Hi. I'm Dean.Things I dig:•The Crow. A lot. Probably an unhealthy amount. But oh well.•Music. Seems cliche, but I loves it.•Goth. I'm not a big goth myself, but it's so pretty.•Guitar Hero. I'm not that good yet though.•Piercings. Yeah.•Tattoos. Woo!•...and a lot of other things that just aren't crossing my mind right now.[Because we do not know when we will die,
we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well
and yet everything happens only a certain number of times,
and a very small number, really.
How many more times will you remember a certain
afternoon of your childhood? An afternoon that is so
deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive
of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more.
Perhaps not even that. How many more times will you
watch the full moon rise? Perhaps twenty.
And yet it all seems limitless.Brandon Lee]Contact Tables..START BZOINK.COM SURVEY CODE
Random Thoughts For A Troubled Youth
name a song from your childhood: In The House Of Stone And Light by Martin Page
what outfit would you wear for the rest of your life?: Jeans and a Band Shirt
redheads, brunettes, or blondes?: Redheads like you wouldn't believe
best advice ever given: Duck!
last movie that made you cry: The Crow
last song that made you cry: None
last person to make you cry: I dunno
what brightens up your day?: I dunno..... little things
biggest pet peeve?: When people repeat themselves
totally in love with someone?: Nope
do they know?: No
if no, would you ever tell them?: When the time comes
worst trend?: Just about any
what city do you hate the most?: Oelwein, Iowa
favorite solo artist?: Right now, it's Chris McGraw
favorite band?: Lyzanxia
band/artist that you love but wouldn't tell anyone: Kinda defeats the purpose of asking, doesn't it?
what was your last dream about?: Peeing
how many pairs of shoes do you own?: Two
which is your favorite?: My paint covered ones that have a hole in the bottom
would you date someone on personality alone?: No
would you date someone on looks alone?: No
biggest obsession?: I dunno...... music
do you do any activities that none of your friends do?: Stay sober
if yes, what is it?: Staying sober
city life or country life?: Both are nice
ford or chevy?: It truly doesn't matter. A ride's a ride
would you ever kill someone?: Maybe
ever met someone over the internet?: Yeah
when was the last time you rode a bike?: Two summers ago
what is your dream car?: A hearse
dream house?: Dunno
are you keeping a secret right now?: No, I'm posting all of my secrets on myspace as we speak
favorite place to travel to: Milwaukee and New York
do you like Bob Dylan?: Yeah
favorite material posession: Computer
favorite non-material posession: Love
would you date a good friend?: Eh........ I dunno
would you date a total stranger?: It's possible
simpsons or futurama?: Simpsons
what news channel do you watch?: ABC
favorite drink: Coke
organized or a mess?: Little of both
something weird about your hometown: There's no Fourth street
something nobody knows about you: I'm pregnant
religion?: Christian
turn ons?: Red hair, pale, little chunk, glasses, vampire/gothic...... I think I'm getting wood. Dammit
turn offs?: Penises
driver or passengers seat?: Passenger
what song do you want playing at your funeral?: I have a cd already made..... and I'm thinking of burning Volume two pretty soon
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Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislike unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. (This actually suits me pretty well.)..START BZOINK.COM SURVEY CODE
Inside Your Mind. 184 unique Q's.
Inside Your Mind.
What do you like about yourself?: My hair. And my piercings
What do you dislike about yourself?: I dunno.... I can be a fuck-up sometimes
Do you have any special talents?: I can fit nine quarters in my nose
What are some of your hobbies?: I dunno
Do you accept your anger?: Not really, no
Do you accept your sadness?: Yup
Do you accept your worry?: Usually
Do you accept your confusion?: Yeah
Do you accept your anxiety?: Sure
Do you accept your fear?: Sometimes
What is difficult for you?: Having babies
About You.
Favorite color?: Black
Favorite song?: There's too many
Favorite band?: Lyzanxia
Favorite movie?: The Crow
Favorite teacher (past or present)?: Mr. Chad
Favorite book?: The Outsiders or Hatchet
Favorite thing to do?: Get everyone together and hang at Lisa's
Second favorite thing to do?: Kill time
Favorite website?: myspace or wikipedia
Do you like your looks?: For the most part
Do you like your body?: Meh
Describe yourself.
Length of hair?: Bangs are down to my chin, the back part is past my neck, but not to my shoulders
Color of hair?: Red, faded black, blonde underneath
Color of eyes?: Blue-ish grey
Height?: 5'9"
Are you athletic?: Nope
Are you healthy?: Nope
What emotion do you hide?: Lots
Do you think you’re smart?: Not really
Are you religious?: In my own way
What is your religion?: Christian
Do you believe in “God�: Yes
What do you want to “be†when you “grow up�: I dunno yet. What's with the quotation marks?
Do you get along well with people?: I pretend to, but I really dislike most people
Are you fun?: I define fun
What makes a “good person†just that?: Not being a fucking prick
How would others describe you?: I dunno, I don't really care
Friendship.
How would you describe a “true friend�: I dunno.......
Who is your best friend?: Fro, Lisa, Joe, Glor, all them good people
How did you meet?: All of them except Glor: school. Glor: She popped out of my mom
Ever meet anyone who was just like you?: Not just like, but Glor and Lisa are pretty close
How do your friends help you to be more yourself?: They don't try to change me
Relationships.
Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend?: Nope
If so, describe him or her.: Don't have one
What qualities do you look for in a significant other?: Sarcasm, music-lover, different than most others
Ever crush on someone who only liked you as a friend?: Yup
Ever have someone crush on you and you only liked them as a friend?: Yeah
In a relationship…
What makes you jealous?: When they talk about how much they fucked their ex..... *gets angry*
What makes you angry?: That, too. And when they bitch constantly about nothing
What makes you happy?: When all is good
What hurts your feelings?: When they critisize you when you're trying to help
What makes you love them more?: When all turns from good to better
What have you learned about love?: Pace yourself
Describe your first relationship.: Stole her from Fro, she carved my name into her arm, so I told her I was gay. Yeah..... it's funny now.
What benefits come from being single?: You can do whatever you please without having to tell anyone else, shit like that
What benefits come from being with someone?: Someone to be with
Family.
What siblings do you have?: Glor and Neil
Are you a first, last, middle or only child?: Middle
If you could change this, how would it be different?: I wouldn't
Do you get along with your siblings?: Yeah
What do you like best about your brother(s)?: It's fuckin Neil! Anyone who knows him knows he kicks ass
What do you like best about your sister(s)?: It's fuckin Glor! Anyone who knows her knows she kicks ass
What do you like best about being an only child?: I'm not....
Have you ever been embarrassed by family?: Yes. Wow
Do/did your parent(s) try to make you think like them?: Not really, no. They're good like that
Tough shit.
What difficult experiences have you been through?: Heartbreak.....
Has anyone close to you died?: No
How did you find out?: Didn't
Did you get to say good-bye?: It didn't happen
Have you known anyone your age die?: No
Have you ever been really sick?: I guess?
Has anyone close to you ever been really sick?: Yeah
Do you have a drug problem?: No
Do you have a drinking problem?: No. I don't touch the stuff
Are your parents divorced?: Nope
Are/were your parents fighting constantly?: No
Do you let yourself feel emotional pain or make it go away?: Both
Do you believe pain makes us grow?: I guess
How do you feel when you see a homeless person?: I dunno, I don't see many
Have you ever witnessed extreme suffering?: Witness? I've been through it. I sat through an entire System of a Down concert...
Do you ever wonder why there is so much suffering?: Cause the world sucks ass
What kinds of things cause you pain?: Sharp things
What is the biggest mistake you’ve ever made?: Ha. Ask me if you really want to know
Have you ever thought about suicide?: Once or twice
What advice would you give to someone who is suicidal?: Don't do it. I dunno
Learning lessons.
Do you think people learn from their mistakes?: Obviously not
Do you think people can learn the “easy way�: Depends on what it is
Have you ever learned the “easy way�: I guess
Have you ever learned the “hard way�: Yeah
What is the most difficult lesson you’ve learned?: Your friends are usually right
Do you believe things happen for a reason?: Sorta
Have you learned that nobody is perfect?: Really?!?!? And here I thought I was.... damn
What imperfections about yourself do you accept?: Well....... I don't have laser vision...
Do you try to look at both sides of a situation?: I try to
Follow your dreams.
“Follow your bliss.â€: Don't tell me what to do
What does this quote mean to you?: Oh. I dunno
What is your bliss?: I dunno
Do you have a dream?: Not really
What is your number-one goal?: I don't have one
“Do what you love and the money will follow." True?: No. If you love drinking paint, you'll die before you're paid
If your dream was guaranteed to happen, what would it be?: I don't fucking know! Shut up!
