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awesatarah

I am here for Friends

About Me

i don't really live anywhere or at all.
i think, that if we could live are lives a little bit retrospectively, meaning that we could move forward but still look back, or if life had a TiVO, we could be more confident in our mistakes. I meake a lot of them, and i like to chip at them like nailpolish, but somehow i think that if even for one second i could see a snapshot of how everything turns out like a misplaced frame in a silent movie escaping edit... i'd just ruin everything. so i float along, never looking back and spending a lot of time hoping.
the bottom of my shoes are duct taped, but i'm not poor i'm just sentimental.

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My Interests

unicorns, Star Trek, metal, makeup, astronomy, eyeball records (myspace.com/eyeballrecords), Joss Whedon, Neil Gaiman, AIM conversations, the ocean, New Jersey, COKE ZERO, Hard Attack (screw you Sirius. screw you.), Dawn of the Dead, hardcore, chicago softcore (ha. haha.), nerds, freaks, general outcasts, normal people, caffeine, being alone, crab rangoon from the Hong Kong Inn on Sunshine, D and D (stfuuu.), Buffy the Vampire Slayer, and Luke Perry circa Beverly Hills 90210.
and um. pirates.

I'd like to meet:

Optimus Prime.

Music:

This list was too long. I felt really pretentious. I love music. It's my entire life. My favorite band is My Chemical Romance, and it has been since I heard them for the first time when I was 16. Eh. We all have a thing.

Thursday

The Smiths/Morrissey

Pulp

Blur

the Smashing Pumpkins

Jawbreaker

I also love (the London) Suede, Elbow, New London Fire, Black Flag/Sabbath/Parade, Little Joe Gould/Murder By Death respectively, Lifetime, Midtown, Texas is the Reason, Jawbox, Sunny Day Real Estate, David Bowie as Ziggy Stardust, Hank Williams Sr., Paul McCartney (& Wings), Heart, Missy Elliot, Jay-Z, Kanye West, Ludacris, Iron Maiden, The Misfits, Danzig, Sepultura, The Used, NWA, Public Enemy, Xiu Xiu, Neutral Milk Hotel, and everything Eyeball Records. And more than you could ever begin to fathom. ♥

Movies:

Garden State, Chocolat, Elizabethtown, Velvet Goldmine, Alice et Martin, Dawn of the Dead, Star Trek/Wars, The Breakfast Club, Trainspotting, Pride & Prejudice, RENT, The Virgin Suicides, In Love and Death, and I've seen the original Dracula more times than most people inhale in their lifetime. etc.

Television:

House and Six Feet Under (R.I.P.) Hey, that's kind of ironic isn't it...

Books:

House of Leaves, Pride and Prejudice, The Silver Lamp of Night, Rainbow Boys, Song of Solomon, A Room of One's Own, The Perks of Being a Wallflower, How I Live Now, A Clockwork Orange, and...eh...other stuff.

Heroes:

i thought i would miss having them. and you know, i really don't.
but, barring everything, i still can't help this.
for obvious reasons.

My Blog

seriously.

i've created this sort of persona for myself, which let me say that i don't think it's necessarily a bad thing always, where i'm not very serious. i joke around a lot, and my humor is really deadpan a...
Posted by awesatarah on Tue, 23 Oct 2007 09:26:00 PST

thrift store friends

let me tell you a little something about something. life is really short. that's really cliched but i'm not trying to be original i'm trying to be honest. i'm at this really interesting point where i'...
Posted by awesatarah on Sun, 14 Oct 2007 12:09:00 PST

poem.

i just wrote this. i'm buzzed and it's three a.m. i've never written like this before, ever. ...please give feedback even if you know nothing about poetry. thanks. :) ---------------------------------...
Posted by awesatarah on Fri, 28 Sep 2007 01:07:00 PST

in conclusion

i'm probably going to delete most of you. i might delete all of you. don't take it personally, it's just something that happens. 99% of you won't read this or care, so no big deal. i'm sorry, i just c...
Posted by awesatarah on Wed, 12 Sep 2007 12:05:00 PST

inspired by my last blog...

here are some more old pictures i found... hoboy. LOLOL. i was 12 in this picture. that's a little boy that had cerebral palsy that lived down the street from me that thought i was his girlfriend. O...
Posted by awesatarah on Tue, 14 Aug 2007 10:19:00 PST

LOOK WHAT I FOUND!

hahahaha. oh man. those were the days, you know? people thinkin' i'm weird... me trying to get everyone to listen to crazy music. ...actually, nothing has really changed at all, except for i don't r...
Posted by awesatarah on Mon, 13 Aug 2007 11:15:00 PST

public service anouncement you motherfucker.

i'm tired of this. the internet has never meant SHIT to me. ever. other than hoping get myself out there, it's served no other purpose that to alleviate boredom. if you don't like me, leave me alone....
Posted by awesatarah on Thu, 02 Aug 2007 07:00:00 PST

liar liar.

maybe, since apparently people actually read these things, i'll get a few important things out of the way. these are ideas i firmly believe in. know this, so we can get along and be friends and such. ...
Posted by awesatarah on Wed, 01 Aug 2007 11:35:00 PST

in light of never having enough time to prove myself

when you can go back in time and think of this first: My name is casanova I'm basically a man I have the head of a wolf The appetite of an entire land This song is going out to the girls You're all lo...
Posted by awesatarah on Wed, 25 Jul 2007 05:27:00 PST

it is really kind of funny...

that no matter what happens, i'll be just short of everything everyone wants me to be, and exactly half of everything i could be because of it.   and at the same time, it really isn't that funny ...
Posted by awesatarah on Wed, 11 Jul 2007 12:55:00 PST