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My name is Whitey. I am dead, but now I am a real Angel. I died one night in August of 2003 while my mommy was at Burningman. I was very sick for a long time. I tried to wait for my mommy to come home from her trip, but I decided I didnt want her to watch me die because I love her so much, it might have hurt her! When she found out I died It hurt her so much that she didnt go to work or get out of bed for acouple days. I wanted to tell her that I loved her one more time....I have come back now to make sure she is ok! One day I woke up so hungry that I would literaly hit my mommys face to wake her up and feed me, she didnt know I was sick so she would close her bedroom door so I couldnt wake her up in the mornings (she works late- sometimes til 4am). I couldnt get into her room so I would wake her old roomate Howard up, he didnt like that and called me a spoiled bitch. After a month of me being really hungrey my mommy took me to the doctor who told her that I had PKD, pollysystic kidney disorder, and that it was a terminal illness. Thats why I was so hungry all the time, because I was in pain. My mommy took me to the best doctor money could buy. They told her I was going to die and the only thing she could do is give me some very expensive medicine and food to ease my pain because I lost 75 percent of my kidney function. Gawd I hated that all that medicine, but it did make me feel better- I alomost bit my mommy in the nose one time when she first tried to giveme the medicine. My mommy thought of getting me a kidney transplant, but decided against it because of the pain I would have to go through. She really loved me and treated me very special, I had no idea how much happiness I brought to her life. She has my brother "Boy" and my sister "Ratso" left, but it isnt the same and she still longs to fill the hole in her heart....... she sometimes forgets that I never left her! My body is gone but I am still in her heart and and soul forever. My mommys friends all loved me. Even all her old roomates friends would fall in love with me.They all said I was an angel, because they could see right through into my heart! I worry alot about my mommy. She has some bad friends that drain her energy so much. She attracts people whom seem to always want something but give nothing in return. If you see anyone hurting my mommy please tell me, so I can take care of her. Its hard for a pretty girl to live her life in Hollywood alone with no family. Thank god she has acouple good friends in her life like Sirius Trixon who always looks out for her and was a good uncle to me. I think he likes "Ratso". Me and "Ratso" never really got along- she was a street cat mommy brought home to save her life, and was a bitch to me too, but my mommy could never put one of us out in the street, even though she rarely comes out and says hi to anyone. Gosh, my mommy was the best mommy anyone could have had. I miss her as much as she misses me! I am in heaven now with my other sister who is an angel. her name is "Sweet-pea"! She was a sweetheart that was too good to be in the world so my father (GOD) took her from mommy to make her an angel too. Me and Sweat-pea play every day up in heaven and we watch over mommy. We met Jimi Hendrix and he petted us both! Sometimes when we look down at mommy we dont like what we see. We see mommy crying sometimes and it hurts us. If you think you can make my mommy smile please do so, ok? She needs good people in her life
