---DeSiReE--- - ProfilesArchive

About Me

hmm this is where im supposed to tell you something about myself... so i guess i could enlighten you for a moment. i am a small town girl and probably always will be i appreciate the closeness that it can bring i dont think i realized this until now though in raising my own child. thats right i said my own child i have a son that i love more than anything in this world he has taught me more about myself and life than anyone person or thing.growing up i couldnt wait to get out of here to just free myself but now im glad i stuck around. there are many things i value in my life and many things i strive on a daily basis to overcome my FAMILY is the top of the list i dont know what i would do with out them each member plays a role in who i am today they are my lifeline. as for me i guess what you see is what you get i dont pretend to be someone im not i am not afraid to speak my mind to stick up for what is right and wrong i dont believe that everything is black and white there is a gray area..i will trust you till you break it but fair warning i am skeptical of everyone at first just please dont ever cross me the wrong way i would hate for you to see my evil side. i pride myself on making the best of what i have. i love being outside well when its warm i do ill try just about anything at least once i embarrass easy i could appear to be shy until i get to know you then be careful when you strike conversation make sure you have time or i could make anyone late i love to talk to laugh and to listen i enjoy meaningful conversation-i analyze everything in a good way and a bad way at times.i am loyal i am honest i have realized that you may have many friends over the years but in the long run you will end up with only a handful of "good" friends. ..hmm im domesticated i dont mind taking care of a house or a family it provides a sense of responsibility and a feeling of being needed..i am full of emotion i could go from sad to mad to happy in about 2.5 seconds i dress to my mood so on one day i could resemble a long lost hippie to the next day some kind of metal head punk..im sarcastic and cocky but im just playing most of the time i dont regret, life is too short for that we make mistakes or "bad choices" to learn from them to grow and to better ourselves you cant go back and change anything so except it, yourself, and others.. so yah this is me take me as i am

My Interests

what am i interested in.....photography, poetry and or writing of any kind, typing in all lower case letters all the time, art of just about any form, the night sky,sunsets, cars believe it or not im willing to get dirty just like the boys(anyone need their oil changed)haha, a childs mind and the things that come out of their mouths, partying when it apllies, nature, long walks down a country road at night(nothing better), my pets holy shit they could amuse someone for hours, family, anything i didnt already know or havent already done, my boyfriend hes my favorite right next to my little boy tim

I'd like to meet:

...........no one in particular
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Your Deadly Sins
Envy: 40%
Sloth: 40%
Lust: 20%
Gluttony: 0%
Greed: 0%
Pride: 0%
Wrath: 0%
Chance You'll Go to Hell: 14%
You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic. How Sinful Are You?Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I cannot accept, and the wisdom to hide the bodies of those people I had to kill today because they pissed me off.

Music:

deftones, taproot, rage, nirvana, candelbox, everclear,nin, toad to wet sprocket, entropy, weezer, live, fiona apple, lacuna coil, jimi hendrix, beatles, stevie ray vaughn, the steve miller band, lynard skynard,stp, korn, pearl jam,velvet r, sevendust, janis joplin, the allman brothers, slipknot, tool, pink floyd, led zeplin, joe cocker, seether, veruca salt, tommy lee, ozzy, acdc, kiss, rolling stones, i think i like a little bit of everything
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Movies:

the wedding singer, big daddy well any adam sandler movie just about, the jacket, house of a thousand corpes, dont say a word, upside of anger, three men and a baby(old time fav)saw I&II, fredy vs. jason, napoleon dynamite, cry baby, pirates of the caribbean, fear&loathing in las vegas, dawn of the dead, trainspotting, dazed&confused, tommy boy, the ring, disney movies in gerneral....

Television:

dont watch a whole hell of alot my child and boyfriend rule that domain

Books:

its been awhile...i used to love to read..give me a cookbook and i can follow a recipe till the end

Heroes:

my dad and my mom for putting up with him

My Blog

To lift this brick from my chest..

I take a moment to remember, i take a deep breath, as the pain renews and the sentence becomes familiar a lifetime without, no words could express the vivid details i possess the mindless shame ...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Sat, 17 Feb 2007 03:28:00 PST

Incapable thoughts

At your pace, Slowly you will erase her need, Her dreamOn him you could have leaned,Only to foresee shattered dreamsCold and dead to her Every meaning, Her existence is deceived, His selfish wantsWhat...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 09:24:00 PST

Ive been tagged

7 random facts about me...thanks missy for involving me in this one!!!1. I have a half brother and half sister from my dad2. I love to bake even though i never find time3. I know how to sew and actual...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Sun, 07 Jan 2007 11:03:00 PST

hiding

to sit and ponder i find myself falling every so freely i escape into the darkness that surrounds your heart as i lay awake bleeding from the inside out i fall into the abyss the blackened hollowed fo...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Wed, 08 Nov 2006 12:45:00 PST

My silence

As I lay here with broken bones and decapitated memories I resemble my fate only to erase my destiny.......
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 10:49:00 PST

salt on open sores

As I throw my frustrations downMy fists my heart laying on the groundShuddering pumping with fearNegligence turmoil..infect my thoughtsMotionless at what costCraving explanationsUnexpected moment or s...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Sun, 10 Sep 2006 10:59:00 PST

deadbeat dad

i dont even know where to start, i dont even know how to explain my frustrations...im so fucking tired of deadbeat dads..you know the ones that think they deserve a fucking medal or something cause in...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Wed, 19 Jul 2006 05:56:00 PST

firecracker

the fourth of july...I LOVE FIREWORKS ...i thought about my dad today ...the fourth was always such a big deal when i was i kid my dad would spend most of his paycheck that week on fireworks he became...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Mon, 03 Jul 2006 05:03:00 PST

just a thought

§ Can You see life through my cold dead eyes.. Can you take a minute from your blissful tear free existence and place your soul in my emptiness.. Have you ever lost a love or fell apon a broken memory...
Posted by ---DeSiReE--- on Tue, 27 Jun 2006 08:31:00 PST