Would you answer differently if the guarantee wasn’t there?: Grrrr....
Do you believe in yourself?: Sometimes
Growing up.
How old are you?: 17. Almost 18
How old do you feel?: 17-ish
What do you think is the perfect age?: Four
How old do you think people should be before they…
Get a job:: 15
Cook for themselves:: Whenever
Set their own bedtimes:: 13
Go away with their friends:: 15
Do their own laundry:: Whenever...... I still don't
Have a boyfriend or girlfriend:: 14-ish
Date:: 14
Kiss:: 14
Stay out past midnight:: 14
Stay out as late as they want:: 16
Have their own phone:: Phones are evil
Drive:: 14
Travel alone:: 16
Drink:: Never
Go to clubs:: 17
Get married:: 23-24
Have children:: 24-25
Vote:: 18
Go out by themselves:: 15
At what age do you think a person is mature?: It varies
Do you think maturity is a good thing?: Sometimes
Do you think all adults are mature?: Fuck no
Do you think a difficult life makes a person grow up faster?: Not really, no
What IS “grown up�: I don't know
Are/were you scared or excited about growing up?: No
Do you think of yourself as grown up?: Sorta
Do you want to be considered grown up?: No
What do you think is the secret to happiness?: Not getting hit by a train. .....unless you're into that kind of thing
Random.
What kind of toothpaste do you use?: Aquafresh
Do you always brush your teeth before visiting a dentist?: Yes
How many cavities do/did you have?: Four
Ever wear braces or a retainer?: Nope
How often do you shower?: Every day
Do you prefer any shampoo brand?: Garnier
What is the weirdest band name you know of?: I dunno
What are your favorite dog breeds?: Hot
Who was your childhood best friend?: Shea or Fro
Are you still friends with them today?: Shea, no. Fro, yes
How many computers are in your home?: One
Do you write with your left or right hand?: Right
Do you take any vitamins?: Yeah
How many doors are in your home?: 14
How many windows are there?: A lot. I don't know
Do you have a collection of change somewhere?: Yeah
Would you go to jail for a good cause?: Maybe
Do you own a bookshelf?: Yeah
Are there any objects hanging from your room ceiling?: Yup
Are you okay with getting your blood drawn?: It's never happened. They wouldn't let me cause I was recently pierced
How about getting shots?: Eh
Do you like getting your picture taken?: Meh
Opinions.
Abortion?: Neutral
Birth control pill?: It's good
Casual sex?: No
Illegal immigration?: Bad
Death sentence?: Neutral
Afterlife?: It's there
Ghosts?: Yup
Legalizing marijuana?: Why the hell not?
Gun control?: Meh. I'm not a gun person, but I'm not gonna tell someone with lots of guns not to have them
Pornography?: Woo!
UFO conspiracy?: Oh settle down
Natural VS. Artificial medicine?: Whatever works
War in Middle East?: Bad
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You are 53% Aries
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You are 47% Taurus
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You are 20% Gemini
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You are 27% Cancer
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You are 40% Leo
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You are 40% Virgo
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You are 40% Libra
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You are 40% Scorpio
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You are 60% Pisces
How Pisces Are You?We walk the narrow path
Beneath the smoking skies
Sometimes you can barely tell the difference
Between the darkness and light
Do we have faith
in what we believe?
The truest test is when we can not
We can not see
I hear pounding feet
In the streets bellow
And the women cried
And the children moaned
There's something wrong
It's hard to believe that love will prevail
Oh-
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever
And though the night seems long
Your tears won't fall forever
Oh-
When I'm lonely
I lay awake at night
And I wish you were here
I miss you
Can you tell me-
Is there something more to believe in
Or is this all there is?
And the pounding feet
In the streets bellow
And a window breaks
And a women falls
There's something wrong
It's hard to believe that love will prevail
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever
And though the night seems long
Your tears won't fall
Your tears won't fall
Your tears won't fall
forever
Last night I had a dream
You can into my room
You took me
Into your arms
Whispering and kissing me
And telling me to still believe
The very emptiness
Of the burning seas
Against which we see our darkest decides
Until I felt
Safe
And warm
I fell asleep in your arms
When I the world
I cried again
For you were gone
Can you hear me?
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever
And though the night seems long
Your tears won't fall forever
It won't rain all the time
The sky won't fall forever
And though the night seems long
Your tears won't fall
Your tears won't fall
Your tears won't fall
Forever
-Jane Siberry: It Can't Rain All The Time
