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Heidi

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About Me

Losing emotion..
Finding devotion.
Should I dress in white and search the sea-
As I've always wished to be?
One with the waves-
Ocean soul

H E I D I
You can make me die,
I can make you cry
Opposites attract
That's the reason why
No one else can make you feel
Like I do, I do, I do
No one ever gets as deep as I do
As I do baby
Our love is a bed of nails
Love hurts good on a bed of nails
I'll lay you down when all else fails
I'll drive you like a hammer on a bed of nails

My name is Heidi, some call me Mrs. Laiho, so if you want, you can call me that. (It's cause I'm pretty much past the point of obsession with anything related to Alexi Laiho)
I NEED TO BE IN FINLAND AS SOON AS FUCKING POSSIBLE.
First things first- I'm myself, and there's not a thing you can do about it. I like to do what I want, and that can sometimes mean doing some pretty funny / crazy shit.
I'm in love with someone, he knows who he is. But I guess it will never be, so I just have to forget about it..

If you are true to me, I will be by your side as long as I live. I will do anything for true friends of mine. But if you are a fucking fake ass bitch that never liked me in the first place, when you get into a situation where you need me, fuck that. I have been true to everyone that I have ever met.
I'm going to be completely honest. I have no more than two friends that I really trust, and consider friends. I always see people that I wish I was friends with. Cool people.. ya know? But my problem is, I'm so shy that I can't walk up to them, because I'm worried of what they'll think of me. So if you want to be friends, you better talk to me first..
I'm a diehard Children Of Bodom fan, if you couldn't tell already. Even though the new album was kinda sucky, I'm still completely a huge fan. They could turn into the fuckin' worst band in the world, I'll still love em' more than my own life
If you don't agree that Alexi Laiho is the fucking sexiest man alive, you should go burn in hell. I'll fuckin' kill someone if it meant I could be with him.. Hahaha. (In my dreams....)
If there's one thing you'll notice, I'm the only NON-POSER
metalhead chick here in CT. The only shit I like is metal/rock. Nothing else. Fuck emo. Fuck the scene. You can call me a "goth" or a "loser" all you want. But I am myself. I'd rather be called a metalhead than anything, cause that isn't any bad label.
I was born in ashes of molten hatred..
Raised by demons in abodes of the dead.

I'm looking for anybody cool to be friends with in my area; metalheads, juggalos & juggalettes, etc. from Connecticut.
By the way, if I'm not in your top 4, You're not in mine :) That's how it works. I remember when you couldn't change your top friends preview. It was the first 8 people on your friends list that joined myspace. So shut the fuck up and get a life instead of myspace.
If you really think I'm a poser... look at this shit.
It Will Tell You Anything I'm Listening To. (Sometimes it fucks up and doesn't show anything)
By the way, check out Torn Asunder . My brother recently joined that band, but he has not recorded with them yet. They're a pretty sick doomcore band.
If you like Amon Amarth, and Fall Of Serenity,
you'll love this band.
If you think I'm cool, leave me a message with your AIM name, and I'll add you to my list. Or ask for my MSN.
[ My AIM is set to automatically block anyone not on my buddy list, because I've had fucking creeps and bitches IMing me. So if you creep me out, I'll never be online again. Even if you make a new screenname. ]

My Interests


Comment here:

I'm Heidi. I live in hell, otherwise known as Connecticut. I'm not like your everyday person, as in I am not some preppy chick that tries to be something that they're not. I'm a big fan of METAL. I'm not a goth, or an emo. I'm not depressed, although I have moods. I'm not a bitch at all, in fact, if people got to know the real me, they would want to be my friend.

I'm possibly going to Co-operative Arts And Humanities next year, for art. Every picture on this profile has been created by me, and coded by me. I'm a perfectionist only when it comes to my work. Everything else I have is normally messy, and unorganized. I couldn't give two shits on what you have to say about it.

I'm always looking forward to meeting METALHEADS and JUGGALOS from CT, because I love when I meet people into similar things as me. Ask me for my AIM / MSN if you want, and if you're a creep then stop wasting your precious time on me.

Finnish Metal News

Current Top 5:
1. Children Of Bodom [Inearthed as well]
2. Ensiferum
3. Woods Of Ypres
4.Kalmah
5. Agalloch

A
AGALLOCH
ANATA
AGATHODAIMON
AMON AMARTH
ALL THAT REMAINS
Arch Enemy
Anthrax
Anybody Killa
Aerosmith
AC/DC

B
BEHEMOTH
BLEEDING THROUGH
Black Dahlia Murder
Black Sabbath
Black Label Society
Bad Religion
Bad Company

C
CHILDREN OF FUCKING BODOM [INEARTHED]
CRYPTOPSY
CELLADOR
CANNIBAL CORPSE
CARCASS
CALIBAN
Crimson Scythe
Cat Stevens
Charlie Daniels
Cream
Clash, The
Casualties, The

