Erika

*There's got to be more to life than chasing down every temporary high* Okay so this is me: I'm a bleeding heart however that trait is masked by my passion for mocking people. I work hard and I play hard, I like to go out Friday nights because I have to vent all my frustrations from work, Saturday night I like to chill/recover but you can usually talk me into going out again. I rarely go beyond a 2 mile radius of my apartment because my neighborhood kicks ass but it is possible to convince me. You can always convince me to drive to a random city to party, as long as I have a place to crash. I'm a professional crasher. I have a hard time meeting people because all I do is work and go out and if I meet you at work, you're probably over 40 or irritate me or both, and if I meet you while I'm out, chances are you think I'm insane. I don't think I've ever met a girl-friend at a bar except for that one that tried to take me home to sleep with her and her boyfriend-- if I meet a boy at a bar, he's probably not worth talking to anyway. Nothing is more attractive than when a boy slurs "You're so beautiful" while groping you. If you didn't pick up the sarcasm, please stop reading. I don't want to meet boys in bars, I want to be pursued, maybe I'm old-fashioned but thats how I am. I have absolutely NO idea what I want, so it tends to appear that I'm playing games. I have no patience for games, I'm just hoping that when what I want presents itself I'll figure it out. I get lonely even when I'm having a blast with tons of people. When I'm with my friends I like to have fun, I save the deep thoughts for when I'm in my room or when I'm driving in the car, I love pointless conversations about grabbing asses, having 20 minute nonstop laughing fits where you think you may die if you don't stop soon, making scenes everywhere I go, taking impromptu mini-vacations, and I still like to make prank phone calls. I don't think I'll ever grow out of that. I'm very responsible, though a little less responsible when I drink but who isn't? I usually quit smoking on Sunday only to start again on Friday and I cannot wait til Chicago bars go smoke-free. I miss practically everyone that I've ever met and it makes me sad, the line "I can't remember all the times I've tried to tell myself to hold on to these moments as they pass" from Long December makes me cry everytime I hear it-- I'm very nostalgic. I want to do something cool in my life like pick up and move somewhere where I don't know anyone but so far I've found a bunch of reasons not to, though I admire all my friends who have. My biggest fear is that I'm gonna live my whole life in Illinois. I love patty melts even though I pick off the onions and no, I won't order it without them, I could eat one everyday but I think thats because I have a touch of OCD, not in a crazy way but in a funny way, I promise! I say some phrases way too many times in a day such as "I'm not gonna lie", "effing", "that sounds delicious", "to be quite honest with you", "that's ignorant", "interesting" and "I promise". I have a tendency to spaz, just be patient, it will be over in 5 minutes. If you don't think that this went on long enough, send me a message or IM me on:AOL/AIM at BitterSweetGrl6.