.Samantha [ in Greece until July 3rd!]

Samantha
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"Jealousy is simply and clearly the fear that you do not have value.
Jealousy scans for evidence to prove the point - that others will be preferred and rewarded more than you.
There is only one alternative - self-value.
If you cannot love yourself, you will not believe that you are loved.
You will always think it's a mistake or luck.
Take your eyes off others and turn the scanner within.
Find the seeds of your jealousy, clear the old voices and experiences.
Put all the energy into building your personal and emotional security.
Then you will be the one others envy, and you can remember the pain and reach out to them."
~Jennifer James
This is what I know:
I am a paradox. I change my mind at the drop of a hat, I contradict myself almost daily. Ideas will pop into my mind at any given time and I'll take them and head in whatever direction they lead me. When I can't sleep at night, I write. I write new philosophies about my life, relationships, religion and anything else that is running through my mind. I'm not just one of those useless pretty girls who can't hold a conversation; if you get me going I'll talk your ear off about things you would have never thought I knew about. Don't make assumptions about me, because I promise I'm not anything you'd expect.
I have the most AMAZING friends possible. There are people in my life that stick up for me and who are there for me at all times, regardless of whether we are best friends or not. I couldn't be happier with the person I am becoming. It's no secret that I am loved and cherished by those I surround myself with. I'm someone who is easy to adore; the people that TRULY know me have nothing but nice things to say about me, and they have no problem letting others know that. If you sat down and had a conversation with me, within 20 minutes you'd be able to tell that I'm one of the most genuine and real girls you've ever met.
People tend to get attached to me very easily, which can be a good thing, or a bad thing. I'm real, I'm honest, I'm blunt and I don't hide my feelings. I don't apologize for the way I feel about anything, because they are my feelings and they're not subject to your approval. I'm not afraid to put things out in the open. I'm not afraid to tell the truth. I'm not afraid to truly be myself. I'm not just a friend, but a BEST friend. I'm not a backstabber, a liar, a deceiver or a cheater. I'm loyal and people can always count on me. I don't let people down, they let ME down.
I am not insecure. I am not jealous. I am not controlling. I am not self conscious. I have high self esteem. I am confident. And most of all, I have respect for myself. A lot of people think or pretend that they have these qualities, but they don't..And the truth is they should. Don't let others bring you down, or make you feel less valuable than you know you are. I know my worth, and know what I deserve. You have to learn to love and respect yourself before anyone else will. If you believe in yourself, others will too. I don't let people push me around anymore. I have morals and values, qualities in which people rarely possess.. I'm one of the most open-minded people you'll ever meet. I'm fascinated by science, history, religion, political views, philosophy and psychology. I'll talk for hours about any of those subjects. I'm the girl that guys want to hang out with because I'm not a dramatic bitch. I can just kick it and be 'one of the guys.' I'm not super high-maintenance and I'm not a complainer. I'm always down to hangout and have a good time.
I believe in fate. I believe things happen for a reason. The people you meet, the places you go, the things you do; there is meaning to all of it. When things come to an end it starts the beginning of something new. Remember this: life goes on! What seems like the end of the world really isn't. It's only a matter of time before things settle and figure themselves out. You see things for how they really are, how they should be, and how they need to be. Stop taking life so seriously. Live for the moment. Be yourself when everyone else is afraid to. Make the most out of every situation. True friends are rare, so hold on to them.
Pitty to the man whose pleasure is dependent on the permission of others.
Don't be afraid of rejection, it's better knowing than wondering what could have happened. Trust me. We all have to take big risks for the things we love.
Be comfortable in your own skin
I'm extremely driven, dedicated, passionate, ambitious and determined. I set goals for myself and make the effort to achieve them. I know what I want from life, where I'm headed and I have a pretty good plan on how to get there. I'm majoring in Biology and possibly minoring in business. I'm going to be in college for another 11 years AT LEAST. I'm going to be an Orthodontist. I'm going to be someone that makes a positive impact on the lives of others. My career and education are very important to me. I don't want to have to rely on anyone else for money, I want to be wealthy on my own.
I know what I deserve and how I should be treated. Respect is something I take very seriously. If you don't have respect for yourself and others, you won't get very far in life. I'm very strong and independent. I don't depend on anyone else for my happiness. I am very sarcastic and cynical. I have a dark/vulgar/sexual innuendo filled sense of humor. I pride myself on the fact that I have a good sense of humor. I'm funny and I'm good at making people laugh. I'm an excellent listener, someone who is always there when my friends need me. I don't judge them or offer them unwanted advice. I tell them what they NEED to hear, which is not always what they want to hear.
People love to try and bring me down. In the past I've let them succeed; but that has changed. Talking shit isn't going to make you any prettier or any better of a person, which is unfortunate for some people. Life goes on. People only bring you down if you let them, and like I said, I'm not that girl anymore.
Everything you've heard about me is true; the lies you tell your friends, the shit you read on myspace, the assumptions made, all the 'he said, she said' bullshit. We believe what we want to believe no matter what anyways. We make our own truths, and live our own lies. I'm too nice, too considerate, too loyal and I get fucked over because of it. I realize that everyone makes mistakes, but if it happens more than once it's no longer a mistake, it is intentional. I'm not very trusting, but then again we live in a world full of cheaters and backstabbers, so you can't really blame me.
Dare to be different.
Dare to make a change.
Dare to accept the challenge.
Dare to succeed in a world where mediocracy is widely accepted because it's the easy way out.
BE SOMETHING. BE ANYTHING. JUST TRY.The past is in the past, and the future is SO much more promising. Over the years friendships have been lost, and other friendships have been strengthened. I have learned who to trust, who to count on, and who is worthy of the term “best friend.” The world may be full of cruel, disrespectful people, but there are enough kind, caring people in my life to bring me all the happiness I need. I have much more to smile about than to frown about.. It just took me a little while to figure that out...