D
DISPATCHED
DIMMU BORGIR
DEATH
DEICIDE
DEADLOCK
DISSECTION
DARK FUNERAL
DARK THRONE
DAMAGEPLAN
Deadstar Assembly
DETHKLOK- even though they're a fake band!
Def Leppard
Deep Purple
Doors, The
Dire Straights

E
ENSIFERUM
Eric Clapton

F
FALL OF SERENITY
For My Pain
Factor X

G
GEOMANCER
GORGOROTH
GWAR
Great Cesar And The Goegetters
Guns N` Roses
Grateful Dead

H
HYPOCRISY
Hatebreed
Heart

I
INEARTHED [EARLY CHILDREN OF BODOM]

INSOMNIUM
IN FLAMES
IT DIES TODAY
IRON MAIDEN
IMMORTAL
IMMORTAL SOULS
IMPALED NAZARENE
INSANE CLOWN POSSE

J
Jerry Garcia
Jimi Hendrix
Jimmy Van Zant
Joe Satriani

K
KYLÄHULLUT
KLAMYDIA
KALMAH

Kottonmouth Kings
Kameliah
Killswitch Engage
Kiss

L
(old) LETTERS TO CHERYL
LAMB OF GOD
Lacuna Coil
Led Zeppelin
Lynyrd Skynyrd
M
MISFITS
Mötley Crüe
Manowar
Metallica
Murderdolls
Megadeth
Mighty Purple, The
Marshall Tucker Band

N
NIGHTWISH
NORTHER

NECRODEATH
NECROPHAGIST
Nazareth

O
OPETH
Otep

P
PANTERA
Pink floyd
Poison

Q
Queen
Quiet Riot

R
RAGNAROK
Ratt
Rolling Stones, The
Ramones
Rancid
Reel Big Fish
Rob Zombie

S
SINERGY
SLAYER
SKINLESS
SINISTER
SHADOWS FALL
SIX FEET UNDER
SEVERE TORCHER
SKID ROW
SALIVA
Steve Vai
Stevie Ray Vaughn
Slipknot
Sex Pistols

T
THREAT SIGNAL
TO / DIE / FOR
TYR
TORN ASUNDER
THROUGH THE EYES OF THE DEAD
(old) TIGHT ROPE
TRAUMA
TWIZTID
Tenacious D
Transplants
These green eyes

U
UNLEASHED
UNEARTH

V
VITAL REMAINS
VILE
VAN HALEN

W
WOODS OF YPRES
WHITE ZOMBIE
White Lion
Watch My Dying
Weird Al Yankovic [haha]

X
XANTHER

Y
YORBLIND

Z
ZZ TopBoston - More Than A Feeling

I'd like to meet:



Music:

Music

Of course there's more than what's on my list;
I add more to it every day.

A lot of shit I like:
Top 10 At The Moment:
1. Children Of Bodom
2. Fall Of Serenity
3. Amon Amarth
4. Dispatched
5. Kalmah
6. Ensiferum
7. Wintersun
8. Kylähullut
9. Nightwish
10. Iron Maiden

A
AMON AMARTH
AGALLOCH
ALL THAT REMAINS
Arch Enemy
Anthrax
As I Lay Dying
Atreyu
Avenged Sevenfold
Aerosmith
AC/DC

B
BEHEMOTH
BLEEDING THROUGH
Black Dahlia Murder
Black Sabbath
Black Label Society
Bad Religion
Bad Company

C
CHILDREN OF FUCKING BODOM [INEARTHED]
CRYPTOPSY
CELLADOR
CANNIBAL CORPSE
CARCASS
CALIBAN
Crimson Scythe
Cat Stevens
Charlie Daniels
Cream
Clash, The
Casualties, The

D
DISPATCHED
DIMMU BORGIR
DEATH
DEICIDE
DISSECTION
DARK FUNERAL
DARK THRONE
DAMAGEPLAN
Def Leppard
Deep Purple
Doors, The
Dire Straights

E
ENSIFERUM
Eric Clapton

F
FALL OF SERENITY
Factor X

G
GEOMANCER
GORGOROTH
GWAR
Great Cesar And The Goegetters
Guns N` Roses
Grateful Dead

H
HYPOCRISY
Hatebreed
Himsa
Heart

I
INEARTHED [EARLY CHILDREN OF BODOM]

IN FLAMES
IT DIES TODAY
IRON MAIDEN
IMMORTAL
IMMORTAL SOULS
IMPALED NAZARENE
INSANE CLOWN POSSE

J
Jimi Hendrix
Jimmy Van Zant
Joe Satriani

K
KYLÄHULLUT
KLAMYDIA
KALMAH

Kameliah
Killswitch Engage
Kiss

L
(old) LETTERS TO CHERYL
LAMB OF GOD
Lacuna Coil
Led Zeppelin
Lynyrd Skynyrd
M
MISFITS
Mötley Crüe
Manowar
Metallica
Murderdolls
Megadeth
Mighty Purple, The
Marshall Tucker Band

