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Jaded

I am scared yet at peace. I am wondering yet I know. I am taking charge yet I have no control . Cont

About Me

Hmm about me... I am married (I really hate it when people here I am married and automatically the next question is "are you happy?") I am 24 years old.... I have one child Aly, 4 (my angel). I am currently a preschool teacher at a private daycare teaching 3 and 4 year olds.I am really still undecided on what I want to do with my life, but eventually I am going to get a degree in something. Update....Starting January 10 I will be going to school for Buisness and a minor in law (thanks to Michelle who showed me I can raise Aly, work and go to school at the same time). I have a problem to where I am not happy with one career choice for to long, it drives me insane but I deal with it. I just want my daughter to have a better life than me, she is my true inspiration... I am a practicing Christian who really has not found a church that both my husband and I can both be comfortable with...but I do meditate and read...I am extremely open minded and do not judge!!!Anyone that knew me in high school (not that I care what you think) but I have completley changed most of my views on life. Its been a battle but well worth it. So if you thought you knew me you are probably wrong.Layout made by LuCkYStAr0620 at CreateBlog.com ./a my baby girls 4th Bday

My Interests

Lately I have been filming a little and taking pictures. My true passion is poetry though. I enjoy going to hear local music on the occasion. When I get a chance I like to take on a painting or a mixed media project.

I'd like to meet:

anyone who is not a prideful idiot! and no drama queens!

Save the Drama
For Yo Mama

as far as meeting the famous if it happens it happens, but I suppose I would just say hi, and bring up a convesation about their latest accomplishment..I pity them with all the media drama. All they need is me stumbling all over myself for an autograph...Im a big clumsy I would more than likely trip and take them down with me...

Myspace Graphics - Myspace Layouts - Myspace Codes HERE!

Music:

Lets see Flaw, Shadows Fall,Pantera, Coal Chamber, Disturbed, Type o Negative, Lords of Acid, HIM, Nirvana, Smashing Pumpkins, Cat Autopsy Expo, Groove Stain (Live),Drowning Pool,Janis Joplin, Ramones, Jewel, Sarah M, Greenday,to name a few big names I know. Heres a few local bands or not to big bands that I find awesome Prime Mover (great Live show if youre looking to bang your head so hard it hurts the week afterwards), Package,Chambered, Storm, S.W.I.T.C.H., Nee Deep, Left Hook, Selva, Organ (dudes got some great powerful lyrics back it up with some awesome vocals and a great band you have the full package there I could literally (and have) be mesmorised by his vocals) To go a little old school I love, love, LOVE Johnny Cash!!! If you are actually reading my profile and you're a band from myspace you better be good if you send me an invite to see your page...just because I put Greenday down doesnt mean I like a lot of punk so step it up...just had to put that cause the last 10 bands that sent me something were a bunch of garbage...this isnt karaoke night go back to garage you were practicing in and come out when your original! But dont be scared to send me something if youre good then you have nothing to worry about right?

Movies:

Anything directed by Tim Burton!!The Crow!!! Under World, Queen of the Damned, American Beauty, A Clockwork Orange, Mall Rats, Walk the Line, Click, Underworld!!! and even as a surprise to myself (thanks David and Chelsea) Lord of Rings

Television:

Closet case confession I am a sucker for VH1 reality shows....(except Saving Bonadouchey (yes I spelled that wrong)), My name is Earl!!!!!! I also enjoy watching the History channel and Discovery and now strangly enough David has gotten me into watching SCIFI...I will tell you what I hate and thats American Idol Simon Cowell you suck! Televised karaoke... can you say stupid.....

Books:

Working on a book by Joyce Mayers and the newspaper frequently...Myspace Contact Tables

Heroes:

I do not have heroes just great influences in my life and the ones who have made the greatest impact on my life are my husband,my Mom, my best friend Chelsea, my Mother in-law, my bro, my grandparents who helped raise me when my Mom hit a rough spot (bless them they always got my brother and I anything we needed when my Mom couldnt afford it) my family and of course my daughter who have all taught me the true meaning of unconditional love..awww

My Blog

rants from a woman with emotional bagage...

Okay so today and yesterday I have been an emotional wreck quick to snap quick to cry quick to react... Well I am not sure its been worth it becuase it all seems too much. Now I am left drained...I fe...
Posted by Leah on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 05:43:00 PST

So was it worth it?

 Friends are not friends because they give you power over others. They are comfort, love and support when you need them. They are comic relief when things get too tough. They are your backbone wh...
Posted by Leah on Tue, 09 Jan 2007 08:07:00 PST

Grrrr....

so stressed so tired okay bye now! too much to mention....
Posted by Leah on Thu, 04 Jan 2007 04:45:00 PST

hollow nothings

No one made you God. So what right do you have to say it had to be said. Yep still Hollow....or not maybe filled with bitter nothings....     You know how jewelry can be gold plated? well ho...
Posted by Leah on Mon, 01 Jan 2007 02:53:00 PST

part 2 (this is my letter)

Just an update a (more or less a letter to the stalker in my life)  I am still laughing in your general direction get as dirty as you want the point remains you are the hypocrite by doing al...
Posted by Leah on Sun, 31 Dec 2006 08:55:00 PST

I have got a lovely bunch of lemons...

Well lets start with I have a crazy stalker type at my beckon call. Only thing is she has yet to learn I pull my strings. I say when life hands you lemons, chunk em' in the garbage disposal at l...
Posted by Leah on Fri, 29 Dec 2006 07:42:00 PST

Good bye

Fresh start.... A first in almost 5 years... Feels bittersweet..... End of a slump hopefully... I feel it all coming back again, but this time I am in control never to drift again..... Good Bye K to t...
Posted by Leah on Mon, 18 Dec 2006 07:48:00 PST

A mystery to the blind.

Blazing from a far is the warmth that dwelled in my being once opon a time. Reverence blindsided by the mentaility of drowning illusions. Temptation compares not, to years of bliss beyond comparison. ...
Posted by Leah on Wed, 06 Dec 2006 07:51:00 PST

confessions

Being recently inspired I thought I would let it all hang out here are things really people shouldnt know but I dont care at least there will be no more rumors...At least I admit my faults....  1...
Posted by Leah on Sat, 02 Dec 2006 09:45:00 PST

I did it finally

I did it I passed my entrance tests for school. I officially will be starting Jan. 10....so I guess is the beginning of a hopefully bright future.
Posted by Leah on Thu, 30 Nov 2006 04:15:00 PST