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About Me

I am the definition of "drinking problem". I'm working on it. Please do not provide me with any alcohol.
I work hard.
I'm currently in a state of flux; things are changing.
My dreams seem more real than my waking life; maybe I'm happier there.
I am reclusive to a fault.
I speak my mind; I will confront you if you try to bullshit me.
Some people will tell you that I am not your friend; the truth is, I give as good as I get: respect me and I'll do the same.
I do not suffer fools gladly.
I play keyboards for Combichrist . We're about to fuck up South America, so come out for the riot. Oh yeah, and the Goth Cruise....hmmmmm...
Various projects forthcoming; watch this space for updates about The Best, Pullout Kings and Pitfiend. All in all, the autumn should be a head-fuckin'good time.
I do remixes. Contact me for more details.
Three lacerations are a signal for those who understand.
Bands with which I'm working or have worked with; Bad ass motherfuckers:
The following are bands and artists that I respect, endorse and count among my friends; check them out:
slowEarth
Devendra Banhart
The Vulpines
Kaki King
Dr. Martin Luther Fiend
Alter Der Ruine
NARC
Abbeyvain
Lost in Sedition
Manufactura
Jae Ellis

My Interests

Crippling pain, Obscure mythology, Voynich Manuscript, Rust, Demagoguery, Apocalypse literature, Spikes, Sound, Fnord, Decay, Mind control, Single malt scotch, Succeeding out of spite, Cognitive dissonance, All-consuming and equal-opportunity hatred, Relentless self-depreciation, Frequency, Demiurge, Rain, Proving you wrong, Rape fantasy, Sleep-paralysis visions/nightmares, Sleep deprivation, Ego deconstruction, Smearing excrement upon "elite" fuckheads

I'd like to meet:

Intense individuals who are unafraid to accept that life is an amalgamation of all stimulus, including pain.

Also, no scenester fuckheads, thanks!

All content on this page, including blog writings, copyright z_marr 2005-2008 unless otherwise specified. All rights reserved.

Music:

SWANS, The Angels of Light, Download, Stravinski, Combichrist, Merzbow, Slowearth, Aphex Twin, Nine Inch Nails, Dizzee Rascal, Venetian Snares, Devendra Banhart, Twilight Singers, Nick Cave, Skinny Puppy, Chemlab, Mars Volta, Bob Dylan, Radiohead, Einsturzende Neubauten, Ministry, Marvin Gaye, cEvin Key, Johnny Cash, Shostakovitch, Meshuggah, Masonna, Peaches, Massive Attack, Recoil, Bjork, Glen Branca, Borbetomagus, Tori Amos, John Cage, Bile, Scarry Garcia, Jae Ellis, Demiurge, Autechre, Shub-Niggurath, Kaki King, The Colostatones, The Fucking Fleshwounds, The Feelgood Hangover, Killing Joke, Hanatarash, Joy Division, High On Fire, Throbbing Gristle, Helltrash.

Movies:

David Lynch, Takashi Miike, David Fincher, Sleep paralysis visions/nightmares, Begotten, Shinya Tsukamoto, Dario Argento, Jean-Pierre Jeunet, Rain, Chan-wook Park

Television:

No thanks

Books:

Gira, Nietzsche, Hesse, Bukowski, Camus, Byron, Grass, Sartre, Burroughs, Shakespeare, Keats, Occult, Gaiman, Gibson, Shelley, Henry Miller, Simmons, Ha Jin, Yevtushenko, Milosz, Elliot, Baudelaire, Rimbaud

Heroes:

Michael Gira, cEvin Key, Genesis P-Orridge, Artie "The Strongest Man...in the World", Bob Flanagan, Kakihara, PD, Devendra Banhart

My Blog

Translucid Retrospect

Aloof, slightly apart, Remaining distanced. Solid glass relief: Prismatic and juxtaposed; A portal and barrier; An observation and question, Fixed in time. To project existence thus in instants is P...
Posted by z_marr on Tue, 21 Oct 2008 01:11:00 PST

Occams Razor

All these scars,And I still haven't learned anything.
Posted by z_marr on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 06:36:00 PST

Spectator of Arthritic Bruxism

Around this time, all changes solidify.Calcification;Joints seize;Droning, endless, inviolate:The sound of grinding to a halt.I hear it resonating in yourFrail skeleton,This bitter whine ofFrustrated ...
Posted by z_marr on Tue, 27 May 2008 12:29:00 PST

Only looking out

An absence of motion,A braille-textured incompatibilityCausing missed time, missed place,Misplaced. I'm leaving so soon. Woven fibre;Brittle calm;Braided copper;Fractured film. And so much sadness. Th...
Posted by z_marr on Sat, 03 May 2008 05:39:00 PST

Rebirth 2

To be cut away like so much extraneous fleshAnd left to devicesRendered useless;Removed;Castigated and compromised. It's time now. I've been waiting. It ends here and now;No reconciliation;Damaged bey...
Posted by z_marr on Thu, 24 Apr 2008 11:18:00 PST

Erosion

A broken wing; Jute twine and bamboo shoots; White solvent; A bitter dawn. Improper role reversal, An interesting headspace; But after time, Dulled by knotted influence We all fall; Again as it always...
Posted by z_marr on Sun, 13 Apr 2008 03:57:00 PST

Purge

I’ve been here before; this interior space: Restlessness; vagaries of anxiety and apathy. Burn the doubt away. A seizure wracks my body; I watch from across the room. I’m assessing the...
Posted by z_marr on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 11:56:00 PST

This is awkward

Positioned, postured; Bent into a stance I do not comprehend. Attention split between: A forced focusing on uncertain outline, hazy, drug-addled; A sense of impending grief, looming, stifling composu...
Posted by z_marr on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 09:43:00 PST

The End of the World

When you said: "I need to know..."
Posted by z_marr on Fri, 29 Feb 2008 11:22:00 PST

Chemopass

I think it hit too hard, too deep; now I can't remember which way is down. Losing all context: juxtaposition between then and now, just fading into obsolescence... Thoracic surgery would ...
Posted by z_marr on Tue, 20 Nov 2007 01:34:00 PST