There's always next year

I really don't know what to write in here anymore. I figured I'd update it every so often about the lasted change in my life... or who I've become... and why, but it seems pointless. I don't know... I don't know who I am anymore, or what I want. So how would I go about filling this out? Beats me, that's why you're left here, reading this nonsense. Why do you want to know about me? What's so great about getting to know me? Just so you can judge me like everyone else has? Why bothering wasting my time just to be ridiculed? Exactly...~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~Al l anybody really has to know is that my name is Amanda, I'm from Utica, and that's how it's gonna stay. I'm 19 and I want to get away from this place, and everyone in it. Unfortunately nobody in my family has been able to escape from this life. So, I take the days as the come and make the best out of them with what I have, and the people involved in my life. That's pretty much it. Oh, and I miss my sister. I miss my father, my grandfather, and I miss my happiness. I miss you too...