About Me
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Deceitful Wishes!....... Deceitful.., Full of, or characterized by, deceit; serving to mislead or insnare; trickish; fraudulent; cheating; insincere.Harboring foul deceitful thoughts.Wishes!.., An expression of a desire, longing, or strong inclination; a petition. If you are human and over the age of 2, you have wished some sort of ill fate upon someone. I've written a lot trying to get away from those evil thoughts, mental anguish and emotional trauma that so desperately desire release. Some have come directly from them or things I've done to myself to avoid allowing them to speak. Or at least calm the screaming. To me, this background image shows an abused little girl that got her wish. Too many are not so lucky. They suffer through horrible things for years and through no fault of their own, grow to spill their sorrow upon those who come to love them. The chain grows as the pain speads. Love is a very beautiful thing, but when lost or tarnished can violently change face and become bitter and horrid. Life is truly an emotional roller coaster. We frolic through the highs as though living a fairy tale, but for many of us, the lows bring changes in behavior that we can't, or choose not to control, that can have more devastating consequences. We begin to self destruct and submerge into the depths of intoxication, self pity, and hatred. Cursing others and rapidly digging our grave. Only to hover over it and wish we could toss someone else in it. We ultimately control our own fate. Choice is ours. The music here deals with many of the choices I've made. Some of my better choices were to create a piece of music, rather then run with a bad one. Some that nurture an incredible urge to embrace the insanity that wants to develope and grant my own Deceitful Wishes. Others invite shame, or help dig that grave. My wish list would be very long if I had kept track. Karma kept track of a few and they were graciously granted. I've witnessed Karma's wrath and would take some of them back if I could. I have one or two still being tossed around between the voices in my head, in trying to remove my link in the chain I spoke of earlier. But I know if they came true, I would feel even worse!
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Awwhh! The chemicals between us!
Reborn to avenge
Refresh the page if this piece of shit isn't working!........More........I've been playing guitar and bass for over 25 years. Drums here and there along the way. And I've been playing around with the keyboard for about 8 years. Thinking about that, I should be a lot better at it then I am. I use it more for textures and little things. I've studied theory on and off over the years as well and I can proudly say I know quite a bit. I've been writing and home recording since about 1989, when all we had was a 4 track and a couple mics. You kids are spoiled and have it good. I still have a box full of those tapes. Maybe at some point I'll dig them out. I've been in and out of many bands throughout the years and played with some very good musicians. Western Waste 88 to 91, with Dave Moore of Re-ignition, the boys in Skinlab's new project. Synagog with Mike Phillips, Kevin Lee and Tim Kronyak of Deliverance in 94, Nuisance also with Kevin, and Frank Perez of Crematorium, 89, 90. Psychodrama, 93, 94 also with Frank. Project Damaged 94, 95. All of that was in California. Frank and I left Cali in October just heading east to see what was out there, hoping to eventually land in Florida, then maybe Yew York. We ended up in Dallas just after New Years in 97. Kind of got stuck. Dallas was not for a couple of crazy west coast boys. Missing the west coast, Frank and I parted ways in October. He went back to L.A. and I went north to Seattle. In early 98 I formed Librium with ex Reverend drummer Todd Stotz, 98 to 2000. At times I was juggling two. At that time and in that scene in California, we all hung out all the time and there was a revolving door that we took turns entering and exiting. Awesome musicians and good times. I've been close to making something real of it a few times. Those opportunities got blown either by me or someone else involved. I gave up on on the whole band thing at the beginning of 2000. One that I blew. The party got the best of me and I had to pull back. After my departure, and the same of our vocalist, from Librium, David Wayne, Mr. Metal Church himself, (R. I. P. my brutha) climbed onboard and out of the ashes of Librium, Reverend was reborn. Many of these bands never got to record anything more then a few rehearsals and cheap 4 track shit and most of them have been lost. I went back to recording on my own in 2000 and have been ever since. With the exception of working with, then love of my life and still best of friends, Miss Danae Rosen, from 2001 to 2004. She is featured on a couple right here. My work is a slow process doing it all alone. I have some really cool stuff still lingering, unfinished in files on my computer, and some still trying get me to pull them out of my head. I'm not going to stop. I took about a 6 month break, not even touching my instruments. I almost gave it ALL up. It's fucked up, things a woman can do to us. I have a management deal in the works now, and, if all goes well, I will be in Houston stepping into a very cool situation there very shortly...... That's it in short!
