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a good fight is never clean. (¡eXc!)

you're my madi.

About Me

Of course I'll forgive her. I *have* forgiven her. Without forgiveness we're savages. You're drowning.

Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it. I can't feel it. I can hear it. I can hear some words, but I can't do anything with your easy words.

Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boisterous, and it pricks like thorn.

If love be rough with you, be rough with love. Prick love for pricking and you beat love down.

I still thought you were gonna save my life... even after that.

Remember me. Try your best; maybe we can.

ONE.

My Interests

this is really significant to me, and it makes me...
it just makes me.

she's a brick and i'm drowning slowly
off the coast and i'm headed nowhere.
she's a brick and i'm

drowning

slowly.

I'd like to meet:

it's not who i want to meet. i want to know the girl who chooses me, and nothing else. i want to be the constant in her equation.

Music:

{A} Acceptance, AKISSFORJERSEY, Alesana, Anberlin, Atmosphere {B} Ben Folds Five, Better Than Ezra, The Black Dahlia Murder, The Bled, Blessed Union of Souls, blessthefall, *Old* Blink 182, The Blood Brothers, Jeff Buckley {C} Call Me Lightning, Chiodos, Coldplay, The Cure {D} Deathcab For Cutie, Drop Dead, Gorgeous {E} Emery {F} The Fall of Troy, Fall Out Boy, Farewell To Twilight, Felt, Finch, Ben Folds, Fonky Family {G} Glassjaw {H} Hawthorne Heights, Head Automatica, Hellogoodbye, Hot Hot Heat {I} IAM, Immortal Technique, Incubus {J} Jack's Mannequin, Jamiroquai, Jay Z, Jimmy Eat World, Jack Johnson, Jude {K} Josh Kelly, The Kinison, K-os {L} Linkin Park {M} Mae, The Mars Volta, John Mayer, MC Solaar, The Meteah Strike, Moby, The Morning Of, Morrissey, Motion City Soundtrack, Jason Mraz, Murder By Death, Muse, Musiq Soulchild, *Old* My Chemical Romance {N} N.E.R.D., *Old* No Doubt, Number One Fan, Number One Gun {O} Oasis, Our Lady Peace, Outkast {P} Panic! At The Disco, P.O.S., The Postal Service, Prodigy {Q} {R} Rage Against The Machine, Relient K, The Response {S} Say Anything, Simple Minds, Since By Man, Skyeatsairplane, The Smiths, Something Corporate, The Starting Line, The Streets, Supergrass {T} Taking Back Sunday, James Taylor, Third Eye Blind, Thursday, Tortured Soul {U} UnderOATH, *Old* The Used, Usher, U2, {V} Veda *now Vedera*, Vertical Horizon, Violent Femmes {W} Rufus Wainwright, Waking Ashland, Weezer, Kanye West, The White Stripes, Pharrell Williams {X} {Y} Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Yellowcard {Z} etc...

Movies:

Green Street Hooligans, Closer, The Rules of Attraction, AI : Artificial Intelligence, All Dogs Go To Heaven, Boonedock Saints, Bubble Boy, American Psycho, The Breakfast Club, Rebel Without A Cause, The Outsiders, The Virgin Suicides, Gleaming the Cube, Donnie Darko, Equilibrium, KIDS, Fight Club, Identity, Lock Stock and Two Smoking Barrels, Eternal Sunshine for the Spotless Mind, Snatch, Newsies, Shawshank Redemption, What Dreams May Come, Wet Hot American Summer, Butterfly Effect, The Crow, Romeo and Juliette, etc...

Books:

The Cider House Rules, Angels & Demons, The Da Vinci Code, The Outsiders, That Was Then This Is Now, Rumble Fish, The World According To Garp, Bless Me Ultima, The Rules Of Attraction, American Psycho, etc...

Heroes:


and i'm just standing there.

i can't say a word,

because everything is just gone.

i've got nothing.

absolutely nothing.

My Blog

C4 In A Heart Shape

words spill out incoherent scribbles, yet passion emanates purely from their existance.  one last chance to save face, but there's no dignity left in emotional suicide.  build walls around a...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sun, 23 Oct 2005 05:24:00 PST

I've Finally Mastered The Art Of The Let Down

define yourself on both sides of a mix tape she'll never hear.  but, not because she won't give you the time of day. (she gave you a beautiful night which you cannot remember, ungrateful) it's be...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sat, 22 Oct 2005 11:26:00 PST

(I'm Against) Everything You Stand For

so what if it doesn't matter now?  tomorrow you'll just be one more slit in her wrist, and over what?  you're just another reason to pop these pills and drift away from hurt.  what if s...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sat, 22 Oct 2005 11:21:00 PST

Unrecognizable Mess

you thought the morning sun was so bright?  try the flames of hell for the shit you just pulled.  what's she going to think when she finally comes to?  you only wish she would mistake y...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sat, 22 Oct 2005 11:16:00 PST

Peaceful As A Coma

eyes flutter.  deep breaths, in and out.  the brightness blinds.  eyes hurting almost as much as the rest of the body. (adjust.  adapt.  focus.) realization of unfamiliar...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sat, 22 Oct 2005 11:13:00 PST

None Of This Was True. (But Boy Did We Dance)

Stop me if you've heard this one before. hearts skipping beats while pulses race to 7 beats a second.  pressure builds and we explode incandescent light, flooding everything that ever was.  ...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Sat, 22 Oct 2005 11:07:00 PST

ben folds wrote a song about abortion.

...6 am day after ChristmasI throw some clothes on in the darkThe smell of coldCar seat is freezingThe world is sleepingI am numbUp the stairs to her apartmentShe is balled up on the couchHer mom and ...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

...she's breathtaking...

i have an amazing gf.  her name's victoria, and now that i think about it...i can't remember her last name. *oops, hehe* please forgive me, i know i'm a bad person.  we met at the used conce...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

first of all, wtf does "blog" mean??

me and ryan are listening to techYES.  it rocks hXc, and me and ryan are sXe...psyche!  bitches and hoes, my favourite kind...for sheezy my nizzle, d oh double g.  did anyone get that?&...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

...thought i'd pop by...

so, i'm just killing time rite now.  not shure what till thought.  am i really waiting for something?  sleep, prolly.  i didn't sleep last nite.  went w/ryan to school, and vi...
Posted by killing time wishing it was eachother (eXc) on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST