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I love photography, music, travel, and beautiful people who can find compassion for those who are least lovable. These days I don't have the strength to do much photography, and my music is a savior, travel.... a far off dream to escape to. People fascinate me and I am an ardent observer of those around me. I am so blessed, blessed with the strength of mind and soul to heal my body, to fight this disease and to reclaim me life, even if it isn't the same life. Every day I dream, wonder, imagine what wonders and unknown pleasures and friends and love this new life will bring, I struggle with a newly diagnosed intense medical condition that is the most painful of all the chronic pain conditions. (Google the disease... RSD or Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy for more info if you care to) I am working to regain the ability to walk, working to release the tears of pain and disappointment and build on the positive healing energy that surrounds me. When I lose sight of that healing energy, my friends hold onto it and remind me its always there... all I have to do is remember what I have known all along (thanks Nydia- love you!) and know that I have the strength for this. I am a survivor!!! And I have survived more difficult things than this, so I will get past this and it will be a memory and lessons learned in patience and compassion someday. But my mind can't let go of the possibility that this may ruin my life forever. It is summer time and the power of life is blooming all around in the the trees blowing in the wind, the flowers opening their delicate petals to the world. I still know that this is a wonderful life. I used to say here: If you havent seen the trees blowing and bending, or a flower brave enough to blossom, or a young child's smile today take a look around and take in some of the beauty around you. This is still true and I work each day to overcome the pain of my physical body to find my way back to the beauty of a sensual flower growing silently, unnoticed on a vine just outside my front door. Please don't feel sorry for me, or worry.... This is meant to be and I will find the beauty in it, the lessons to learn, and the wonders of the new life, the new adventure I am embarking on.