just read it |
The judge looked at me like I was a
criminal today
though I have not committed a crime
in years
scanning my eyes to see
if there was still a junkie inside
that pain is still alive
suck my blo...
Posted by Dejah on Wed, 26 Sep 2007 06:56:00 PST |
sad and strong |
I hate you for letting me fall asleep in your arms
Who will scratch your back until you go to sleep?
I despise you for letting me fall so far
who will listen to your maddening ramblings now
you'l...
Posted by Dejah on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 06:58:00 PST |
Awakening |
God, please help me love himwithout destroying myselfit feels like he occupies my breatheis the very life inside me but it is you who I need to surviveYou are the blooming lotus inside of meYou are th...
Posted by Dejah on Tue, 11 Sep 2007 06:52:00 PST |
pain |
I told him I would be his manic girlfriendShe could be his depressive girlfriendbut that wasn't enough for himto be truly in the game he has to have all the power.He took my heart and massaged it oh s...
Posted by Dejah on Wed, 29 Aug 2007 06:45:00 PST |
second thoughts |
Yesterday was hard. I think I've gotten through the worst but I now have this impending sense of doom. My secret hope was that I would go off the meds everything would be wonderful I'd discover that...
Posted by Dejah on Sat, 25 Aug 2007 07:24:00 PST |
sad |
I keep crying. I feel sad. Luke is still in my life, last night he asked me to promise I wouldn't leave him tomorrow. I cried. I slept with his jacket. I told him I'm not a slut. he doesn't belie...
Posted by Dejah on Fri, 24 Aug 2007 07:30:00 PST |
long nap |
Yesterday I took a nap for four hours. I woke up feeling refreshed but I was very light headed and woozy all day. I had a temper tantrum but managed not to act out on it. I went to a meeting but I ...
Posted by Dejah on Thu, 23 Aug 2007 06:51:00 PST |
thanks guys |
Well I was definately feeling nervous when I woke up this morning imagining the worst, doubting myself but when I read my friends and family's responses I felt so much better. Thanks so much you guys ...
Posted by Dejah on Wed, 22 Aug 2007 06:50:00 PST |
no more serotonin for free |
It's my first day off my meds. Other than occasionally forgetting a day I've been on SSRI's or SNRI's for almost three years. I'm scared I might go through withdrawal but I know my Higher Power is wi...
Posted by Dejah on Tue, 21 Aug 2007 06:58:00 PST |
me |
I skip work cause I just can't dealfits of anger make my life unrealhold it in hold it intrying not to screamwhat can I do with these fits of ragedriving metal materials through peices of mefucking fu...
Posted by Dejah on Thu, 02 Aug 2007 06:17:00 PST |
