"Stronger than a man, simpler than a child, her nature stood alone."
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Simply me...
As wild as the day is long
full of complicated patterns
ever-changing displays of beauty
emotionally raw, exposed and free
coarse because of life and love
astute by design, notoriously me
I rant
I rave
I cry
I hide
I hope
I fear
I try
I strive
To make this life my own, right now
I give my all, my true self I've found
Denying all others, embracing my life
Hoping to find my way
Accepting pleasure and strife
Simply me, placed on display
obsessive compulsive, neurotic
Mellifluously Drenn, Princess K
The Powerful Me?
The powerful me can not be vulnerable
the powerful me can not have fear
the powerful me is all knowing and all seeing
omniscient and omnipotent, that's what's expected of me
The powerful me...
What happens on those days when my power escapes me
what happens on those nights when I can not see
what happens when the darkness pierces my soul
illuminating my deepest fears
What happens...
The powerful me folds
the powerful me crumbles
the powerful me loses control
the powerful me succumbs to her new reality
...
I carry all this with me
day after day
hoping no one tries too hard
to peel the layers of pain away
The vulnerable me is never exposed
lest I lose all my power
I wander around shrouded in darkness
cloaking my fears and sorrow
Leave me to my worries
soon I'll deal with my fear
I'll hide all of my weaknesses
my problems the world will never hear
I really want to just be me
accepted for who I am
A woman, strong and fierce, no doubt
but human all the same
Not invincible, not so potent
not so completely in control
not so perfect, not so unyielding
not willing to play that role
Always honest, always true
hoping for the day
when just being me is all it takes
to make the pain dissipate
Sometimes I wonder
if they all could see
What would they say when they meet
the not so powerful me?
I'd like to meet:
Danny Phantom (I have the biggest crush on Danny!), Tupac
Music:
I love music and all music's good for the soul. Anyone who's ever met me knows that I love to dance, so give me a beat and whatever happens, happens. Miami booty shake, Southern crunk, and that hot hot reggae are all my staples. I can't get loose if the beat ain't right. And believe me, you want me to get loose.
I would be remiss if I didn't mention all of the amazing Pop/Rock, Jazz & Reggae that runs through my veins. You really don't want me to sit and list all of my favs, so I'll just reiterate: I love music and all music is good for the soul.
I will say this, until I was 16, I was convinced I was married to Bob Marley in another life. Our souls connected through music, perhaps that's why his son's music (Junior Gong, Damian Marley) lifts me to some ole other place.
I love mUsiC!!!
On that note, check out this phenom. Beautiful and brilliant, it couldn't get any better:
http://www.myspace.com/joshdavidmusic
On a whole other front, I'm a big fan of The Fray, Daughtry, and Nickelback, all of whom keep me feeling nice. But you might not know about Casey McPherson & Alpha Rev who, acoustically, I think would make any woman moist and any man want to help that woman relieve her buildup. lol
So if you're in the mood for some amazing Indie Acoustic Rock check them out:
http://www.myspace.com/caseymcpherson
http://www.alpharev.com/
Movies:
I'm a Disney freak! I LOVE LOVE LOVE all Disney movies. Don't believe me, then listen: I collected all the Disney Classic movies on VHS when I was younger and when Disney opened up their vault and began to re-release them onto DVD, I started re-collecting the very same movies. You call it obsessive compulsive, I call it dedication and pure LOVE for cartoons. Oh and my love for cartoons embraces all animation. I love animated movies, period.
Gone With the Wind, Usual Suspects, Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Center Stage, Fame, Coyote Ugly, Shawshank Redemption, The Color Purple, Imitation of Life, Forest Gump, Breakfast at Tiffany's, An Affair to Remember, Casablanca, and The Way We Were...just to name a few. You see, my tastes in movies knows no bounds. I love storytelling period.
I'm leaving space for my movies... Stay tuned!
Television:
I'm a sucker for a good drama, a great comedy, and fabulous reality television. 24, Supernatural, Smallville, Medium, Boston Legal, Law & Order, Nip/Tuck, Arrested Development, Alias, Ugly Betty, and Grey's Anantomy are just a few of my favorites. Hot men, great acting, yeah that's my shit! McDreamy & McSteamy meet McTwitchyPants, Fresh Fresh Mellifluous. (haha)
Don't get it twisted, I love a good drama, but great comedies get me up in the morning. Friends, Seinfeld, South Park, Boondocks, come on now. You know how I do!
I could have sworn I said I LOVE cartoons. Danny Phantom, Kim Possible, the Rugrats, All Grown Up, Daria, Braceface, Dexter's Laboratory, yeah I said it and WHAT! I watch them religiously. Big kid maybe, but that's just who I am.
Lest I forget, I've become the biggest LOST fan ever! Great show! I know I've forgotten a few, but I guess you just have to get to know me to find out what I really like.
Books:
Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, Gone With the Wind...
I can curl up with a book of poetry any day of the week.
If there's a point when I'm not engrossed in some book or novel, then hell hath frozen over.
Reading is fundamental!!!!
Heroes:
Candy (my mommie) is the only hero I'll ever know. How she managed to raise a house full of girls without money and without help of anykind is beyond me. Even with all of that she still made time for every stray kid and every stray person in our community. Maybe that's where my maternal side comes from because I'm always trying to take care of people. I'm always the mommy in my group of friends, because that's what I do, I take care of others. It's funny though because somehow I'm never taken care of. Humm, go figure. I guess everyone assumes I can take care of myself. Well, thanks to my mommy, I can!
