My name is Nicole
Some people call me Nic, Cole, Nikki, or Special One
You can call me whatever the hell you like
I have an overwhelming urge to help my friends out in whatever way I can
This isn't always a good thing
I don't think I will ever be comfortable in the skin I'm in, or with the thoughts I have about myself and the world
But I also don't think I would be the person I am today if I had a normal view of the world
I love my family more than life itself
And not just my blood
My family are the people I hold close to me
LoL. Poetry. I find it hard to explain the emotions inside of me, but if my mind decides the words fall into place
And when I need to explain my feelings, words fail me.
I will never be an average girl
But I wouldn't want to be
My hair can go from chic to Shrek with one application of water
I like things to be ordered, planned in advance and in a certain place
Yet my lifestyle is irratic, messy and completely random
I can be the most spontaneous person in the world
But give me a few minutes to overthink things, and I will run and hide
I don't believe my life is perfect
Or a tragedy
It is simply what it is, and I have found the way to get through it is to take it step by irrational step
I wouldn't be the $pEsHaL individual I am today if it wasn't for the support of the people around me
Mentally, physically, spiritually.....
Electronically
Don't confuse my mistakes and misgivings for weakness
I think I am stronger than even I know
But please don't test my theory
Life involves such heartache and betrayal, it's hard to understand why we continue with the charade - I find it increasingly difficult to justify the effort.
All I can do is to make it through
All I have to offer is open to you
All I need to do is trust
All you need to do is to love me too
I am Nicole. This is Myspace. And that was a waste of your time.
