Im kind of a big deal! profile picture

Im kind of a big deal!

nice girls get flowers. pretty girls get diamondz. bad girls get attention, But i get it all

My Interests

Heroes:

My HEROESMi amor: who I love very much he holds a part of me that I cant explain, but when I am with him all the pieces of me fall into place. I have two sisters and two brothers. TIFFANI is my oldest sister , she inspires me to be so different than I am, but I am not perfect so I have a long way to go before I can really learn from her. She loves God more than herself and would take the clothes off her back for any stranger. I wish she was happier than she is most days and if I could I would take all of my happiness away if it would make her see just how happy she should be for just being the wonderful person God has blessed her to be. KRYSTEL, is a year and a half older than I am and a darker brown version of me with a rounder head. When I was little I would follow her around the house bugging her, copying her every move, laughing at her, teasing, poking, chasing. If I saw her as much as I wish I could I would still do all those things because I am her younger sister and I just wish she would notice me a little more than most. DOMINIQUE, my God sister. I respect her for the things she has gone through. She has survived through many hurtful things and at the end of the day still finds time to hug and kiss her mom. To come spend time with my family and forgive people for the trifling things they have done to her. My brothers.. HERBY and D’ANDRE they are brothers annoying and fun handsome and waiting for chin hair, they are both going to be upset I am not writing more about them, but this is strictly for the girls. My best cousin is ANDREA, she has the loudest laugh you will ever hear and the hugest most goofy smile on the planet, but no matter how mad you are at her, you cant help but smile. Andrea is the only person I know that wont only hold me while I cry, but cry ten times more dramatically than I am because my tears hurt her than they do my self. She is like my little angel I love her with all my heart. I don’t tell her that because I am not so good with words, but if I was I would tell her that and soooo much more about just how much a simple thing like her huge goofy smile or obnoxious annoying laugh means to me.. And now im preparing for the gynourmous hug she is going to give me after she reads this… yes its gonna hurt. My favorite cousin is SHAVONNE, we used to be so much alike and because of that we couldn’t stand each other for more than an hour at a time. She knows what I am thinking before I can even think of saying it. I cry when I think of her because she will never know just how much she means to me. Shavonne is the only person I can completely be my self around, a long time ago she moved away. I acted like I didn’t care to much, but the truth is it was all that mattered to me, I blocked it out and tried to act normal, but bits and parts of me were missing. You know like the screws, and bolts, and nails they may seem like they don’t really do anything for your house, but they are what holds it together… ya its kinda like that. Seems like when God made one of us he decided he wanted two so he added extra parts to both then decided to give us different moms in the same family… and let us find our ways back to each other. To find home. LOVELY; my little sis. Definitley the most random shy person anyone can ever meet. She has a huge attitude and an even bigger heart. Lovely is so different than the average girl her age. I love her and I hope she will never forget where she came from. One of my best friends/ rivals… I love her with my whole heart. If I didn’t write about you its not because I don’t care, simply because I didn’t type the feelings that I have for you on paper.

My Blog

LIFE IS SOOOO ANNOYING

I am sooo not for some reason in a good mood right now! I just want to scream I just wish I could fly away and not have to deal with life any more..I cant handle the stress any longer... wish I had h...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Wed, 07 Feb 2007 10:52:00 PST

life. The abortion.

Life Poem The Abortion © By Bonita Baker RayAs the staff arrived at the clinic,they were taken by surprise.You might say they were startled.They could not believe their eyes.A prospective patient was ...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Fri, 15 Dec 2006 12:01:00 PST

If I were

1. If I were a month I would be: December 2. If I were a day of the week I would be: saturday 3. If I were a time of day I would be: 12pm 4. If I were a planet I would be: mercury 5. If I were a sea...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Thu, 14 Dec 2006 11:18:00 PST

not quite home yet...

Sunday, December 3 This week's promise:  God has great rewards for those who remain faithul Are you looking for rewards on earth? "&we who are still alive and remain on earth will be caught up in...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Sun, 03 Dec 2006 08:50:00 PST

Her songs always touch me so much.

 I Belong To Me It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby And I won't give up me to be part of you It's not that I don't wanna ...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 06:19:00 PST

love once

Love.. lost 2 lust What made you want me Lust me Kiss me Caress me Hold me gently Tell me you love me. What made you stay with me so long Smile at me so sweetly hold my hand so tight and never let ...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Wed, 04 Jan 2006 07:39:00 PST

about a friend

A best friend once Were you listening when I told you my dreams? What did I say? What did I mean? Were you there when I needed you most? What was the out come? Did I cry? Or did I boast? What did I s...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Wed, 04 Jan 2006 07:38:00 PST

FRIENDS!!!

FriendsA friend is someone we turn towhen our spirits need a lift.A friend is someone we treasurefor our friendship is a gift.A friend is someone who fills our liveswith beauty, joy, and grace.And mak...
Posted by Im kind of a big deal! on Sun, 11 Dec 2005 03:24:00 PST