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I am here for Friends

About Me


alright bitches, down to the basics.
my name is valerie.
call me whatever you want.
im pretty much awesome.
ask anyone who knows me well and theyll agree.
people like me.
and i like people.
win-win.
lets try something original.
im not gonna sell myself to you,
im gonna talk, and youre gonna listen.
i am me.
finally.
ive found the girl i lost years ago.
im happy now.
ive got a few friends i adore.
a sister id do anything for.
and the love of my life wants to spend his life with me.
what could be better, right?
oh, i finally got my own apartment.
and i fucking love it.
paying bills isnt so bad.
and having your own place well...
theres no better feeling than that.
i dont have time for stupid drama.
ill cut you out of my life before i let you fuck up mine.
ive done it before.
trust me when i say ill do it again.
i do want more people to talk to.
so talk to me?
i promise to be more intelligent and insightful than you think i will be.
these are my two favorite words:
i think they both define me.
catalyst: a substance which increases the rate of a reaction. it is comsumed in one step of the reaction and then regenerated in the process. the catalyst is not used up, but provides a new, lower energy path for the reaction.
catharsis: the purging of the emotions or the reliving of emotional stress, especially through certain kinds of art, as tragedy or music.
discharge of pent up emotions so as to result in alleviation of symptoms or the permenant relief of the condition.
im probably the only person in the world who thinks the word catalyst is sexy....
and now, with the words of stone sour, i take my leave.
"keep the gun oiled and the temple clean,
shit, snort and blaspheme.
let the heads cool and the engine run
because in the end everything we do...
is just everything weve done."

My Interests



peoples thoughts on things.
mental illness or what we think of as illness.
stories
the most random useless information posible.
music.
my peoples welfare.

these two people are my best friends.
the ones who keep me going
the people id miss most if they were gone.

this is my furby. he is everything to me. he is my reason for getting up in the morning, my reason to keep going. i love him with everyting that i have. hes the only one who sees my completly insane side, and he loves me anyway. i am his gorgeousness and he is mine.

this be lanie. my one and only sister, the person i miss most in the world. isnt she gorgeous? weve had some major ups and downs but weve grown from and past them. now we have this amazing relationship. i love her. and when i say that i mean it. shes amazing, accomplishing her goals and doing what she needs to. yup, shes a very cool kid. and a sexy bitch.

I'd like to meet:

people who are halfway interesting.
people who realize that the entire world doesnt revolve around them or their issues.
people who want to learn.
people whos conversation will keep me entertained.

Music:

music is my world.
it helps me vocalize the things i feel but could never put into words.
it helps me calm down and settle myself.

Movies:

some.
introspective ones, usually.
i like movies that make me think.
and pretty much anything with johnny depp.
that man is the god of the acting world.

Television:

i dont watch too much tv.
books are better.
tho scrubs will always be one of my favorite shows.
south park.
family guy.
and the simpsons.

Books:

ill read almost anything.
reading is very important to me.
i love it more than eating, drinking or sleeping.
if you dont like to read
i feel sorry for you.
if youve never finished a book in your life
you dont know how much youre missing.

Heroes:

my family.
my mom, because shes done so much with her life.
shes always there for her family
and she makes sure we know she loves us.
my dad, because hes always supported us.
he does everything needed to make sure we have everything we need.
my sister, because shes doing so much with her life.
she knows exactly what she wants, and shes going to get it.
dunkles, i love you all.

My Blog

wedding

so. ive told people a lot of different stuff about the whole gettin married thing, but we finally decided what we want to do. originally we had thought to get married this summer, but it wasnt really ...
Posted by be my catharsis on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 11:56:00 PST

can i break the spell? apparently not.

i struggle to put into words the things that i want to say. i remember back in gradeschool when the first sentence of a paper had to "grab the readers attention, make them want more" but i seem to hav...
Posted by be my catharsis on Sat, 04 Aug 2007 11:37:00 PST

slightly salty water running down my face

i let myself fall onto my bed. the tears flow easier when im totally giving myself into them. somehow trying to talk on the phone doesnt help. so i hung up in order to collapse. i dont know whats wron...
Posted by be my catharsis on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 06:09:00 PST

merry fucking christmas one and all

its christmas. wow. it doesnt feel like that at all. i miss my mom and dad. and lanie, tho she seems to hate me now. i miss all the stuff wed do around christmas and stuff. cause no matter where we w...
Posted by be my catharsis on Mon, 25 Dec 2006 01:40:00 PST

if youre wondering why im unhappy or more moody than usual, lack of sleep does that

right now...... i am so pissed i cant think straight. so their grandmother is here right. and i have to sleep in the playroom cause she gets my room. i dont mind sleeping on the floor as much, tho m...
Posted by be my catharsis on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 11:07:00 PST

and so i rant and rave

i dont get why people are mean when they dont have to be. i dont get why people dont ever bother to come out of their self satisfied shells. i dont get why people wouldnt go out of their way if it mak...
Posted by be my catharsis on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 11:02:00 PST

read me. might be about you

mk so i got this idea from natascha... and i wanna do it too.basically i write things about ppl and im not gonna name names. if youre on the list, im pretty sure youll know. [x] you are a constant ins...
Posted by be my catharsis on Sat, 18 Nov 2006 02:37:00 PST

newer update for those who are interested

ok time for a new update thingy..... kyle moved down here this week. im so happy hes here. it was awesome seeing him after a year and i still cant believe hes gonna actually move in with me. weve...
Posted by be my catharsis on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 01:10:00 PST

update thingy

ok so i figured i should let people know whats going on in this lil life of mine. i applied at some job yesterday, i hope to god they call me. um id be making pretty good money and working 3rd sh...
Posted by be my catharsis on Thu, 12 Oct 2006 03:10:00 PST

poem thingy

my eyes are leaking tears trickle down my face. though im familiar with this feeling i feel lost in space. hoplelessness envlopes me. i cant even lift my head. darkness surrounds me. feeling like im d...
Posted by be my catharsis on Thu, 05 Oct 2006 10:27:00 PST