If you don't understand my silence...

About Me

Am I just some chick you placed beside you To take somebody's place? When you turn around can you recognize my face? You used to love me, you used to hug me But that wasn't the case...everything wasn't ok***Why'd you go and break what's already broken I try to take a breath but I'm already choking How long till this goes away?? I try to remember to forget you but I break down every time I do It's left me less than zero Beat down and bruised How long till this goes away I can't seem to get my heart over you Cause you creep into everything I do He said he wants to be friends I took a big step back with one finger I said fuck that...***I'm complex. I'll make you swoon, but I'll probably break your heart if you're just like everyone else. I'm a walking contradiction. I'M REAL. Im everything you love and hate all bottled up into every human emotion. I value the small things. I find beauty in simplicity and minimalism. My life is a Black and White Dichotomy, with very little grey area. I always have good intentions, but thats as far as I usually get. I'm not as XcoolX as you, but I think that makes me cooler. I pay close attention to details, and I always read between the lines. My life is restricted by miles of speed limits and stop signs. I'm a smartass and probably too blunt for your taste, sometimes I am just flat out mean, staight to your face insult, no messing around or mixing of messages. I love "Greeks" pizza, and short sentences. Movie nights own me. I don't believe in love. Sometimes I hate myself more than anyone ever could. I have obsessive compulsive habits, and sometimes get extremely caught up in them. I often create the wrong first impression. I'm VERY indecisive. I prefer "hoodie weather" and loud music. I dream about the future, but I live in the moment. You could read me like a book... you'd probably get a few of the words wrong, and the ending might change a few times... but I'll still be here, and I'll still be me... but its all been done before. Looking for love in all the wrong places. One bad move will pave the way... I like to believe everything happens for a reason, but I know from experience that no matter how many times you turn things in your head, trying to make sense of them, some things just defy all logic.
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My Interests

First and foremost living my life for Jesus. I'm making my life something worth remembering when I make it to the glorious doors of Heaven. I am a volunteer fire fighter and a Pre-med/Molcular Biology major with a minor in Spanish and Psychlogy. I love being random and spending time with my friends. I BMX and skateboard. I like drawing and writing. I like hanging out in random places just for fun. I like to stick my tongue out at people. I am addicted to piercings and do them myself. I am addicted to getting my nails done too. And straightening my hair..alot.

I'd like to meet:

I really don't know anymore....everyone I meet turns out to be so fake.I edited my profile at Freeweblayouts.net , check out these Myspace Layouts!

Music:

I like heavy metal, punk rock, christian, techno, liquid. I listen to about everything. FifthSTREETHeist, Slipknot, As I Lay Dying, Shinedown, Three Six Mafia, Pretty Ricky, Mushroomhead, Disturbed, Incubus, Grits, Superchick, Staple, Kutless, Yellowcard, Layden, Sublime, Bob Marley, Pink Floyd, Something Corporate, The Used Barlow Girls, Jeremy Camp, Cross Movement....as I said, I listen to EVERYTHING!

Movies:

Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, Reservoir Dogs, 13 Ghosts, The Passion, Pirates of the Carribean, Jay and Silent Bob, Mall Rats, Dogma, Sweet Home Alabama, The Matrix, Fast and the Furious, Shallow Hal, Anger Management, Gone in 60 Seconds, Passion of the Christ

Television:

Chapelle Show, Crank Yankers, Passions, Scrubs. Don't watch too much tv...I have real friends.

Books:

Of course, my manual for life, The Holy Bible. You can find anything you need for a quick fix in there:) Purpose Driven Life, Godchasers, Memorize This, Darwin Awards, Lord of the Rings series, Her Devotional.

Heroes:

Hands down, Jesus. It is such an awesome feeling to know he died for all of our sins. My sister brother and Nate are my heroes too. I honestly have no clue where I would be without them in my life.

My Blog

For you my love :D

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~* Eternity is a moment in time. When we are watching the stars above, and you tell me we match like a rhyme. It is the beginning of...
Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 30 Jan 2006 09:23:00 PST

R.I.P. Matthew C. Bowers

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Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Journey

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Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Slow Down

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~ Slow Down, Way Down. What goes around, Comes around. Dry your eyes. Clear your mind. You just gotta take it, One day at a t...
Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Eternity

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ To live for one more moment in his eyes, Would be to breath heaven's air And to dance among the angels. To swim for one more instance in...
Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Vanishing Mind

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~ Sitting in my empty world I start to fade away Away from reality Away from myself I start to dream that one magical dream You ...
Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

Keys to the Universe

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~* ~*~*~ Our whole lives are like Driving down the road But we never realize it Until we're in the car We passed a stoplight And made ...
Posted by If you don't understand my silence... on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST