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DESTROY ME

Go kill yourself

About Me

its hard to live in this world and function around people when most of my world is living in my own head.
Love me, hate me. Think whatever you want about me. Say whatever you want about me only to make yourself/ego feel better. I don't give a fuck. Its all a game anyway. I won't take your shit so don't leave it here. And go ahead and waste your energy hating me...your hatred will only fuel my fire. :)
I just want to go home already...
I consider myself a genuinely nice person. I'm easy to get along with and talk to. But if you cross my boundaries I become a vicious bitch. I hold high respect for my friends and myself. I'm a fighter at heart and will fight to the death if it means protecting who or what I love. I can help give advice with certain things and I'm open to hearing advice. I do not believe in christianity but I respect others who respect my beliefs. I have a sick side of me that wants to be a hit woman or serialkiller at times with no remorse. I tend to lose myself when I get super angry and become dangerous to myself and sometimes other people (when provoked).I love Kung Fu San Soo and that is my release from the everyday bullshit of life. I also take boxing and kickboxing. I want to spend the rest of my life learning new arts.

My Interests

your corpse, dungeons, nose biting, eye gouging, medieval times, weapons, fighting, martial arts, ego-killing, kung fu san soo, angry women, meditation, losing touch of reality, losing sense of whats right and wrong, not giving a shit, corrupt human behavior, fucking shit up, serial killers, choreographed movie fighting, death, life, fallen angels, candle and herbal magick, animals and reptiles, Gothic art, European culture, Asian culture, dragons, snakes, Viking era, greek mythology, winter and fall, breaking glass, the sound of breaking glass, vintage vampires, video games, dead brides, dead brides, cyber fashion, tarot cards, big stompy boots, past life regressions, dreaming, scary nursery music, spiritual mushroom trips, tapping into the "inner beast", laughing at death

I'd like to meet:

fighters, martial artists, artists of all sorts, free spirits, real genuine people, nonmyspace whores, universalists,anyone proud to be ugly, anyone inspiring disgust from the work-a-day shiteaters of the world, vagabonds, drunks, punks, metal maidens, rivetheads

Dont add me if you just want to add to your heaps amount of friends or if youre some yuppie just wanting to add a couple of freaks on your friends list so u can seem like youre "open minded" to alternative lifestyles. I didnt deal with that shit in high school and I dont give a fuck about you now.If you don't like me, my attitude, or don't think I'm worth your time, call 1-800-GET-BENT. All well will be done after that. I no longer have patience for dense people so if you're only here to post noxious comments to me, please don't waste your fucking time or effort. ALSO NO DRAMA QUEENS. I'M TIRED OF THIS BULLSHIT. "I HATE HER BECAUSE SHE TALKED TO MY BF" OR MAKING UP MINDLESS BULLSHIT LIES ABOUT ME OR OTHERS.GROW THE FUCK UP, HIGH SCHOOL IS OVER.

Music:

Goth/Deathrock:
Bauhaus, Voodoo Church, 45 Grave, Sisters of Mercy, Switchblade Symphony, Subtonix, Ausgang, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Alien Sex Fiend, Clan of Xymox, Specimen, Virgin Prunes, Misfits, Cinema Strange, Xmal Deutschland, Razed in Black, Blutengel, Fields of the Nephilim, Christian Death, the Cruxshadows, Bella Morte, Concrete Blonde, Diorama, Diary of Dreams, Phantom Limbs

Industrial/Electronic:
Skinny Puppy, WUMPSCUT,Ayria, Haujobb, Front line Assembly, Assemblage 23, VnV Nation, Ministry, KMFDM, Bile, :SITD:, Pain Station, Funker Vogt, Nic Endo, Alec Empire, Decoded Feedback, Sister Machine Gun, Hellbent, RevCo, Velvet Acid Christ, Atari Teenage Riot, Pzycho Bitch, S.I.N.A., Amduscia, Hocico,Eisbrecher, And One, Converter, Das Ich, Ohgr, Snog,Combi Christ, Wolfsheim, Covenant,Hanzel Und Gretyl, Android Lust, Rammstein, Seabound, Edge of Dawn, Leaetherstrip

Punk
Deadboys, The Undead, GBH, Ghoultown, Cult of the Psychic Fetus, Koffin Kats, the Cramps, Joy Division, Warsaw, Adolescents, Rudimentary Peni, Blitz, The Damned, Flux of Pink Indians, Buzzcocks, Descendents, Propaghandi

