helen lorraine eats concrete

About Me

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Whenever I try and write this out, my mind races with thoughts to try and impress you. So frankly, nothing I say will be me. The only way for you to really know me is through talking to me. Although, these things are true- I'm loyal, but I'll be an asshole to you when you deserve it. I'm sensitive, so whatever you do, don't take advantage of that. I have nervous ticks, they are pretty weird. I can make elephant noises. I work at a lingerie store; and I'm fully qualified for the job. My aunt is one of my best friends. I cry much too easily at movies. I'm a romantic, and I think that Gone with the Wind ended horribly. I'm a writer and a photographer, but by my own means, and I'm not going to flaunt it. A poem of mine is being published in the summer! I'll really truly be dedicated.
"Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree"
I only want to meet someone that isn't afraid to be afraid, and isn't worried to be seen with me.

My Interests

currently:
any conversation about food; this includes food such as breakfast burritos and cinnabons.
lets hold hands.
"tell me, all your secrets."
"It's only after you've lost everything are you free to do anything. It's easy to cry when you realize everyone you love will reject you or die."(Fight Club)
"So you want a heart? You donâ€™t know how lucky you are to NOT have one. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made U N B R E A K A B L E." (Wizard of Oz)
"Love is only love when there is blood, its just the battlefield is glowing"
"What value is there in life, if we cannot be together?" (Becoming Jane)

I'd like to meet:

i want to meet someone who won't care what their friends think of me, won't care about the stupid things i say, will laugh at the bad and good jokes, will understand what i'm trying to say without really understanding at all. someone like that.
1)josh
2)timmy
3)justin
4)ashley
♥

Music:

currently: sudden huge obsession with select start
AND THE DOCTORS WON'T BE ABLE TO RECOGNIZE YOUR FUCKING FACE
"it's going to get harder
and it's going to burn brighter
and it's going to feel tougher each and every day
so let me say that i love you
you're all that i've ever wanted
all that i've ever dreamed of to come
and yes you did come
i want you so bad
can you feel it too?
you know i'm so, i'm so in love you
i want you for so much
i need you for so much
i need you, i need you, your touch"

Movies:

currently:
wes anderson and all good disney movies. the big lebowski. dragonheart.

Television:

currently:
i miss the 90's.

Books:

currently:
vonnegut, vonnegut, vonnegut. shel silverstein forever and ever. fitzgerald. rice. millman. SO FRESH.

Heroes:

I have two heroes. My aunt and my best friend. She keeps me sane; as did he. I love her more than anything, and I would take a bullet for her. I miss him more than everything right now, he would know what to do. "Heroes are never the same as idols."

My Blog

hey there

[What song can't you stop listening to?]Life begins at 40oz- Secret Lives![Tell us one thing about yourself]i'm a lot crazier than i've ever been.[Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?]um...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 05:46:00 PST

model

i am currently trying to hone my skill for photography and also i’m trying to find people to assist me with this,whether this be including modeling or not. if you have any questions or would lik...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Wed, 09 Apr 2008 09:29:00 PST

legendary

What I need the most is to be needed-to be irreplaceable to someone in the highest meaning of the word. It sucks that this is what its come to. I frankly have given up on people; they are far too scar...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Fri, 04 Apr 2008 03:59:00 PST

how could i fall for another one

What would you do if the last person you hooked up with, showed up at your door and asked you out?um i’d cry and then kick his assHow many lies have you told today?nada!Last thing you got in tr...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:35:00 PST

et tu, brute?

The beginning of the line that is said in many languages time and again. You too? You have stabbed me in the back as well?I feel so angry and frustrated. I believe that the sooner I get out of here, t...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:06:00 PST

My Stranger Best Friend

She knows who she is. I no longer know who she is, and it breaks my heart. I don’t know what goes on in her life. I am not there to laugh with her, to smile with her, to see her achieve. I&rsquo...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Sun, 30 Mar 2008 09:17:00 PST

The Bagpipe Who Didn’t Say No

It was nine o'clock at midnight at a quarter after three When a turtle met a bagpipe on the shoreside by the sea, And the turtle said, "My dearie, May I sit with you? I'm weary....
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Sat, 08 Mar 2008 06:57:00 PST

Filthy

[on my way back from NYC sitting next to auntieAnd the dry coach bus air makes you sick and nauseated, the lack of a light, similar to the weak lightbulb flickering and swinging its noose-like cord ac...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Wed, 20 Feb 2008 06:35:00 PST

the truth

The feelings that I have, the reasons I'm going insane are too unpredictable right now. I can't stand that my mind goes insane every five seconds. That every night the cold sweat on my forehead can't ...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Mon, 11 Feb 2008 05:02:00 PST

battlefields

I really don't even like this, but someone said I should put it up haha. The humming of the monitor brought my eyes to open, and in the darkness I did hear your breathing, softly chosen. I fel...
Posted by helen lorraine eats concrete on Sat, 09 Feb 2008 02:24:00 PST