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Ana

People hardly ever make use of the freedom which they have, for example, freedom of thought; instead

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Let's see...I am 21 years old, and as my 21st was the only really enjoyable birthday I've had so far, I fully intend to turn 21 again on November 9th of every year I see until I'm too old to pull it off. At which time, I will turn 22. Next, I hate classifications. I realize that they are inevitable, to a degree, but I choose to let others categorize me as they see fit. I know who I am, eveyone else has to guess. As I am constantly exploring and re-analyzing myself, it amuses me to see whether or not others can come to the same conclusions about me as I do. And, the way I see it, so long as I don't judge/classify myself, I can never be a poser, right? Right. I do what I want, I dress how I feel, I tend to be a bit manic(hypo-manic, even..), and I try not to worry about what others think of this. I'm brutally honest, but this is often curbed by my fear of hurting people's feelings. I understand how offensive critisism can be, and am loathe to impose it on another. And, oftentimes, others react in a violent/defensive manner when critisized, which, in turn, makes me react in a similar manner, and then we roll. And I try to avoid violence and hurtful arguments whenever possible. But, for the most part, I speak my mind first, and worry about the consequences afterwards. I hate working in fast food. I despise it. But, I prefer having a job to being unemployed, and I realize it's my own fault for fucking up my PELL grant and ruining my chance at free college. I will rectify this when I'm able. 'Til then, everyone boycott Checkers. For whatever reason-make something up-make my life easier. Thanks. I enjoy writing poetry, as it gives me some surcease from the ineptitude and fallibility that is the spoken word. I can express myself esoterically and cryptically and forget to worry about how another might misinterpret or misunderstand me. I have no interest, currently, in learning another language as I am sure it will take me a lifetime just to master and make full use of this one. I read the dictionary for fun. I also find it incredibly irritating and abrasive when people use improper grammer. To the point of calling "grammer foul" and proceeding to correct them. Oh, well. I am a struggling artist. By "Struggling", I mean that I am finding it difficult to put myself in a place of vulnerability/creativity in order to create, in my current life situation and environment. But, I continue to create when I can and wait it out. Hopefully, one day, I'll put together another portfolio to replace the one that was lost, and I'll find a way to make it lucrative. I can think of nothing more peaceful or satisfying than to do what I love for a living. Except, perhaps, being homeless and living on hand-outs, and disappearing from the stressful life that has overtaken me. Life is so much simpler when your only worries are food and shelter. Unfortunatly, it is also more guilt-ridden, as I hate to live off of the means of others. Anyways, this is a basic overview of self, and if I think of anything more to add in the future, I will post it accordingly.
You are thee who shall not be named.. the Female
Cenobite. You're truly vicious and bloody
thirsty, with only one thing in mind: pain. In
fact, you're so intent on your purposes, even
your master has a hard time controlling you.
Whoa there, sparky. Why don't you take five?
Which Cenobite are you? (includes pictures)
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Your Eyes Should Be Hazel
Your eyes reflect: Intellect and sensuality
What's hidden behind your eyes: Subtle manipulation What Color Should Your Eyes Be?

My Interests

Listening to music, going to shows, working at Checkers (Yay...), drawing dementedly beautiful pictures and getting them permanently inked into my flesh, masochism, escapism, books, psychology, tarantulas, biology, astrology & exploring.
Star Wars Horoscope for Scorpio
You are a powerful character. You tend to be possessive and lusty - which explains your greedy nature. You feel threatened when people try to order you around or control you. You are prone to suspicion and jealousy - but your resilience and passion get you what you want.Star wars character you are most like: Han Solo What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

I'd like to meet:

It'd be refreshing to meet some people who are less stubborn and close-minded than those I've been unable to escape as of late. I completely understand defensive psycholgies, as I have one myself, but they aren't impossible to overcome. As far as celebrities, I think Ray Bradbury would be at the top of the list. Along with Maynard James Keenan, Tori Amos, Davey Havok, Chad Grey, Trent Reznor, Daniel Oullette, HR Giger & Nick 13. Hopefully, I'll see Layne Staley and GG Allin in the afterlife...and William Blake, Edgar Allen Poe, Salvador Dali, and Elvis.
You Are The Magician
You are powerful and wise - beyond what anyone can see.
Deeply complex, you have the resources to connect to the spiritual and material world.
You posses the knowledge to manipulate your life and the lives around you.
You also have a great healing power, should you choose to use it.

Your fortune:

You have unhidden powers that you have yet to tap into.
Soon, you will better understand how to use your intellect and intuition.
Believe it or now, you will discover how you can manipulate yourself and others for good.
You are at the beginning of a path of spiritual enlightenment. What Tarot Card Are You?

