objectofbetrayal

I love a free and spontaneous life. And I attempt to enjoy it to the fullest, in accordance with the motto: "I only live once."I am very curious and open about everything new, I thrive ... Nothing is worse than when I feel tied down. I experience my environment as being versatile and always good for a surprise.AN ACHIEVER I need to be validated in order to feel worthy;I pursue success and wants to be admired. I am frequently hard working, competetive and highly focused in the pursuit of my goals, whether my goal is to be the most successful employee in the company or the "sexiest" woman in their social circle(hahaha)... I am often "self-made" and usually find some area in which I can excel and thus find the external approbation which I so desperately need. I am socially competent, often extroverted, and sometimes charismatic. I know how to present myself, Im self-confident, practical, and driven. I have a lot of energy and often seem to embody a kind of zest for life that others find contagious. I am a good networker who knows how to rise through the ranks. But, while I do tend to succeed in whatever realm I focus my energies, I am often secretly afraid of being or becoming "loser."I sometimes find intimacy difficult. My need to be validated for my image often hides a deep sense of shame about who I really am, a shame I unconsciously fear will be unmasked if another gets too close. I am often generous and likable, but are difficult to really know. When unhealthy, my narcissism takes an ugly turn and I can become cold blooded and ruthless in the pursuit of my goals