Emi |

Destination far from here,
she packs her bags lights up a cigarette and follows the
drumming of her heart,
leaving trails of ashes in the wind.
Feeble memories tracing their long ridden death in the
cobwebs in the back of her black subcompact.
One last look in the rear view mirror as what was once home
melts into the listless shadows of the night.
Caffeine induced therapy with coffee stained lips,
endless miles on a winding black serpent left to discover.
She speaks not a word but her eyes tell the story in full.
A story of vindication-
a vendetta against the masses,
discovering her own worst enemy stares into her soul
writhing in agony to be human day in and day out.
Here she stands with faith explicitly so grandeur that no man dare stand in its path yet he be slain with not a weapon but one, a heart livid beating so strong that it tears down all defenses.
I don't think it is possible to ever explain who I am, or come 1/4th close to describing how my mind works.
By laws of nature we're forced to change to circumstances being composed of 78% water. Our bodies are of no passing stander in the eye of gravity as it pulls the oceans tide in and out.
I love discovering new things about me, and its on a day to day basis with people that come into my life.
I am hateful at times, and selfishly motivated.
It isn't something I am proud on, but I am willing to admit I have a flaw that I will fix it.
I'm tired of hurting people, and I am tired of being used. The connection goes both ways in this case.
I don't want people to be my friend because of what I can do for them, or because who I am.
If that is the case... I am no more successful or better than any man on this world.
Obligation is by far the most repulsive thing in my eyes.
Sincerity, needs to be practiced more often.
As far as job, I do modeling,acting,musician as well as write and photography.
Living the Hollywood dream and working day in and day out, it's a never ending pursuit but gotta love it :)
I'm a artist in the fullest, and I do fashion design and marketing as well, but I'm putting that on the back burner just until I get a little bit more clarity.
I live for books, rainy days, psychological murder mysteries, medical thrillers, anything that gets your blood flowing.
I'm fascinated with religion, science, patterns of the human mind, and following that cliche idea of nonexistent romance.
As for my dating life
I am very selective who I want to hang out/meet up with. Please do not take it as offensive if I choose to ignore those type of comments. I have come to the place in my life where I have exactly what I need, and romance doesn't fill my void like I assumed it would. I guess I am way too career oriented to get myself off track, and I don't blame anyone but myself for allowing me to get that way. I don't want drama, I just want people that love to have a good time and kick back and laugh with me without any ties.
Other than that, I am blessed, I am living my life to the fullest and know exactly who I am inside and out.
I refuse to hide under a mask or bury lies and deceit under rugs.
This is me... I am a never ending work in progress, but at the end of my lifetime I can say without a shadow of doubt that I had one amazing ride along the way.Please do not send me messages, I really hate them, anything you have to say you can send to me in a comment below.
and ps... don't forget to check out my blog!
http://emiliee-blog.livejournal.com/