Music:

Tool, Bad Religion, Mudvayne, The Misfits, The Cure, Tom Waits, AFI, NIN, Dead Kennedys, Dropkick Murphys, Operation Ivy, Molly Hatchet, INXS, Tiger Army, Cradle of Filth, Himsa, Fugazi, Journey, Blue Oyster Cult, Primus, Prong, Pig Destroyer, Slipknot, Murder Dolls, Danzig, NOFX, Coheed and Cambria, Black Sabbath, Ween, Stabbing Westward, The Refused....Oh, and pick your Himsa:mspmb allowScriptAccess="never" allownetworking="internal" allowScriptAccess="never" allowNetworking="internal" enableJSURL="false" enableHREF="false" saveEmbedTags="true" src="http://xtreme1.myveo.com/~myveo/amember/Movies/33291.Ki ssOrKill.wmv" name="RAOCXplayer" type="application/x-mplayer2" width="360" height="300" ShowC.."0" ShowStatusBar="1" AutoSize="true" loop="true" EnableC.."0" DisplaySize="0"

Movies:

Quills, Dark City, Dead Alive, Scream and Scream Again & the Dr. Phibes movies (And anything else starring Vincent Price), Private Parts ( NOT the Howard Stern movie, the one by Roger Corman's brother..),Labrynth, Orgazmo, any James Bond films, though especially Licence to Kill & Goldfinger, any classic musicals, such as Cat on a Hot Tin Roof,My Fair Lady, & The King and I (Scary, isn't it?), Fight Club, Event Horizon, Vampire Hunter D, Ninja Scroll (Best anime ever...), Big Trouble, Natural Born Killers, Party Monster, Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (Too great to be included with the other musicals..), all of the Kevin Smith movies except that most recent one, especially Mallrats and Dogma, The Evil Dead Movies, The Hellraiser movies (Mmm...Pinhead...) and Cradle of Fear.

Television:

I try not to watch too much TV, but Adult Swim and Sci Fi are extremely addictive...Along with Buffy on FX and MacGyver on Spike..... -- -- -- -- -- -- -- START YOUTHINK.COM QUIZ RESULTS --
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Books:

Anything by Ray Bradbury, especially Dandelion Wine, Graveyard for Lunatics (A Tale of Two Cities) and Fahrenheit 451, Anne Rice's Memnoch the Devil & Servant of the Bones, Anthony Adverse by Harvey Allen, The Three Musketeers by Alexandre Dumas & The Archetypes and The Collective Unconscious (Collected Works of C.G. Jung Vol.9 Part 1) by C. G. Jung, Gerhard Adler & R. F.C. Hull.

Heroes:

Myself. And Johnny the Homicidal Maniac.

My Blog

The Crier and the Buffoon

    Underslept and poorly groomed, A crier meets the town buffoon. Says he to this silly man, "I cannot leap, I'll bet you can." The fool is struck with wretched glee, And in his eyes an imp...
Posted by Ana on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 09:52:00 PST

Hmm...

"If one who lives in the midst of Christendom goes up to the house of God, the house of the true God, with the true conception of God in his knowledge, and prays, but prays in a false spirit; and one ...
Posted by Ana on Tue, 05 Dec 2006 09:33:00 PST

Personality Tests

Jung Test Results Introverted (I) 71.43% Extroverted (E) 28.57%Intuitive (N) 65.85% Sensing (S) 34.15%Thinking (T) 52.27% Feeling (F) 47.73%Perceiving (P) 63.64% Judging (J) 36.36%Your type is: IN...
Posted by Ana on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 05:03:00 PST

..........

In time all opposition fades      And leaves a shallow trail A memory of the price we've paid      Until our memory fails To comfort us with pride and honor &nb...
Posted by Ana on Sat, 06 May 2006 05:14:00 PST

Apprentice

Unfortunate malcontent Lying bleeding in the mist Raped by dusts that won't repent Withered shrill-her cry persists I banish auditory memories But still I do subsist Kept alive-somehow-I dwell Somewhe...
Posted by Ana on Sat, 06 May 2006 05:09:00 PST

.....

So intricate-these monolithic structures-yet so subtly do they    Beg pardon of one's other senses as they enthrall the gaze    With such a sense of longing-wrought by time-ripened...
Posted by Ana on Sun, 23 Apr 2006 05:30:00 PST

.....

Stop feeling so unfortunate There's always more to lose If you still need a tourniquet I have one you can use Don't sit here growing corpulent On things you never knew Try to be less impertinent Lest...
Posted by Ana on Fri, 24 Feb 2006 02:53:00 PST

Untitled, as usual...

God, I love poetry.  The ineptitude of the human languages can almost be nullified by the cryptic use of parables and metaphor.  One can at least hope to communicate the feeling and attitude...
Posted by Ana on Thu, 01 Dec 2005 02:20:00 PST

".........."

Troubled waters churn below A lasting chance I felt would grow Unfortunatly never known Like yester-years cathartic home But, lately cast upon Blue Shores I can't help wish that less were more A tangl...
Posted by Ana on Thu, 08 Sep 2005 03:27:00 PST

And more humbuggering..

My observation is keenly sensitive I miss the days of blissful ignorance When I could still pretend That loving grace and honesty Trusted away so selflessly Could somehow ease the sin That desperation...
Posted by Ana on Mon, 05 Sep 2005 02:02:00 PST