Metal
The sins of thy Beloved, My Dying Bride, Type O Negative, Dimmu Borgir, Immortal, Bathory, Dreadful Shadows, Within Temptation, Kovenant, Moonspell, Paradise Lost, Morbid Angel, Danzig, Pantera, Opeth, Marduk, Therion, Nightwish, Hecate Enthroned, Arch Enemy, Lamb of God, Otep, Theatre of Tragedy, In Flames, Slayer, Celtic Frost, Cradle of Filth (old)

other:
Weezer, Mazzy Star, Garbage, Portishead, Sneaker Pimps, ICP, Hole, L7, Everclear, Smashing Pumpkins, Bush, Veruca Salt

Movies:

DeadAlive, Bad Taste, The Hitcher, Saw series, House of Wax, Evil Dead Trilogy, The Beyond, Re-Animator 1 and 2, Dawn of the Dead, Day of the Dead, Night of the Living Dead, Return of the Living Dead, Return of the Living Dead 3, Plan 9 From outer Space, Carrie, the Descent, Silent Hill, Halloween, The Lost Boys, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Silence of the Lambs, Red Dragon, Hannibal Rising, Cemetary Man, Hellraiser, Carnival of Souls, Bride of Frankenstein, The Creature from the Black Lagoon, Twilight Zone, lots of 50s-60s black n white old school horror flicks

non horror movies:
King Arthur, Braveheart, The Last of the Mohicans, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Pans Labrynth, Shawshenk Redemption, Alice in Wonderland, Peter Pan, Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind, Romeo and Juliet, Pulp Fiction, Kill Bill, The Matrix, Apocalypto, Requiem for a Dream, Pi, Akira, American History X, Romper Stomper, The Believer, Million Dollar Baby

Television:



Heroes:

Luis Royo, HR Giger, Boris Vallejo, Nick Blinko, Bill Leeb, HP Lovecraft

My Blog

for my fallen angel J

I cant believe I feel so easy for this. I thought I was doing the right thing. While you did show me alot of good things, you quickly hid like a little boy as soon as your dad found out. I know y...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Sun, 23 Sep 2007 05:21:00 PST

black metal

Some moron on an industrial board saying that "black metal is the truest form of music". I can't stand when I have someone as ignorant as that saying that. I listen to and respect Black Metal and all....
Posted by DESTROY ME on Thu, 26 Jul 2007 05:41:00 PST

"that sinking feeling...

when you are leaving. All i believed in...walks out my door." Here I went again. another failed relationship. another mistake, another act out of the heart and here I am hurt again. It wasnt inte...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Sun, 10 Jun 2007 02:07:00 PST

dissension

Send me shelter from the pain as the hate drives me insane...seeking refuge from the rain. all in all we do believe as we try to conceive...breathing in this toxic air. Send me shelter from above, se...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 03:44:00 PST

and i'll sit here as i watch him burn

i always think i can get away or at least i think i can...but i can't. to break free of this attatchment and "emotion" for him would be a world's blessing. but im stuck. can't move...sitting here with...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 17 Apr 2006 11:21:00 PST

If you "could"

If you could" Section:===========================13. If you could have any one super power: The power to create anti-mater vortex to swallow this planet and all that exsists on it.14. If you could liv...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 27 Mar 2006 04:12:00 PST

never escape

knowing that i'll never escape my cage is comforting... because knowing that makes me worry less about how i just made my prison smaller...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 13 Mar 2006 08:12:00 PST

hold you close like my ever pressing suicide

felt really productive today... maybe it's because i've basically had nothing to do the last two days at work... maybe it's because i'm in such a neutral mood... but, i came home and cleaned up my&nbs...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 13 Mar 2006 08:20:00 PST

my past and my future

just don't feel quite 'right'... something's wrong, i just can't put my finger on it...i am becoming too predictable... i need to do something to surprise myself... i'm really craving change right now...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 13 Mar 2006 08:16:00 PST

I'll go underground again. I'll take a sewer for my lake

I look outside and I see a cage. A cage where my ambitions and aspirations as a individual life form are eradicated by what has come to be "reality". Survival is no longer based on the fittest by choi...
Posted by DESTROY ME on Mon, 13 Mar 2006 08:08:00 PST