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mattal

I am here for Friends

About Me

-love sick for Jesus
-amazed at the extent of grace
-grateful to be chosen by Him
-joyous for revelation
-stoked to know that He loves me even when i blow it
-eager to see Him
-excited to die

-in love with the strongest, most caring, and understanding girl i could ever find
-in awe at how badly i could treat the two people i love most and how quick they are to forget it
-disgusted with the human race
-indignant of respect
-UNDESERVING

My Interests

jesus. good music. death. poetry. the beach. driving. guitar. my relationship.

I'd like to meet:

zack de la rocha
anyone interested in jesus

Music:

phil wickham
despised icon
between the buried and me
sleeping giant
impending doom
animosity
sage francis
ion dissonance
aesop rock
skinless
GEORGE BOWKER

Movies:

SE7EN
the passion
eternal sunshine
punch drunk love
tigerland
a few good men
american history x
a river runs through it

Television:

simpsons

Books:

ecclesiastes
psalms
proverbs
isaiah
daniel
revelation
romans
ephesians
song of songs

the diving bell and the butterfly
here, bullet
, said the shotgun to the head

Heroes:

jesus.
my parents.
my girlfriend
anyone who has ever been picked on, or laughed at.
my deepest admiration goes to the few who are able to receive such torment and brush it off.
my deepest apologies go to those who have received this treatment from me.
forgive us, we know not what we do.

My Blog

let me in

Looking for answers while trapped in a vacancy is my recipe for insanity.  Its enough to drive a man to his edge.  Define irony.  Realization that I would never hurt you, but if it mea...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

28:06:42:12

I looked in the mirror yesterday To face myself What I saw wasnt pleasing Wasnt what I expected I wonder& Whats on the other side? Whats the big secret? I looked through the mirror today T...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

dont just lift the fallen

This is my time Force-fed until now This way of life This vengeance Im ready for a fresh start Im surprised its gone this far With no stand taken Including my own My own empty shoes But th...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

ear to ear

Shut it down & smile Nobody understands They never have They never will This is life Dont worry Dont let them worry They dont care Smile&hide it all and smile Shut it down & smile
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

empty cans rattle most

With nothing left but pain You ask yourself What is left for me? Sweat drips from your hand Onto the object it possesses You cant help but wonder Whether or not someone forgot to pray for you l...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Job had a better life

All the teachings & all the lessons Leading down the road The path of bullshit I have breaking news: This wont pass The lights are going to stay out And the rain is going to continue Its abou...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

youre no good to me dead

Ive heard it all before Ill live that life no more (I've) Shaken the empty hand (Ive) Heard the silent speech (Ive) Loved the soulless life But those days are dead No more will I watch the f...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

watch them dance

Burn me down for the Hell of it Watch what evil trys to escape Watch the flames dance in the shadows It would be so beautiful, I must admit I would pay to see it The mirage of colors The tin...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

see no evil, hear no evil, dont speak with blood in your mouth

He reminded me of Charlie Chaplin But he had a better suit All I could hear was the siren All I saw was the crimson flash Every second came the flash Im glad in a way though I wont have to hea...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

home is where the head lies

looking through the puddle beneath my feet at a sorrow filled reflection i question motives the reasons i call this gutter my home threads of black engulfing the salty liquid my hands encased ...
Posted by mattal on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST