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'"'beauty is and always is.
you are absent. why are you absent?
again your robot mind is the problem.
it will not stay still and you cannot make it stay still.
it is your master and it separates you from beauty.'"'
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Mandy. 21. ♥
I have 14 piercings and a penchant for pain as a form of therapy. I'm always planning what to adorn myself with next. My skin is an open canvas, with an ink soaked needle portraying a paintbrush. Body modification is my religion, without it I wouldn't have any idea who I was, am or will be.
I hold the few friends I consider my best dear; I have a fair amount of acquaintances, but to be my friend; you've got to earn it. Nothing in this life worth aquiring is free, friendship is simply an extention of that.
I'm not a dreamer. I'm quite the opposite. One of my best friends is a dreamer, which works perfectly well for her; not so pour moi. I dream, I tend to let myself down.
I'm all over the place, not just .. but in real life, even in my own head; nothing stays on a single path, but branches out into an intricate web that defines me. I'm a lover of the macabre, but also of cuddly, cute and adorable things (like my puppies Mia & Ryley). I love blood, gore and anything that will gross anyone else out, and I love romance (even if I don't recieve it myself). I love to swear and I love doing things for other people without them asking.
I can be your biggest fan and your worst nightmare, all in the same minute.
I don't do well with cold, it's truly a wonder I've lasted 15 years in this city with how our weather is. I'm as picky about seasons as I am about holidays, celebrations and the people I associate with. I hate winter, but I love the look of snow. I love Halloween, love Christmas, but tend not to be a big fan of my own birthday. I can get pierced all over my body and enjoy the pain, but come at me with a flu shot and I will whine like a 3 year old.
I hate pop music, and most country. I grew up loving them, and now I can't stand them. I love rock music and bands most people either haven't heard of, or just won't take the time to eventually adore. If I could travel the world and see the bands I love in their native countries; that would be the ultimate vacation. Finland, Russia, Greece, Italy, the whole of the Caribbean, all of North America and most of Asia; I want to see it all.
Oh, and I have a teeny tiny, slight obsession with Finnish rock bands (H.I.M., Daniel Lioneye, Sentenced <[b>R.I.P], The 69 Eyes, The Rasmus, Poisonblack etc.). Only a little bit. Really.
I want to find love.
Not just any love, I want to find love you can only dream about;
the kind that doesn't actually exist outside of film and romance novels.
The can't live without you, conquer anything, no holds barred kind of love.
Good luck, I know.
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