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About Me

I see and talk to people every day that are so angry with the world, so angry with themselves for not changing it, so angry with others for not noticing. Why does the world suck so bad? Because no one appreciates what they have. No one loves those that love them. Not enough anyway. You whine and you cry about how you want a girlfriend, then when you get one you ignore her until she cheats on you and then you call her a slut. Cycle repeat.Why can't we be kind to those around us? Why can't we do something for someone else JUST so that they can experience it? Why is everyone's only concern themselves?
Kindness, love, compassion.
That's what I want. I am smart, I am sweet, I am funny, and I can be a bitch on the very rare occasion that someone rubs me the wrong way.Just because you dress in all black and like violent movies and music doesn't mean you can't be nice to a girl. Just because my music taste doesn't match up exactly with yours doesn't mean I'm not worth your time. I am a genuine person, I have endured struggles and hardships and I know I'm not done. I have lived all over the country. I have 2 children, they are both redheaded and beautiful. Jude my daughter is 3 and Pharris my son is 1.They are my life and the reason why I continue it. I am a painter and aspire to be a music producer and/or graphic designer. I love knowledge and philosophy and the basic search for enlightenment. I try to be open-minded in every situation I encounter. My vices are profanity (I cuss too much) cigarettes and red bull. Music is a main driving force in my life and always has been.I guess that's it really. Oh yeah and I have no tolerance for superficial materialistic idiots that thrive on conflict and drama, for whom I have plenty of pent up aggression to get out.
Thank you God for S. Dali..

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Ed Norton, Otis (Devil's Rejects Otis not 1000 corpses Otis..) Trent Reznor,Maynard James Keenan, Adam Jones, Rob Zombie....Salvador Dali, Ghandi, any buddist monk would be cool, people with a brain in their head and ambition to do something with it.I AM NOT LOOKING FOR A DATE ON MYSPACE SO PLEASE DO NOT SEND ME AN EMAIL FOR THAT PURPOSE IT REALLY PISSES ME OFF

Music:

I like what I like. Some of it is crap. Some of it is amazing. A LOT of it is amazing.
Fischerspooner..... Manson..... TOOL!!!..... KMFDM..... NIN..... Goldfrapp..... Peaches..... White Rose Movement..... Radiohead..... Rob Zombie..... The Postal Service..... Massive Attack..... Electrocute..... Combichrist..... Peaches..... Muse..... A Perfect Circle..... Say Anything..... MSI..... IAMX [genius, if you haven't heard it go listen to it NOW]..... System of a Down..... The Faint..... Chevelle (yeah they're good bite me)..... Flogging Molly..... The Mars Volta..... The Dresden Dolls..... Soundgarden..... Kidney Thieves..... Garbage..... Robots In Disguise..... Gorillaz..... Transplants..... Sneaker Pimps..... Snake River Conspiracy..... The Pixies..... The White Stripes..... PortisHead....... Murder by Death..... 311..... Sigur Ros..... Porno for Pyros..... Placebo...... Damien Rice..... Queens of the Stone Age..... Skinny Puppy..... I can't help it but I still love The Offspring (old stuff of course)..... The Toadies..... There's more but I'm done typing....I am currently diving head first into electronic music and becoming slightly obsessed. It's wonderful and I had no idea until recently. I'll take any suggestions of bands to check out- I have apparently been living under a rock for the past few years. I love music. Most of us do. I don't let the opinion of others keep me from listening to or liking anything. If you looked at my list and decided not to talk to me because of what's on it, you are the worst kind of fucked up there is. It's been a pleasure not meeting you. [asshole] As for the rest of you, let's chat..

