Metztli

As you can see my name is Nija! (my name have meaning, but that's not important - ask if you must). I hate writing about myself, but here it is.I don't care about people and I don't care if someone is in pain. I'll never trust or help another human. I wish I could feel attachment to other people, but I can't. I'm not trying to sound misanthropic, but I've always had trouble becoming attached to people. When I was a child I never felt very close to family or friends. When I was in Poland I had a lot of people who appeared to be friends, but, they were weak - I used their low self esteem as a punching-bag - a whipping post to relieve anger. It was actually kinda nice - I would treat them like shit and they would run like monkeys to get me free drugs - myrmidons. Although I make myself sound like a cold bitch, I have enough etiquette to be nice to people, until they piss me off; I have always had trouble holding anger back. The type of people who piss me off the most are people who try to portray themselves as angry, aggressive, mentally fucked-up people, but are really just normal healthy people who are trying to hide their boring, plain, healthy disposition. Those people make me sick because they chase the pain that I run away from every day - they can't catch it and I can't loose it. I like being happy as much as I like feeling depressed and pissed. Each emotion has a different meaning and reason to be there. I don’t know what is going to happen tomorrow and I don’t want to make big plans, because it angers me when they don’t work out. We are swingers ( my boyfriend and I) and we love to have "fun" with other people. I love boobies and pussies, and so does my boyfriend (of course). We love piercings and black magic. We hang-out at all different kind’s parties, music stores, library or theatre and school. We both love art. Aeric is a poet and I'm a writer ( I write in my native language-Polish, because I can express myself more concise) Oh well I'm a foreign kid:). I hate kids, small spiders sharks from outer space, Catholics and Jews (same thing).I don't see reasons to kill animals for food, that’s way I'm vegetarian (7years) I'm a polish whore and I love it!!! I still have European accent and that’s always a turn on for american fuckers (especially in bed ;)) Love me or hate me, I could care less.