N
NIGHTWISH NORTHER
NECRODEATH
NECROPHAGIST
Nazareth

O
OPETH
Otep

P
PANTERA
Pink floyd
Poison

Q
Queen
Quiet Riot

R
Ratt
Rolling Stones, The
Ramones
Rancid
Reel Big Fish
Rob Zombie

S
SINERGY

SLAYER
SKINLESS
SINISTER
SHADOWS FALL
SIX FEET UNDER
SEVERE TORCHER
Steve Vai
Stevie Ray Vaughn
Slipknot
Sex Pistols

T
THREAT SIGNAL
TYR
THROUGH THE EYES OF THE DEAD
(old) TIGHT ROPE
TRAUMA
TWIZTID
transplants
these green eyes

U
UNLEASHED
UNEARTH

V
VITAL REMAINS
VILE
VAN HALEN

W
WHITE ZOMBIE
White Lion
Watch My Dying
Weird Al Yankovich [haha]

X
XANTHER

Y
YORBLIND

Z
ZZ Top

Top Albums:

Movies:

Movies I LOVE movies. Especially like the medieval ones and comedy ones, but I love the ones with some kind of tragedy in them. HORROR MOVIES OWN ALL!

Tristan And Isolde
[I BEG you to watch this movie. It will show you that there is more to life.]
Ten Things I Hate About You
The Shining
Ever After
Head Over Heels
Click
The notebook
Cheech and chong [any of the series]
Teenage mutant ninja turtles
Clerks 1 & 2
The ring 1 & 2
South park- bigger longer & uncut
Team America,
The Sixth Day
Thirteen
Rock Star
Hysteria
More.

Television:

TV CSI,
Metalocalypse
Family Guy
Futurama
Reno 911
South Park
Headbangers Ball
Metal Asylum / Uranium
Slave to the metal [They never air it anymore]
Jackass
Almost anything on VH1 Classic
Celebrity Fit Club 1 & 2
Flavor Of Love
Surreal Life
The Maury Povich Show [LOL @ THIS EPISODE]

Jerry Springer
Aqua Teen Hunger Force

Heroes:

Heroes
Raymond John Motherfucking Willis.
Just to let you know, before you see anything else, RAY IS FUCKING SICK AS FUCK! He's my NUMBER ONE FUCKING HERO cause he's the best friend I've ever had. He helps me out with anything I'll ever need. I'll do anything Ray tells me to, cause seriously, he's done everything possible for me.. and I try to pay him back for it. Ray has made me whoever the fuck I am today. If Ray wasn't my friend... I think I'd feel as if I had no friends. This will sound random.. but I have to say it! I can't eat bagels, sugar cookies, subway, and anything apple without thinking of ray, because of the memories around it. haha. Seriously.. if Ray ever died... the second I'll hear about it... You better say your goodbyes. I love ray more than words can fucking say. And I always will.
KERRI ANN EVERLITH Seriously. Kerri, you've been there for me for as long as I can possibly think. You are my guardian angel
TUCKER
Even though my dog isn't human, and will never read this, I love him to death. He's amazing, and he can tell whenever I don't feel good. He loves to sleep on the edge of my bed, and lick my face to wake me up :) He's the best dog I could ever have
Anthony.

Anthony is my blood brother, and all my life, I've wanted to be exactly like him. Whether it was copying the way he ate his food, getting the same exact gifts he got the year earlier on xmas, playing the same exact video games, or liking the same music, I have done everything to be just like him. (Within limits..) I would not be anything close to what I am now, if my brother didn't steer me the right way. Before I listened to his music, I was listening to fucking Britney Spears and Eminem. Then I heard METAL. Ever since, I've become a much stronger person, and I've learned things that many people have not. I owe it all to my brother. If you think I'm cool, meet my brother. He's everything I am and more. I love you Ant, even though sometimes it may not seem like it :) haha. You'll always be my Antneeee, and I'll always remember how you love your french fries

My Blog

My poems :]

This is just going to pile up with tons of them eventually... so yeah, check every couple of weeks or something!Blindevery day i'm drowning in desperation,screaming for salvation..i've been falling in...
Posted by Heidi on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 07:10:00 PST

I'm starting to notice

That my life is wasting away, insanely fast. Day after day... all that I breathe is loneliness. Today at my school field trip, when we went to McDonalds for lunch.... I was sitting alone, eating to my...
Posted by Heidi on Thu, 21 Dec 2006 07:36:00 PST

Children Of Bodom- Sold Out?

What do you think?I think they have sold out. No offense to them, I still love their music every last bit.Take a listen to both of these songs. The first one is unknown by many new fans of theirs. The...
Posted by Heidi on Thu, 02 Nov 2006 08:51:00 PST

October twilight setting in..

reborn into a new reality...so today was one of my better days. lately i've been so confused about everything.. and everything that i feel, i mean, i just can't seem to let it out. the one i love prob...
Posted by Heidi on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 08:51:00 PST