland military series, The Stranger, Romeo and Juliet, Shadow People, The Bourne Identity/Supremecy/Legacy, The Chronicles of Narnia, The Ender series (Ender's Game, Ender's Shadow, etc), a lot of Robert Ludlum, and a lot of others. I read a lot. I have two bookshelves for me. :D

Heroes:

I don't have a hero and I never want one. People are who they are and we never need to say they're a hero when Time will remember them.

My Blog

The Old Die Young

I knew a girl once in my life/Who grew to pain and sacrifice/Who grew up here in her white house/With sun hats, dresses, and a billowy blouse/You'd never expect a young girl's laugh/To be something sh...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Thu, 01 Dec 2005 02:27:00 PST

Proposition 2. Gay Marriage. Please read...

Before reading this, please understand that I am not a political person. However, I do believe in the right to individuality. This right is now being threatened.       Proposition 2, fo...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Sat, 12 Nov 2005 06:24:00 PST

Ocean Eyes (song)

I sit here by the fireplace/Searching for my soul/Finding everything I'm worth/And find my soul is sold/To you I fear/The highest bidder/A lifetime on a high/I breathe you out/You breathe me in/And th...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Fri, 28 Oct 2005 07:06:00 PST

Superstitious (poem)

The truth is I'm down and outMy blood is finally running coldMy mind is lost, my heart is numbAnd my soul is soldI've waited all these years for thisI've waited and I am stillI've waited under rain an...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Thu, 27 Oct 2005 05:55:00 PST

Flawless (song)

Feeling like a winter rose/In a full twilight bloom/Soaking in the warmth of your hand/And the light from the moon/I'll lay you down to rest tonight/I'll gently close your eyes/I'll softly put my lips...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:50:00 PST

Are You Happy (poem)

Did I ever tell you how pretty you are?How you're in my sky; you are my star?Did I ever take the time to stop with you?I don't believe I have but now I really want toDid I ever tell you how happy you ...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Mon, 17 Oct 2005 07:18:00 PST

From Feathers To Rocks (song)

I'm rummaging through all my stuff/Old memories and new/Old memories of times I spent/The times I spent with you/They're nonexistant in this box/I'm not looking for it here/I'm going through my mind a...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Sat, 15 Oct 2005 10:43:00 PST

The Twilight Twister (song)

Before I begin, let me make a very rare pre-commentary. This is one of the few songs where the title is a dominant theme. I don't know why. I just like what I said in the chorus and I wanted it as a t...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Thu, 06 Oct 2005 06:38:00 PST

Emergency Surgery (song)

So I'm standing at the edge/They say you can't fall off/But what do they know/It's too late to stop/As I look over the edge/I hear them all around me/Telling me I'm not good enough/Who I have to be/Bu...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Tue, 27 Sep 2005 08:05:00 PST

I Love You To Death (song)

It's coming up on the full moon/I wait in cold, dead silence/I stalk my prey; it's time to fight/And now it gets real violent/And as I creep I watch my step/And I don't make a sound/I keep my ears per...
Posted by A Heart of Cold on Sun, 25 Sep 2005 10:02:00 PST