Movies:

My ultimate favorite is Fight Club. I also love
American History X,
Vanilla Sky,
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind,
21 Grams,
Donnie Darko,
Snatch,
Adaptation,
the Kill Bills,
QT's HERO,
Boondock Saints,
Hedwig and the Angry Inch,
Devils Rejects,
Igby Goes Down,
The Usual Suspects,
True Lies (come on, we all like that movie)
Any Pixar film rocks my face off,
The Machinist,
Nightmare Before Christmas,
and a lot of cheesy bullshit. I am cheesy. who cares. I'm still super cool :P. I mainly love movies that make you think. Of course funny movies and scary movies are necessary to maintain a certian balance, but I would much rather watch a movie that you can't get out of our head for days.. Scrollbox Code from KillerKiwi.net

Television:

"But that square box don't represent the sphere that we live in. The earth is not a flat screen." -Saul Williams Da Ali G show!! Dead Like Me, Wonder Showzen, and I avoided it for a long time, but when I finally watched Desperate Housewives it sucked me in. I also love Arrested Development and the given CSI. Lingo, Jeopardy, Cheesy 90's sitcoms. Other than that I don't have cable (thank God) so I don't get brainwashed too often by the television. I just buy seasons on DVD, no commercials :) UPDATE: I now work for a cable company so I have free platinum cable. I still never watch it. I watch "weeds" on VOD (if you don't know what VOD is eat it) and my kids and I enjoy noggin.

Books:

nonfiction is the best. religions, philosophy, culture, art, "how to" guides, paranormal, etc. and harry motherfucking potter.

Heroes:

Buddha, Ghandi, Van Gogh, Dali, single parents, students that work full time and go to school, any Christian that isn't a hypocritical bastard (because that's really hard to do..)I really admire my father, he has been diagnosed with MS and still busts his ass every day to make sure that those around him are comfortable. All of my closest friends are all heroes in one way or another, they all endure life's struggles with grace or wit or something to that effect. [Melissa, Josh, Heather, Rebecca, John, Krystle, Chuck, and my luvah George- what would I have done without you?] I always root for the underdog. Defy society, defy your peers, your parents, your boss, whoever. Be your own Hero. Fuck everybody else man, honestly, who gives a shit what they think? As long as you are smiling when you go to sleep at night that's all that matters.
and that's that.

My Blog

comcast

for those of you that are wondering, it was for negative comments about the company that I posted in my online journal.Now I can say those negative comments on myspace. Comcast sucks big time.Leave it...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Sat, 31 Mar 2007 10:11:00 PST

so this is life

throw down what i pick upfill up what i empty, empty what i filltake off what i put onrape my effortsmolest my intentionsi'm almost in the swing of thingsmaybe tomorrow i'll understandthat i exist to ...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 09:03:00 PST

ART night

so thursdays at midnight is art night at my house.everyone i know or kinda know that is an artist needs to come over and flex your artistic muscle that we continue to muffle for whatever stupid reason...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Thu, 01 Mar 2007 10:24:00 PST

diddle my skittle

doodles done on comcast paper while helping douchebags set up outlook express:and if you didn't see my bulletins about art night, it's starting this thursday night at midnight at my house. Message me ...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Sun, 25 Feb 2007 11:15:00 PST

Good times in the nuthouse

Roses are reddishViolets are bluishIf it wasn't for ChristWe'd all be JewishThis is a poem that my therapist told me during my recent stay in the St. Mary's Psychiatric Ward.I could go into a greatly ...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Tue, 06 Feb 2007 08:43:00 PST

"Woe is Me" painting

alright. i posted that i was working on this painting a while back and I finally got off of my ass and [maybe] finished it.The original sketch is in a previous blog: "'Woe is me' sketch" and was inspi...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Tue, 02 Jan 2007 05:22:00 PST

yup tattoo uh huh

so hopefully tomorrow (later on today actually) I'm going to have this image permanently on my left arm:it will be more detailed and prettier of course, but gosh people it's 3:30 am....
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Wed, 13 Dec 2006 12:31:00 PST

I am Jack's inflamed sense of rejection.

I remember there was a time when I had it all figured out. There are no aliens, God is real, [he is that bearded guy the bible talks about] and everything in that bible is true. Every single thing. ...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Mon, 04 Dec 2006 07:48:00 PST

thoughts from a big fish in a small pond while everyone is sleeping

So it's 4:30 am and I should have been asleep hours ago, but I'm wide awake and full of incoherent babble.I used to always say that sophomore year of highschool was when I stopped caring about what ot...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 02:13:00 PST

macabre birthday

I did this for a friend's birthday in photoshop:I rocked the smudge tool like a madwoman on this, which I'm learning is a no-no. The journey continues. One day, people, one day.Also, I just realized t...
Posted by jacynda_rocks on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 04:43:00 PST