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About Me

lord give me grace in dancing feet, the power to impress. lord give me grace in dancing feet, let me shine like the moon.
before this year started i had all of this rubbish here about how unhappy and pretentious i am, and then i sort of realised that in actuality, nobody authoritatively cares about your suffering. i don't want to be a burden and i don't want to be a bother; my greatest aspiration is to bring happiness to people and it's always been like that, so why all the contradictions? as i'm sitting here writing this i can't decide whether i'm in love with life or merely in limerence with it, but i know that as long as i'm experiencing joy in those fleeting inconsequential moments we're all so well acquainted with everything will be all right, and i truly believe that with every fiber of my being. and it can't get any more pretentious than that.

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Music:

guillemots3, andrew bird, les savy fav, JENS LEKMAN!, friday bridge, suburban kids with biblical names, the knife, pretty much anything and everything from sweden, the smiths, the long blondes, plumtree, the replacements, camera obscura, the changes, the field mice, mirah, hefner, mew, faunts, jeff buckley, heavenly, jonathan richman, helen love, assorted indie-pop/twee bands, the magnetic fields, joy division.

Movies:

rushmore. the royal tenenbaums. pretty much everything i've seen by wes anderson. the land before time. spirited away. everything is illuminated. annie hall. breakfast at tiffany's. the princess bride.

Books:

nine stories. franny and zooey. raise high the roofbeam, carpenters + seymour, an introduction. the catcher in the rye. the death of ivan ilych. king lear. hamlet. the glass menagerie. how the hula girl sings. hairstyles of the damned. blankets. goodbye, chunky rice. scott pilgrim. utopia.

Heroes:

ina foster-goodrich. coral allen. emily neevel. lee miller. j.d. salinger (well, to an extent). leo tolstoy following his midlife crisis. seymour glass. buddy glass. franny glass. holden caulfield. max fischer. scott pilgrim. pacifists. unintentional philosophers. the unpretentious and humble. kate jackson (i'm still superficial). juergen teller. paolo reversi. marcel dzama. tom wingfield.

My Blog

i don't feel loved

for the first time in ages, possibly ever, my heart is empty; there's no indication of limerence or unreciprocated affections. and everything feels right. asexuality rocks me like a hurric...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Tue, 15 May 2007 05:07:00 PST

a revelation.

all things considered, i have lived a comparatively interesting life, in the most pathetic interpretation of interesting that is available. i know that on paper, the events occurring in my life ...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Sun, 29 Apr 2007 02:59:00 PST

Caring is creepy.

I just had the most dismal revelation KNOWN TO MAN. Well, perhaps not; I'm sure that there are others more deplorable. All the same, fundamentally realising that I will NEVER see ANY of th...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Wed, 28 Mar 2007 04:54:00 PST

I want a husband.

I want to go right past the dating stage and just get married. And this is rather hypocritical, considering not only do I not believe in marriage, I BARELY believe in love (do I?), but STILL.&nb...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Tue, 27 Mar 2007 05:34:00 PST

madame ray

fuck this, pretty much. i know that excuses are ridiculous. but come on.
Posted by daughter / disaster on Sat, 17 Mar 2007 11:03:00 PST

by the way

i wanna be his ramona flowers.
Posted by daughter / disaster on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 05:45:00 PST

be still my heart.

i am forever being put away and i am always in reserve. damnit. and i mean always. i know damn well what i want, i just don't know how to get it. i spent a year and a half in s...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Tue, 13 Mar 2007 05:17:00 PST

when will people understand

that they haven't got to impress me? i'm easily impressed as it is. i'm impressed by honesty and integrity and respect. i couldn't care less that you're intelligent or that you waste...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 08:01:00 PST

ten

messages, to ten people. oh yeah! see how much i love/hate you/am ambivalent towards your existence! these are all anonymous, obviously. it's imperative for me to get some busi...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Sat, 24 Feb 2007 02:58:00 PST

wore her body back-to-front.

i was laying in my bed last night listening to pulp songs and realised that more than anything, more than i want to change the world, more than i want to be authoritatively consequential, i want to be...
Posted by daughter / disaster on Mon, 12 Feb 2007 05:10:00 PST